Every loving memory with love
I miss New Zealand.
It had been my virgin trip, so to speak.
It was my honeymoon.
It was a place I never dreamt I could travel to.
I thank my husband for that.
And always, there will always be a minute in my days that I will miss it.
I will cease to miss it.
I will definitely go back there.
Can you put two items of the same thing in your bucket list?
oh hi.
I know I have many pending posts to blog about.
it has been crazy months since my last post. ive had many other posts on drafts but never got to finish them.
what makes me resume now is this cool Lenovo Ultrabook 11 Ideapad. Dear hubby bought this and it felt like such a nice surprise after a very hectic month. sleek and light enough for me. loving it. I actually felt like I could do more work with my very own laptop. even write something! its about time, don’t you think? I have so many ideas I have yet to realise them!
apart from that I just want to make this as a reminder to myself. that I can shop with a clear mind and really knowing what I want and need instead of some impromptu shopping. hei I am actually proud of myself that I was able to use my NB sportshoes and pair of Birkenstock until the end of its lifespan! i really super used them, and only today i got the chance to buy a new pair of sportshoes, two in fact, just in case. no sandals yet coz i didn’t see anything i like.
and i finally, finally bought a uniqlo fleece two way jacket! ive been wanting one for so long for my trips, finally got it at just around 50 bucks. and that’s the thing what im proud of as well today. shopping within budget! all within just about $200. no doubt hubby sponsored them, but after having him got me this lovely laptop, i wouldn’t want to overspend 😉
and i have decided to never be pressured to buying dresses online just because others do and others wearing them nicely. i have learnt that if i cant try it or feel the material, i better not buy them because they don’t really come out nice on me. 😦 and since i have learnt sewing, i better start making some dresses for myself!
and so it is December, all events are done, my mind is clear and ready to think and plan for next year.
i know these are mundane. sorry to bore you.
I have been thinking these days. Quite random actually but its almost like a self reflection thinking.
I am going on 30. This year. I have been thinking have i acheived success thus far? Is this what i want to do? Is this good enough?
I have always thought i can do so much more. I am destined for bigger things. But what, i dont know yet.
Its just that apart from working and helping my family now and then, financial wise i am not there yet. I am not into luxury and fashionable items but i do look to travelling. I am twenty years away from half a century and i dont know if by that time i am financially free. I am saving up now. But it would be nice to see my money grow. And it would be really nice to be able to do zakat every year.
You know what my dream is? For my whole family to do haji together. Alhamdulillah my parents have gone to umrah but i aim for haji for them and the rest of us. And then travel see the world together.
And then there’s the success part. Do i still see myself ‘here’? Doing the same thing every year. Or is there something out there for me to explore? I definitely still have the study part to accomplish which i havent got to do yet due to the savings.
What about my husband? He has the money. But yes he has the house to think about and because we are sandwiched in income we had to get something which if i have had a better pay, it would help a lot but no. The daily needs of our lives. as a wife, it is only right that i depended on him. but Well, simply because being me, i am an independent person. I was that before i got married and i would like to stay that way, being the X generation woman that i am.
What if i am not working in the next five years? What if, God forbids, realistically speaking, my husband….you know…lifespan. I really cannot imagine life without him. Oh Lord, i need him. Please grant us strength and health. And that’s another thing: the wife role. I have always been thinking whether i am doing enough to fulfill my responsibilities. I am trying to juggle this working wife role. Maybe i am harsh on myself but i do not think i am doing great in this department!
Oh woman.
dont know what is up with me and this song. it was popular awhile ago, but i couldnt care less. but been playing this song in my mind for a few days and everytime i listen to this song, i miss my husband more. haha.
and watching the video, where at the end the singers met their partners, i always imagined it was me and husband. merepek kan. haha, apa2 ajelah seri ni :p
i love my husband.
i want to do so much more to show him i care and love him.
his health, his well being, his clothes, the food he eats, his spiritual needs.
i dont know what i would do without him. its only been a few years of knowing and living with him. but i have grown so dependant on him and my life revolved around him. i couldnt live without him.
he takes great care of me.
oh definitely there are imperfections between us, but that’s what made us perfect for one another.
whatever may come. i will be with him.
this was built to last. amiin.
Its a sunday i preferred. Not so lazy sunday coz i got to cook and did some laundry which includes folding them all.
While folding them clothes, i thought to myself and realised that i like doing these housechores. That it gives me pleasure feeling the warm bedsheets after a few hours hanging under the sun, ironing them, yes i iron my bedsheets. My husband thought it absurd, i mean he doesnt mind it unironed but ironing them makes me feel happy like all the germs dead and creases gone looking so smart. I think its just in the mind. But whatever.
Oh yes, like a child happily achieving something, i would squeal happily everytime my cooking tastes nice! Haha. But being a latebloomer, i never really thought about taste when it comes to food, but after watching all them foodshows, and the opportunity to go nice eating places, my tastebuds are awakened. And i can judge and criticise my own cooking. And learn what works and what isnt.
And now just lazing with husband, watching tv. I get to blog a bit and i get to read. Pure bliss.
A few more days to 2013. I dont do new year resolutions, although moneywise, i have learnt to spend only when needed sans books, that i cannot resist. And i know its always good to shop during sales. But what i want to do now is to do a monthly saving for knowledge or learning. i have a bit of saving this year, so next year i want to start keeping a sum aside just in case there are classes or workshops i want to go to. I know i have a list of workshops i want to go to, latest is floristry. But one thing at a time. Next year, i dont care, if i have the opportunity to attend some classes, i will.
Before i get pregnant and have a child, i think this is my time to learn as much knowledge and skills as possible. And i do not want to make work a reason for having no time to do things that i love. NO.NO MORE. I refuse to be dictated by my job.
So i look forward to a fulfilling year. Nervewrecking it may be, but i promise myself to be happy and enjoy life while i can. I do not want my mind to be bogged down by my work. I think i have had enough of that.
Well, its also going to be an interesting year because the big 3 oh is claiming its time soon. I do not wish to be a boring plain all work and no play person. God forbid!
Hello 2013 then. Bring it on.
July has been great so far. alhamdulillah. or maybe its just the state of mind. maybe its just that time of the year when things going a bit alright. but for all that has happened, i am grateful for it.
there was the visit from my fave singer Sami Yusuf to our mosque. i mean who could have thought Sami Yusuf right in front of me. haha. but anyway, its his songs i like and listen to. and as i have been telling the singer himself, we were very surprised to have him because my teachers and i had been discussing about our graduation this end of the year and choosing his latest single forgotten promises for one of the songs and here he is, right before our eyes. and best thing next to that are complimentary tixs i received for his concert the next day!! went with my mother to the concert and it was fabulous. he is really a talented musician.
to add on to my exciting july 😉 is my fave author Tariq Ramadan came down to Singapore to give a number of talks and a workshop right here in singapore! and i got the opportunity to go to one of his talks last thursday! i just love his reformative ideas and how he makes us think all the way through his talk. it’s a blessing to have listen to his talk on Religious Ethics in Post Modern Society. Fantastic.
and the letter for our Centre of Excellence (ACE) award reached us at last!! and that is another thing to give me something to smile about at work…apart from all the hustle bustle down there.
what matters most is i get to spend some time with hubby for a day and with the families on the day i turn 29.
its a weird number. and its weirder because im one step closer to another decade which starts with the digit 3. have i achieved my dreams, have i become what i planned to be, am i the person that i want to be, what can i do more and achieve more? how is my life going to be in the next ten years, if i get to live that long, will i? somehow 29 brings a lot of questions to myself. it really is. but i am blessed to have my husband with me to face this life together now, to support me and hold me when i fall and cry. always there for a comforting hug.
oh, add on to that weirdness, i did have a weird funny day. celebrating it with chernobyl radiation infected zombies (a movie which goes from lame to a bit of horror to just plain stupidity), a wild boar and a bunch of monkeys. quite a memory i suppose.
and of course, lunch with the tweevrans and dinner with the kamirs. alhamdulillah rizq minAllah.
to my man with the heart of gold and a gift of love ❤
to my parents for a gift of life
to yati family for the much needed notebook and giving me a reason to spoil myself at the prologue/popular soon!! 🙂
to sis ipah for which langkawi trip is possible because she belanja us 😉
to the siblings for the smiles and laughter and making my hardwork a big sacrifice
i love you all.
preparing myself mentally and emotionally for hubby will be away to China next week for ten days. i know its not the first time he went for a work trip. he went to US last year, but still. i will be missing him loads!! ten whole days! and i feel like just curling myself at home for that ten days wrapped in his shirt and sleep at his side of the bed, listen to his fave songs and putting on his cologne and just stare at his pictures…ok ok im exaggerating…heheh i pray for his safety there but i worry of what kind of meal he will get because he has a rather sensitive digestive system, its either a stomachaches or coughs. pray for his wellbeing and i just want him back safe. otherwise work will occupy me, but im starting to think now, that a rest at home and do some serious housechores would be good for my system. but depends…its the school holidays but i am nowhere near free. i definitely need a massage sometime. i think i deserve that at least! and i cant wait for langkawi trip with Ipah and cik bandi’s family. im already thinking of food actually!! ok, by right, i have nothing else interesting to say except that i will miss my husband a lot tahap giban while he’s away for his trip. but i find this sweet, he downloaded the whole 8 seasons of charmed and a new series called once upon a time so that i will have something to accompany me should i cant sleep at night. but abang, its not like i can watch all of them in ten days! but its the thought that counts. 😉 ps: looking around my four walls, i really should consider taking leave for serious clean up of this room!
a pretty good end for april.
its also nice to have a week without a working saturday and without having to think much on lessons and trying to expect the unexpected. it is very exhausting every week to always be on your toes and anxious of what might happened next. and indeed it had been a very tumultuous month. same old same old.
I am just truly relieved that the maulid event went well although quite a humble celebration but i think we did well and surprisingly more organized especially with the meal together after the event and the free ice creams we get to give away. and i am proud of the teens students who did a qasidah and ever so ready to help out with giving away ice creams and assisting our volunteers to serve the food. really proud.
and of course, the soft launching of the reading room. all the tasks to be done seem stuck in the head just screaming to be materialised throughout the month managed to be completed and the books purchased and the room decorated a bit more. i have to say i wouldnt have done it without the help of my project officer who did a lot. he did the mini exhibits and doing whatever it is i asked him to do diligently. but now that it’s 90% person done, more importantly is to ensure people utilize the room, but that’s another day to think about.
i particularly love how april ends. with my husband’s birthday, and brother’s birthday. yes they are two days apart. and sumptuous delicious meals for dinner at bedok on saturday with my family and lunch on sunday at sakura, a sweaty but nice walk at fort canning with the family and an impromptu visit to the battlebox.
a selfmade card for him, blue roses and nice shirts for him. what im happy most is i managed to get the right size shirts for him! and he loved them. knowing him, it can be quite difficult to get something he will really like when size and material is concerned. we get to have late lunch at east coast for his favourite satay and an hour of cycling before catching the sunset. it was a lovely friday.
and yes, a minor milestone for me is, i managed to open up an Islamic bank account! i had been wanting to open up a savings account separate from my everyday use and i hope with this effort, i will be more disciplined in saving up and be more prudent with my spendings. and maybe in the next five years, able to perform zakat some day, and even hajj or umrah, and oh well, just the nice feeling of getting to save up.
grateful and happy with what i had and did. hopefully more better days coming soon.
a decision still awaits.
when sickness creeps in…we tend to reminisce in happier times. after so long of not being sick, my body has finally succumbed to the bug. but since am home and seemingly rebelling from pending works, i have the sudden inclination to upload photos overdued.
MY WEDDING PICS…
My father our qadhi
doing what i’ve yearned so much to do
living seri 