magical day

it’s been a month!! of wedded bliss and fluttering hearts everytime we touch. 😉

still at honey mooning stage they say and what best way to mark the one month anniversary than a reminisce of the wedding day. but i guess pictures always speak a thousand words. and in becoming the bride, i knew now that the aqad nikah is such a powerful moment. indeed there was the qadhi and the witnesses, but it’s not only a matter of words and a certificate with both my name and dear’s name, but it’s as if the Lord Himself is ‘there’ witnessing this me and him union, and angels amongst family and friends. the whole universe is celebrating…ok ok i know, i read too much fantasy books.

dinner was magical. with my favourite song Anywhere by Evanescence while we made our entrance. i love it. it is a dream come true because i’ve always thought Anywhere is a perfect song to play as we walk along the aisle. and it did. thank you abang dearest for making my dream come true.

and i was a javanese princess on sunday 😉

i meant to add pictures in this particular post, but give me one two days yeah. one good thing was the pictures were ready within a month. the photographers were clearing all assignments before they hit the popular date 101010. except for the studio shots. and i’m excited for that as well.

and not to mention our scenic new zealand trip. our first quarrel and made up 😉 knowing one another a bit more, the struggle against the cold (for me, abang was at peace with the cold, heh) and hours of driving.

heartbeats

it has been a beautiful, amazing, dream-like fulfilled for the past weeks i do not want it to end.
i have so many things to blog about that sometimes words cant describe so where do i start?

the days of singlehood is passe to me. i’m a wife now. we have each other now. always. it feels so natural to be in his arms. 😉

i have hundreds of pics to upload. yes yes wedding event pics are ready! (i thought that’s fast, received an sms from the photographers during our honeymoon and collected them the very next day after we reached sg)

honestly, my mind is still reminiscing the days before, during the wedding and after, which is of course our amazing New Zealand trip. still fresh in mind me missing him when we are supposed to not meet before the wedding but eventually had to two days before for my bridal make up and dresses trial. my heartbeat was running (as if meeting him for the first time!) and looking at him and thinking “this man here is going to be my husband in 2 days’ time!” anggun andaman was great! beautiful gorgeous dresses and make-up! perfect place for simpletons like me 😉

moments of disbelief, of dreaming and imagination almost sinked in when my best friend Mahir gave me some ‘serious’ advice, my wedding service planner Kak Tini came with the photographer en zain and cik nor the caterer. while making some final arrangements, my mind so full of many other things to think about, but at some corner, it gives a picture of maturity, of responsibility, a new life together what lies ahead is indescribable and of possibilities.

the day, friday, when syraskins (that girl is very ‘entrepreneural’!) came and had to do my henna…i’m just relaxing and she’s drawing my hands and feet, therapeutic in a way..and the smell of cooling fresh henna paste triggered my senses, it’s another eureka moment for me.. 🙂

i was thinking of abang dearest and wondering how’s he going on with all the preparations at his side and missing him and telling myself this will all be over and i’m going to be his tomorrow! i may look calm and relaxed, but my mind and heart was like a hurricane of memories and feelings!

and come the Day. beautiful day on 25th September 2010….
to be continued…hubby juz called he’s taking half day!

5 more days

5 more days to go. and i’m nervous and worried and i pray that everything will go fine!
and its not just that…but also the emotions going on in my heart and mind that i will be someone’s wife and its like a whole different life.

at one time i will be thinking about the wedding and what i need to do next, or whether i forgot something or what. and for once, i dont think about work at all, i cannot think about work, my mind is just reeling about the wedding. and then at another split second, i will be feeling sad that i might miss my parents and siblings, of course, we stay so nearby, but its different! i’m moving to a different house, home, i think it can be a scary thought at times, but also excited because i will be staying with a husband. really, mixed emotions. no wonder bride- to-bes are discouraged to go out so much, because if they have so many things to think of, they are better at home than out. need to calm oneself a lot.

ok maybe i worry too much. i know things will be fine and i will do well as a wife. insya Allah.

but at this crucial time, i miss my grandparents. a LOT. i miss them so much and wished that they are here to be with me, to witness this day. i longed to see their smiles. i wish i could hug them and say i love them.i know they will be very happy. yayi would have been the happiest grandfather. nenek would already be here, staying here and will probably be nagging if i dont follow the rules, atuk would be here, probably sitting in front of the tv watching news. Lord, i miss them.

anyway. please pray for me. i want the wedding to be perfect and a good start to a marriage:))

reality check

Ok so the previous post wasnt meant to sound like poetry..i wanted to blog but somehow it came out in proses.

but reality check, i am LEFT WITH 3 MORE WEEKS before signed sealed delivered as a wife to my man. waahh, even the sound of ‘my man’ gives me the tingles and the blushes. ok no one saw that blush.

i am nervous and definitely rushing for time, because of course there is work to complete before my well deserved break. hand over of certain work and pretty much almost settled. i dont want to leave all the heavy ones, that has to wait till i am back.

and now i have to think of how i’m going to pack my clothes and books (ok not all of my books) for the move. i’m really kind of stuck having to choose what to bring so as not to clutter his room with my stuff. and the only time we have are weekends! and my time is rather limited, what’s with working whole day and by the time i came home from either terawih or zakat duty, i’ll be exahusted and need the rest for the next day. and then i’m thinking of making some simple cookies. but really i’m so rushing for time.

I hope i can do everything. and now would be the time to set some financial priorities and set the day that i can accomplish things.

a change

i’m thinking
of this change that i’m facing
no longer one and only
but at long last
having my one and only

i used to think that i’ll be alone
for the longest time
just me alone
work and family
fulfilling days with friends perhaps
and my books definitely
and without a partner in crime

but now i found myself
a man so good hearted
who cares a lot about me
that i cant bear to hurt him
and so i’m no longer alone

so now its 3 weekends away
from our vows of marriage
and i’m wondering if i’m ready
to leave a life of alone
to a life of company
to leave a life of 7 crowd
to a life of peaceful 2

i will miss my room
my mattress, my bronze fan,
my ikea side table, my bookshelf of books
i will miss my travels alone
my zen mp3 accompanying me

i will miss my sisters
their laughters and shouts
our arguments and our hugs

i will miss my brothers
their teasing and craps

i will miss my father
his silence and patience

i will miss my mother
her nags and moodswings

i will miss that all these happen
under one roof within four walls of this house

and i’m moving leaving
no more of my footsteps and my voice

but i’m moving and praying
that i can be as Khadijah r.a
a wife loyal and true
that i can serve my husband
with love and care
sincere and patient
everything for him
with all my heart

Lord, please guide me
through this change

november rain

and so i wanted to blog. after a day of laundry and suspending a sub and reading for the second time, The Glass Castle (because it’s also a gift from you). and now on to gilbert’s eat pray love. when by right, i still have oh so many pending works to do post-retreat at batam. it’s a dread. but it’s work, you just have to do it.

let’s congratulate dear fren dyan for the beautiful wedding accompanied by heavy november rain, which, for a split second, i felt like happy tears for her, him and their family. like there’s one more soul encompassing us. bless her dear late mother. and my fren especially, looked gorgeous! the devil in manolos no more! 😛
although as her ‘maids’ we pretty much have work to do, but i realised i enjoyed the whole event especially when the dj started to play songs from her playlist, which pretty much similar to my music genre (muse, no use for a name, radiohead and etcetc)and seeing people having fun at the photobooth with some funny props.

some of my personal faves from the many pics i’ve grabbed from the bridesmaids’ cameras.



the very best for dyan and zaki. and while i’m writing, i mean, blogging this, they’re probably somewhere in Europe~

and the meet with beloved girlfriends is fantabalustic and encyclopedic night with jokes and sharings and surprises. with the sudden excitement on mcd monopoly (everyone rooting for sentosa cove) and selebriti ‘treatments’ and pseudo magical powers, and oh yes, definitely tis the season to get married. 😀

i love them babes.

although for the happy moments for a friend or with friends, i also had to sacrifice some time away from my one and only. i hated having to disappoint you…and seems like it’s going to be this way for the next coming weeks:/ okay maybe not as bad as the past weeks, i hope. and you have shown much patience since day one i’ve known you.

we still have a sunrise to catch. but a lifetime to experience it.

26 and Engaged

a perfect week had gone by. i wish i can relived the week and savour the moments again. a moment of bonds of lurve, care and belief. and i am officially a fiancee to Suhaimi Tweevran. just saying it makes me glow laaa 😉

anyway, between working (it was the first week of classes back at the mosque…so imagine the number of calls i received and decisions and making sure things are well and running for the first day of classes!!) and preparing for the day, wahh really one of the times when my mind is just jumping from one thing to another…but alhamdulillah, our day went well and smooth. perfect just as i had imagined it!

first would be the backdrop. excellent work by Kak Tini of JG Wedding Creations. turqoise and beige curtains and white roses with a touch of butterflies. we had to have the backdrop to cover the shelves with its all nitty gritty bits and there is no way guests are going into my totally crammed room. but i’m truly glad we have it at the living room for the comfort of everyone and of course me, the princess (as little Amirah called me) haha.

oh before that, i have to say i’m really happy that the gifts turn out nice anyway, to me and my mother’s eyes la. we did the final touches on the night before, adding pretty pretty yellow orchids and red carnations with some baby breaths to give more colour to our silver metallic and black themed hantarans. i hope you like it. 😉

and love the pouches for the bunga rampai!! and the handkerchief + hairclip gifts!

then came the cake, absolutely gorgeous cake!! (rinacreations.com)

and after what seemed so long…being dolled up..and thinking what have i put myself into(??!!)with all this make up on??! haha. but the dress is real nice and the idea is to feel like galadriel, which i think i did, especially when i was all ready and waiting at the living room, one of the LOTR dvd was on play. a very smart way to ease the nervousness 😉

and the moment came, amazingly huge crowd, and i thought you mentioned 20 from your side?? 🙂 with my paternal and maternal family members, and his family members who came, our hall really saves the day.
two families bonded and really there’s no word to describe the beautiful feeling especially when kak Surifah put on the ring. i mean my mind was just shouting THIS IS IT. SERI YOU’RE ENGAGED!!

at that few minutes, it actually felt long to me.:)
more pictures to feast on:
..paternal cousins and aunts..Thank you to my aunts for some of the cakes and puddings as gifts~ i heard the durian beancurd was a hit with the guests!
..from him..
Cik Saad and family-sans- Hanis. Thank you Suli for the Batik Cake
love these pics!


..his family..

my joy my life my everything and the most hardworking people on the day!!:) well people, you got your wish to see me having a boyfriend and engaged….and coming soon…haha

well there’s a list of people i had to thank:
my paternal aunts for preparing some additional feast and yes, the durian beancurd(!)and some of the gifts for him
cousin suhaili for baking the mentioned cake. my aunt Wak Mal and family for staying the WHOLE day till late night to help clear up the buffet stuffs and whatnots.
kak Tini for the gorgeous backdrop cum dais, kak rina for the gorgeous cake, and cik leha for making me feel like a gorgeous galadriel..erkkk…:))
oh yes the caterer cik jehan for the best teh susu! and sumptuous food!
and dayah and husband othman for staying throughout as well and being the official photographer
my armoured petals for the nice gift! so going to use the wedding journal! 😉 dyan and mahir and fana and Teach for coming~
and every single person who came and celebrate this meaningful day with me and my family. all of you make it more beautiful than ever. i kinda have a preview to the Big Day, hehe;)

and you, for making me a part of your life.
never in my imagination, has this very picture came to mind, but God has HIS ways and has lead me to you. you mean so much to me now more than ever. and i treasure every minute with you.
well, i can say we’ve never really been that far from one another all these years…it just takes us longer to find each other…

ps:thank you for the perfect gifts and the giant cake/cupcakes ;)and for pampering me with more books and more blue roses! and yes red roses would be nice sometimes;))

all nice in blue

hectic week has left me exhausted with a sweet ‘i-can’t-describe-what-it is’ feeling. 😉

to ma*hir, my closest friend since primary school years. the thing about closest friends is that you don’t know how and why you end up together, why our friendships maintained till this day, and between you could be two stark different people. and of all friends who’s been married for now, ma*hir’s wedding seemed unbelievable. for one thing, it’s become a common anticipation among our classmates, since ma*hir and aa.shiq had been together for the longest time, since sec 2? sec 3? albeit the hiccups now and then in relationships, they got through it all. i’m so proud of you la babe!! :)) (and i’m so glad i had a heart to heart talk with you last monday night).

it’s a beautiful wedding, purple dais and bride n groom in white and gold, mahir’s dress looked like galadriel’s dress(!) during the nikah, and nice pastel colours, an English country theme on Sunday with a touch of bhangra! it was definitely something to be remembered! instead of the normal kompangs accompanying the groom, they had the bhangra!! i’m so happy for you la ma*hir & aa.shiq!


and somehow i got smitten by these handsome boys~

squeezed in some time on thursday night with the zharif babes at a non-zharif fullerton starbucks albeit with a sun sunny boy serving free crunchy and warm blueberry muffin and melt in your mouth choc cake. had the best laughters over jokes and facebook. thank you babes!

blue petals a sweet lullaby for as long as it can, but the memory of it stays. it seems like being with you, everything is a first for me.

a wedding bond

4 full days at KL was such a memorable family affair that even my younger siblings are already missing the days and the people we left behind. honestly truly. we missed the laughters and endless conversations. we missed the two apples of everybody’s eyes – little Haris and Ikmal, we missed the togetherness and yes, we missed the food!! :))

we’re there to celebrate a cousin’s- Kak Mala’s wedding, my mother’s first brother, our pak ngah’s second daughter. ok to explain the family tree is quite a mouthful. but quite simply, my Mak Long and Pak Ngah and their family are Malaysians living @ KL.

we arrived KL thursday evening and bunked in Pak Ngah’s apartment, and just enough time for us to join in the malam berinai and apa lagi kita2 pun join la. and especially the *ehem* pengapit *ehem*. all preparations for the wedding set and ready, like the hantarans are ready, pelamin and so on so forth.

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and already that night, the chatters started, mak long and my mother always, always have something, stories to talk about, kita yang mendengar pun penat~ haha.

the nikah/ solemnization took place friday noon, at Muadz bin Jabal Mosque and i got the honour of being the ‘ring bearer’ (feeling frodo LOTR pulak)~~

and the bride herself, kak Mala is so so so gorgeous! you know how people will say “pengantin muka lain” well yeah something like that.

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well, i’ll skip the details la ek, because honestly there are hundreds of pictures. and the pics on the nikah alone are alot, taken from many angles~ i wish i had a nikon coolpix at that moment!!

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Rosmila & Wan Haziezul, the latest addition to the family! Abg Zizul proved to be a friendly knowledgeable person and the perfect match for kak Mala. and yeah, mereka adalah pengantin paling sempoi!! siap lawak2 atas pelamin, abg zizul sempat tunggu furniture kat rumah baru lagik that sanding morning!

and saturday would be the sanding event. now this is the exciting part~ the sanding was held at a communal hall within the neighbourhood. though it looks near from the apartment, but walking would be quite a distance. while everyone else already at the hall, i stayed to wait for the bride, and amongst some kelam kabut and *kipas pengantin tertinggal at the hall, and no one else around, so the pengapit dr*ove to the hall to get the *kipas, accompanied by cousin halim, why, of course, the pengapit don’t know the way to the hall, also thinking oh Lord, oh Lord, please save me! but at that point of time, the knowledge and being able to dri*ve comes in really really handy.

and when everyone’s ready, the bride and groom ready to go, the pengapit had to again, dr/ove herself to the hall + cousin halim, his wife and little daughter. all the kanchiong ness dissolve and the automatic calmness came by itself when the bride and groom made their grand entrance to the hall, accompanied by the bridesmaid and the bestman.

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as much as i hate pink and the fact that the very last time i wore this dress was during raya with the girls two years ago, this very dress had fulfilled it’s actual destiny that day, hehe. and for that, i loved this dress.

alhamdulillah, the whole event went well, although there were some glitches here and there but what we missed the most – the family in Singapore who couldn’t be there with us. Cik Jamal & Family, Cik Mail & family, Cik Amat and family and Cik Saad and family. Because we believed had all of us, the complete family were there, it would be more grand. and then it would really be a family affair. and i could just imagined the glow of pride in Mak Long and Pak Ngah.

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All the same, i really looked up to kak Mala for her preparations for this wedding, they already have a house, kereta tak payah cakaplah, both have their own cars, and the wedding was well prepared to the bits and pieces. and the hantarans were beautiful.

to Kak Mala and Abg Zizul, SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU!!

i’ll leave you with some pictures~

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P1060166 Haris and Ikmal

even my brothers are smitten by them. this is what we say “like uncles like nephews”

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and it’s Ikmal and Haris we miss the most!!!