i was just thinking and remembering that this same night, 6 years ago, i made a turning point. and i yearn to have that feeling again. is tonight the night?
6 years ago, i made a very difficult decision. but this night have helped me to pull through. for i know there’ll always Be There. i remember this night had given me strength. truly.
and days ago i had to make a difficult decision. again. and i understood the moment i voiced out my decision, there are going to be challenges. there are going to be hardships. which might just pull me down. i understood that well enough. even if i were to choose the other. the same rule applies. i know it’s going to be hard. i just wasn’t expecting it to be rushing down on me.
for every hardship there is relief, seri, for every hardship there is relief.
but maybe tonight is the night?
——————– aside from that, after so long not talking about the friend, i happened to hear two different news about the friend within the span of 7 days. neither good nor bad, coz i don’t care..anymore. heard the friend is getting engaged soon. and then heard the friend was sentenced to a month’s jail. a world’s apart of news, heh?
and now i began to not understand why things happened, why the friend had to be a …friend…back in those days? i had always believed the friend more, despite all those ‘stories’. always had.
and now i began to think, for all those ambiguous words you said to me, friend. i guess there is one truth.
“you’re right, friend, i don’t deserve you.”
thank you for not being a friend anymore. coz it hurts less this way.
i thank my peeps for having stood up for me in this sudden tag war. i love you all. however, let us put the past behind and i doubt this anugerahband guy, or girl for that matter, would ever return to this blog anyway~
in summary, i would respect this person’s views and his/her aggressive sentiments towards the competition, heck, i would understand, it might be a boyfriend in the bands, or a family among members in the mentioned bands who happened to be the subject of my own personal sentiments and what i think of the band name.
it was never about the bands.
but i do think the person him/herself is confused to have mixed up how-i-look with what-i-think. it was not supposed to be that way. what i say have nothing to do with how i look. you may not agree with what i think (heck, i won’t really care if people agree/disagree with me) of the bandname, but i honestly think you don’t have the right to judge my looks, just as i may not agree with the bands’ names, but i definitely didn’t judge how they look. faham? tak faham? who cares!
this is stupid. it’s just a competition. why get so uptight in the first place, huh?? i gave you a helven post, and you give me a tag full of rancour. go figure. soooo not royale…spread virus cinta, ok beb?? [‘helven’ is used with the understood meaning as defined by a mr/ms loco]
why would i write this “ALL THE BEST to …….the participants of ANUGERAH BAND. make us proud…” at the end of the post if i’m not giving my support to the Malay bands?? and voted for that matter~
and actually giving some credits to the bands “..who knows the industry very well (because for all you know, these are bands who have been singing all their life UNDERGROUND, and they might know BETTER about the scene than you could ever be), give constructive comments which at the end of the day, even if a band lose out, they go back learning something useful, which they can apply for other pursuits…”
also i already noticed one trailer for the competition, where some of the bands actually explained the meaning behind their bandname. HEY THAT’S GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME!! JUST WHAT I WANTED! haha. i don’t need other people coming in anonymously giving their piece….
so no thanks.
monologue: just shows how important the competition is to everyone.
an overdued post actually. but would pictures tell it all? :))
as a Mother’s day and an advanced Father’s Day present, i bought tix for them and me 😉 to the P Ramlee Muzikal held at the Esplanade Theatre. it was a beautiful performance altogether. well, for a first timer, ever been in a theatrical performance, it sure gives a whole lot of impression and awe. i pretty much enjoyed the musical, the dances and songs especially when P Ramlee’s song was performed. (and Thank God it’s not Sean Ghazi nor Datuk ct among the cast!!) Liza Hanim is such a dear, and the guy playing P Ramlee, Musly Ramlee, he’s honest and the sincerity in bringing P Ramlee’s character is applaudable, its the same as how you watch…say, Bujang Lapok films, at some points i feel like Musly is not Musly, but The P Ramlee, you get what i mean?? pardon if you can’t. honestly, i can’t quite describe the awesomeness.
and now…i’ve been listening to P Ramlee’s songs these few days. ahakzz.
even though i had to fight my inner ‘responsible’ part of me and go to another concert…i don’t regret it though. it’s just the thought….of making my parents happy. and getting to watch one great art production.
psst..gentarasa this saturday… *wink wink*
and last vesak day, despite the heat, went out to meet the girls at the Terminal 3 Changi Airport. some pics to show tell.
yes, it’s actually to celebrate Za’s birthday… Happy Birthday Za!! we all used to have EXPECTED birthday surprises back in IIUM, wah liao, missed those times when the clock strikes 12, there’s sure to be a knock on the door, the girls and a cake waiting for the birthday girl!
but now, except for Za, all of us are back in SG, so can’t expect to be having surprises now. there’ll be a hundred reasons why one of us can’t join, and then there’ll be the totally unexpected missed out names on the list (even though we’ve always tried our best to ‘publicize’ the outing), and then there’ll be a hundred reasons why one of us can’t join…oh..i’ve said that already…and then there’ll be the laughters and talks, the heartbreaks and feelings hurts. (tu ah, mak cakap jangan banyak ketawa, nanti nangis..)
ok ok am being ultra sarcastic. it’s the heat and the fever am having now. i keep getting sick this year~ i’m not thinking well. i just had sh*7^/y chats and i’m being sh*7^/y. . and the net and imeem is sh*7^/y.
(can you see that?? the change of emotions i had in a span of minutes?) i want to go back to my sh*7^/y reading of Through a Glass, Darkly, which at this point, i regretted reading, because as of this moment, i think it’s a lame attempt of understanding humans and angels (well, their version of angels and God even). aarrggh…baca buku lain ah!!
wah liao ah!! listening to the songs of the finalists for Alunan Kasih!! some of the songs truly caught my attention seh!! but honestly, all are definitely good. in terms of lyrics ah. and music as well.
too bad we can only vote once. but it’s good in a way,or else, i would have voted for all!! hahaha.
ni yang buat tak sabar ni nak tengok the concert….but it clashes with Muzikal P Ramlee!!!
but anyway, i’m feeling the vibe and excitement already!
p/s: IIU-mate Ain’s brother is one of the finalists and he wrote a good rap song! congrats in advance.
and i realise how ridiculous the names of the bands can be?? ada apa dengan nama?
ok, for a band, i know how important it is to have a bandname which somehow reflects your band’s music style, your band’s identity, personality, fashion even. the name of the band is so important, because it will definitely means YOU, YOU and YOU who are THE BAND. other than the music you play, your bandname becomes part of you.
and when you have name for the band, you will start to rationalise and give reasons as to why you give such names, for a lame example, Linkin Park had a hard time choosing a name because they think they are unique, bringing different kind of music than other metal-rock-whatever-they-call-it bands. so starting from Lincoln Park, they settled for Linkin Park, and then they start to reason out why Linkin Park is chosen.
or why sheila on 7? or why my chemical romance? or why U2?? there always have to have a reason out of a name…oh,don’t forget the official FONT and LOGO of the band~
so, i started to think, how ridiculous some bandnames of anugerah can be?? like TRABO= berterabur? SILKSUTRA= yeah they can’t make up their mind whether to use english or malay for the name?? (SUTRA already sounds nice enough, to me)and some time along the way, ended up being called siCksutra… edmyshta? edmusyhta? or something? why suddenly want to go JAPANish?? might as well, take the name Sadako, right?? or Sudoku? there’s also KEIGO SPHINX? now they cannot decide whether they want to go Japanese/Korean(?), or Egyptian?
PUTRA is nicest name so far, simple and easy to remember, CUCU DATUK MERAH…hmm ok laaa. ha, yeah, HELVEN?? now, they cannot decide whether to go with Hell or Heaven? baina baina? heaven kan baik?! but then maybe they realise their songs are not that heavenly, so to say~ then ada RANCOUR la, ROYALE la..(royal je kan bole~)
but nothing beats old KALEIDOSCOPICURIOSITY. (like the worst name? and where are they now?)
you guys are so CONFUSED.
there’s a few other names which are just downright ridiculous. and i think i’m going to get it somewhere somehow, some fans are going to maki my blog. honestly, i love music, i love hearing good music by good bands, but come on la, you sound too attention-seeking with these kinds of names. you want people to listen to your song, so be honest about it, these names sound fake.
and the judge eh~ please ah, don’t have to give all these pseudo-suspense kind of remarks when you want to kick a band out, because its sickeningly misleading. it doesn’t work like those in american idols. you came out as downright sarcastic. please ah, we don’t want a simon cowell wannabe. we just want a judge who knows the industry very well (because for all you know, these are bands who have been singing all their life UNDERGROUND, and they might know BETTER about the scene than you could ever be), give constructive comments which at the end of the day, even if a band lose out, they go back learning something useful, which they can apply for other pursuits, and teach the audience as well.
but putting aside all these, let’s have one good quality band, who have a vision and mission to bring out to the world, as a team. sing good songs, play good music (not just NOISE, mind you). and have good personality as well, attitude…because you guys are going to BE role models. music have been THE very thing which teens IDENTIFY themselves with. so please, now even if you are going to play metal songs, rock, alternative, punk, ska, emo, rap, whatever it is, do please portray a good personality as well.
let YOU define the music, not the Music shaping who you are.
now, that’s why we have ALUNAN KASIH competition~ (ahakss, promo la pulak)
ALL THE BEST to ALUNANKASIH’s finalists (concert on 18th May) and the participants of ANUGERAH BAND. make us proud…
the video has nothing to do about bands, anyway…just a song i’ve been humming lately~~
i’m feeling like talking rot here, and to those still in m18 age, don’t do this at home. this is unlike me i know, but sometimes we need to let it out and i like to let people know what i feel because i am not a very verbal kind of person, but sometimes it became obvious among close sisters, but not so for some. i’m showing you me.
but this is just a humble opinion. i was just thinking how some people had pride in portraying clothes, and make -ups and jewelleries online, for people to see. and i don’t mean for sale, like my friend’s mahir’s site, i mean she did those brooches and whatnots with her own hands and it’s called business. but these are those who showed their personal items out of pleasure, or truly, out of nothing to do??? what’s the point?? and i saw laments saying sending out resumes and no replies at the moment yet? but the need to work….to have some money to shop. *sigh* the laments of a rich girl/boy who feels she/he doesn’t have enough already with all those pics of ‘my things’…. seriously, for someone who learnt alot in far away land, he/she seems more concerned of what they own, than what they should be doing.
so to kawan2 and adik2 assiium…the distance of the place which you sought knowledge does not ensure that you have the best and be the best. translation : knowledge is everywhere. jangan ingat orang yang belajar jauh2 tu lebih bagus. appreciate the knowledge that you have gained, even though it’s just a UNI next door, kat KL (orang kata tak klas belajar kat m’sia, takde snow, tak pandai berbual arab, blablabla) but i think we are on par with those studying in the middle east. better, even. despite the system in IIU, they really teach you about life, academically and practically, in knowledge and in life. (like those probs we have at finance or with the mahallah, itu semua mengajar kesabaran, and bayangan2 orang2 yang akan kita jumpa when we go out to work).
and i have to say i am rather fortunate for truthfully, i didn’t go looking for a job, they came to me. the prayers of my parents and my friends. and i didn’t send in resume for interview, instead, the interview came first, then send in the resume. the lord has helped me indeed. the world is not a friendly place to live in. if not for the seniors and friends who already have careers, and some people i know, i really would still be looking for a job myself. my gratitude to these people indeed. heh, even though it’s a temp job, i have one at the mo. four months, by that time, bebudak azhar yang cuti kat sini pun dah nak balik. (tak pentiiinggg). looks do not ensure you a job i suppose, but your willingness in the things you do.
so now you see how the world works? how balance is so the keyword of life, like qzai ever said in her blog. you got something there which i don’t. but i seem to have so much more.
living seri 