post-bali

good morning people!
it’s early in the morning and i’m blogging (for a short while and just to ‘wake’ myself). am alone in the office at the moment, most of them comes in later.

since leaving Bali, i’ve been missing it truly. and i’ve been wanting to blog about it but i found myself very busy with my work that by the time i reached home, i’d be brain drained. and the weekends doesn’t help either. busy with some delayed house chores and a….yeah, twilight which was great!!(save the critics for later ok) and my school’s maulid(which i’m very glad i came!! God will always have something to tell/show me through blessed people).

so people, anything with regards to my Bali trip, you could by the way, visit cousin Aili’s blog or the pics which are practically everywhere in Facebook. haha. although i did post up some pics at my friendster, for the benefit of those who doesn’t have FB. but i will still have a say for my Bali experience, hopefully by end of the week.

alright, boss is in. got to start working 🙂

agenda before dec 1st

1. completing works on p.y – rechecked lesson plans, rechecked readings, get back to designer
2. editing works on tw.a – reformat lesson plans
3. works on n.m – consolidate datas, list for remunerations, upload pics, get back on invoke webdesign, check up invoke
4. compose a resignation letter for nahdhah

ok, let’s do this!

on to new prologue


i have been staring at this screen for far too long. with null productivity.
i do have a few tasks left to do but my mind has been a total blank today! which is not good!

i guess it must have been the anxiety of starting at a new workplace this monday. for a year and a few months working at mu*is, i have really become so used to seeing the same faces, going to the same office, and well, sitting at a record of three different workspaces in the same office room. i really enjoyed it and i have to say, i am very fortunate to have had the opportunity to work in such a place. would especially miss the people in the unit.

still, life has to move on. and i pray that being at a new workplace, with new challenges and meeting new people, will give me a whole new breath and spirit, new perspectives and new experiences. it’s almost a scary thought but this is the choice i have made. although i know i can do so much more (trainings, editings of curriculum, things which i really enjoyed doing) i have a feeling i will still have more of these chances. insya Allah.

there you go, my very first job, very first workspace, very first working experience…will be missing it.

let’s get going seri!

and yes, been to full-of-energy 3-day workshop on youth training. now, here was something which i have always wanted to have- an assessment or evaluation of myself while training. well in this workshop, after 2 days going through the theories and many ideas of games and energizers, we also had a recording sessions. ie. we record our selves during first introduction and on the 3rd day, in a group, conduct a mock training session and got reviews from our peers and the trainer.

well, i found out i did too many time-feelers (aka ‘hmm’ ‘ah’ ‘ok’ etc etc) although i have a good posture and hand gestures, and yes, the contents bit also need a lot to brush up. now i know how i ‘look like’ while training! haha! i got a lot of tips from the trainer and made some new friends. a nice experience really.
going to workshops like this always make me excited to start the new year and apply what i’ve learnt! motiveated seh!

and yes, let’s get going! :))

old skool love

i had the sudden urge to listen to some old songs and i found my old skool fave girlgroup song!!! and believe me, i went through this phase, from the short pixie hair (and have always loved short hair since), to the dress (albeit mine was out of jeans material, i still remember) with stripe shirt and down to the boots (that’s why i love Doc Martens boots).

heh, watching this vid brings back funny memories seh. so the pop-pish hehe.
and they say, it’s hard to forget your first love right? here is my first love.

seriously, i had the huge-st crush on Affa. :))
no one else could quite take over his place in my heart. CEH~~~ sampai termimpi2 lagik! i guess there still isn’t. for a while, i thought a certain src president back in IIU looks like him, i think the girls might know which src president 😉 but Affa still tops the list. haha.

so zaman hingusan eh. am very much embarrassed to have to type this out, well, many people are reading this. but hey, everyone goes through teenage years. and am just writing what’s truly in my mind.
(ps: if you want ‘real’ writings of mine, move over to unpoeticpieces.blogspot.com)

el-shiekhats

i’ve said it. it’s times/days/nights with you girls are what i treasure most. have i told you that what pulled me through those challenging days back in IIU were YOU? a snide remarks from a lecturer early in the morning will be forgotten by the hustle and bustle of lunchtime, a stressful whole day’s meetings dissolved by early dinner, late night sharings, movie nights, laughters and tears. thank YOU for this friendship.

so el-sheikh welcomed 7 + 1(in our hearts/thoughts) of us, warm cosy ambience, carpetted seats and lush pillows with very not arabic songs and ESPN (??). but those are meaningless without the laughters, tears, heartbreaks and strength shared among us.

KORANG, KORANG BEST TAU NGGAK?

in my silence, i’m grateful to be there and show you: here’s me, i’m one more person who could give you strength and support, a lending ear, a crying shoulder with the rest of us. more days with all of you. it’s been so long since i’ve felt important among friends. because honestly, it doesn’t feel the same with old schoolmates anymore. i can’t seem to speak the same language with them some of the times. though i still treasure their friendships.

ten years ago, i never imagined i could make some ‘outside’ friends, due to my quiet nature, but ten years down the road…i can truly say, my heart-ed friends, are from non-alma mater (read:non-ma*arif*ians).

just Thank You.

dedicated to the 7 of you girls: and you girls have to bear in mind, this kind of song is never my type of fave music genre, but for the sake of you all, i just feel like dedicating this to you.

we are SOOO MISS(ES) Independent 😉

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a wedding bond

4 full days at KL was such a memorable family affair that even my younger siblings are already missing the days and the people we left behind. honestly truly. we missed the laughters and endless conversations. we missed the two apples of everybody’s eyes – little Haris and Ikmal, we missed the togetherness and yes, we missed the food!! :))

we’re there to celebrate a cousin’s- Kak Mala’s wedding, my mother’s first brother, our pak ngah’s second daughter. ok to explain the family tree is quite a mouthful. but quite simply, my Mak Long and Pak Ngah and their family are Malaysians living @ KL.

we arrived KL thursday evening and bunked in Pak Ngah’s apartment, and just enough time for us to join in the malam berinai and apa lagi kita2 pun join la. and especially the *ehem* pengapit *ehem*. all preparations for the wedding set and ready, like the hantarans are ready, pelamin and so on so forth.

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and already that night, the chatters started, mak long and my mother always, always have something, stories to talk about, kita yang mendengar pun penat~ haha.

the nikah/ solemnization took place friday noon, at Muadz bin Jabal Mosque and i got the honour of being the ‘ring bearer’ (feeling frodo LOTR pulak)~~

and the bride herself, kak Mala is so so so gorgeous! you know how people will say “pengantin muka lain” well yeah something like that.

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well, i’ll skip the details la ek, because honestly there are hundreds of pictures. and the pics on the nikah alone are alot, taken from many angles~ i wish i had a nikon coolpix at that moment!!

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Rosmila & Wan Haziezul, the latest addition to the family! Abg Zizul proved to be a friendly knowledgeable person and the perfect match for kak Mala. and yeah, mereka adalah pengantin paling sempoi!! siap lawak2 atas pelamin, abg zizul sempat tunggu furniture kat rumah baru lagik that sanding morning!

and saturday would be the sanding event. now this is the exciting part~ the sanding was held at a communal hall within the neighbourhood. though it looks near from the apartment, but walking would be quite a distance. while everyone else already at the hall, i stayed to wait for the bride, and amongst some kelam kabut and *kipas pengantin tertinggal at the hall, and no one else around, so the pengapit dr*ove to the hall to get the *kipas, accompanied by cousin halim, why, of course, the pengapit don’t know the way to the hall, also thinking oh Lord, oh Lord, please save me! but at that point of time, the knowledge and being able to dri*ve comes in really really handy.

and when everyone’s ready, the bride and groom ready to go, the pengapit had to again, dr/ove herself to the hall + cousin halim, his wife and little daughter. all the kanchiong ness dissolve and the automatic calmness came by itself when the bride and groom made their grand entrance to the hall, accompanied by the bridesmaid and the bestman.

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as much as i hate pink and the fact that the very last time i wore this dress was during raya with the girls two years ago, this very dress had fulfilled it’s actual destiny that day, hehe. and for that, i loved this dress.

alhamdulillah, the whole event went well, although there were some glitches here and there but what we missed the most – the family in Singapore who couldn’t be there with us. Cik Jamal & Family, Cik Mail & family, Cik Amat and family and Cik Saad and family. Because we believed had all of us, the complete family were there, it would be more grand. and then it would really be a family affair. and i could just imagined the glow of pride in Mak Long and Pak Ngah.

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All the same, i really looked up to kak Mala for her preparations for this wedding, they already have a house, kereta tak payah cakaplah, both have their own cars, and the wedding was well prepared to the bits and pieces. and the hantarans were beautiful.

to Kak Mala and Abg Zizul, SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU!!

i’ll leave you with some pictures~

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even my brothers are smitten by them. this is what we say “like uncles like nephews”

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and it’s Ikmal and Haris we miss the most!!!

raya 2.8

after years of years having to travel and waste more hours on buses and mrts on our first day of rayas, alhamdulillah, this year we were able to have some comfort travelling and really, you’d be amazed how small singapore is, just because the journey took much less time in driving!! we could go from woodlands to bedok and back north to yishun, in less than two hours~ sorilah ye like jakun talking about the distances hehe.

but what’s most important is that i drove my family well and safe. of course i won’t deny some minor glitches like missing the exit at expressways, and the 2-3 times i had to emergency brake at traffic lights. but so far so good la right! even though had to fork out more money this raya spent on renting the car but well, it’s a good feeling able to drive my family around. :)) it truly is a nice feeling. and everytime our car passed another raya-ing car, my family would be waving and mouthed ‘selamat hari raya’ to the other family. some would wave back some are like blurrr. aper dah~

and the kamir family wishes everyone good days ahead! Taqabbalallahu minnaa wa minkum~


living nights

the past weekend has been a mix of blessings, beautiful experience and whatnots.
first of was the Iftar with Friends of Harmony centre on Friday which was a nice experience for me. truly. iftar with people of different races and religions, sharing experiences and whats memorable for me was the conversation circle we had after iftar with what i can proudly say, my own circle of friends made up of christians, bahais and buddhists.

only in this circle, we had a bigger group for guests from the Iftar joined us and it so happened that the topic for the night was on Prayer. and when every adherents of faith present that night said a prayer, it truly touched me. i realised every faith seeks one thing: to be embraced by God’s Love. seeks for His guidance and protection, seeks for His forgiveness and blessings. and i got to meet some very inspirational and knowledgeable people, sincere at hearts and minds, almost freed of the worldly wants.

and saturday was another memorable night. Cakap Pasal Remaja was in town for ramadan! with a skit performance by our talented youth leaders, whom i am fortunate to be acquainted with, people with aim and spirit, normal people with great hearts and minds. you know i was thinking the whole night : i’m looking at these very people who are and will be our future leaders. able to be role models for the young ones. and the drama was a good one, revolving around four friends who promised to be together.

however, when they grew up, things changed. (i don’t remember the characters’ names so i’ll be using the ‘actors’ names) ahmad model-turned-playboy, amin good boy turned bad, fairus leader-turned-samseng, and only one of them who stayed true to his words, he promised to be the one to help his friends in times of need, this was played by syakir.

so the story goes, with short intervals by ust fendi as the storyteller. syakir saw the changes in his friends and tried hard to help them realised their mistakes. [Al-Qur’an hudan linnaas]–> the key takeaway of the story.
i have to say you got to be there. the young ustaz-s can act i tell you!

it was just unfortunate i was on mc minallah, or i would have loved to stay on for the qiyam and get to know with the young ones, see what’s hip and happening for them~~share one or two experiences, totally miss school life! and i thought i was going to do a cinderSeri with a Birken’s Twist, for leaving the ‘palace’ at 12 am. haha, fat hope.

and last night was well spent… iftar with the girls only we missed shasha! we had mediterranean at Zac’s Place, having our dinner *under the stars* and the meals scrumptuous, service’s good enough and there will always be things to talk about! from daily life to upin and ipin, to MBMF, to children’s psychology! but hey we went back way before curfew time ok 😉 what’s with the anti-Huzah and looking for taxi all the way down masjid sultan, with a group of guys shrieking, and i mean shrieked at the sight of a rodent (YUCKSSSSSS!!) all of these memories in the span of 4 hours.

–and the weekend had been fulfilled with blessings and love–

and with that, i have upLOADS of pics to the various virtual channels which i own~