i am on antibiotics but today i have been sneezing and woke up this morning feeling like i have a lump in my throat.

there you go, the telltales of a fever or flu. thankfully am no longer on painkillers due to the wisdom tooth coz otherwise im not sure i can handle both pain and a fever at the same time. but now i am wondering if i got this fever because i stopped taking painkillers. or it could definitely be that i caught it from sil.

i have had two days of reading, altering my dresses and stupid dramas marathon. i finally took up strength to get out of the house today. just felt like i need some sun. been cooped up for four days already. didnt go far, just the neighbourhood mall to return some library books. with the full intention of not borrowing anymore for the time being because i still have about four more books on loan to read. however, i came back with three borrowed books.

the thing with libraries is that, once i see a book that is on my wishlist, i have to borrow it, because otherwise, you will not see it anymore. you really have to grab and go, especially when you see serial novels in chronology order available in the same library! this time, it was the shannara series. but i am totally proud of myself for not buying them and having that luck to borrow them instead, haha! finally, getting to read terry brooks!

anyway, i am starting to get bored although i love this stay-at-home chance in a year. i feel like i have so many things to do and so many places to go! i have been thinking of going to the garden festival at gardens by the bay. been following their instagram and being the flower person that i am, i cannot miss this! i am left with thursday and friday! hoping that i get better from this flu and give myself a chance to go flower viewing! but first, some chill time at pv alone tomorrow!

it’s weekend and i am not working. this is so rare. minus the holidays. i mean i am not working on a term week.

i have never needed to take mc-s before and i am now on a week’s mc. this is so rare.

thanks to my wisdom tooth. which now lay smothered in blood, broken, and thrown away in a dentist’s waste basket.

yes, the day has come for me to take out my wisdom tooth. i thought i have a few more years to go before i have to deal with it. it feels like a milestone, a passage of ritual. of perhaps finally being an adult because i had my wisdom tooth took out!

but honestly, i was in pain and discomfort. for maybe a month at least. it started with an ulcer, or i think it was an ulcer during fasting month, nonetheless. so you can imagine that i go through the day without food and drink, and then when its breaking fast, i couldnt eat so much because of the ulcer on my right mouth.

so bearing with it, until it became worst. usually ulcers dont last long for me. a few days and its gone, but this didnt. and still i thought it was ulcers. and then i started to feel some pain in my gums, i couldnt open my mouth, i couldnt chew and it lasted till raya. so raya without the glory of eating all those nice food. i couldnt even enjoy my fave dish of sambal goreng pengantin.

i told myself, truly, God has taken away the luxury of eating from me. although the side effect was kinda great because i lost 5 kg throughout this mouth pain ordeal. which is rare too.

so after friends’ advice, i went to the dentist last week, so grateful that one was willing to take me walk-in and have a look at this pain.

definitely the wisdom tooth is causing the pain, it was in a weird position, like all wise tooth is i presume. i had tooth decay, i had pus in my gums, my Lord, i couldnt even imagine that, it was swollen very badly, and then all the plaque building around it! it could get worst. especially for the gum. the dentist even mentioned that i may have to go to the hospital if they couldnt deal with it! what a drama.

it was a fast check. given antibiotics and antiseptic wash to heal the swollen gums cause i cannot even open my mouth so much for the dentist to have a look at it. and before i knew it, a wisdom tooth procedure is booked for me on saturday (yesterday). it had to be done.

all nerves the whole week. the day came. thankfully the dentist is a nice lady and very comforting.

oh my Lord, i was so nervous i was shaking. next time im going through something like this, im going to bring a small cushion or my small soft toys, whatever it is, the little pony or dolphin or husky or white tiger. just anything to hold on or crush my fingers into. i realise im like that. tsskk.

i felt that twinge when they want to numb my gums. and after that, i just closed my eyes throughout because i do not want to see whatever tools they are using inside my mouth. i heard drilling, i feel threads but i just felt a wee bit of pain, thankfully. i was also zikir-ing so much just to make my mind distracted a bit. wanted to read the ma’thurat but believe it or not, i got stuck on reciting Kursi! i can’t finish the verse because my brain was confused! the dentist kept on saying you’re doing good Seri.

and it was done in about 40 minutes. given meds and all the while, i was just a blur when the nurse explained to me.

went back and cried coz i feel pain. taking painkillers, having to change the cotton gauze every 30 minutes and the sight of blood makes me go weak in the knees. but having the gauze in my mouth is the most tiring from this experience. so im glad there wasnt so much blood in the evening and just have to deal with the mouthwash and painkillers.

i guess i feel better. swollen a bit, on soft food and drinks. im looking forward to get back to normal. so so glad did it on a weekend as i have my darling husband around. because really, when in pain, i only want my husband, holding my hand or giving me a hug is all that i need for comfort. slept and drooled on his naked shoulder. prepared my porridge meals. i may not have survived if i had to do it on weekdays when he is not around. i would have begged him to come home. but all is well. alhamdulillah.

so, that’s your 33rd present seri.