It’s 12 am and I’m in the CC(cybercafe) and actually feeling free of burden and a huge relief in my brain for being able to not think of important things. I had two tests this week which I think I did quite well in them I hope I get a pass for both. I truly hope so. There’s three more tests next week. Insya Allah, I’ll do my best and then there’ll be one week mid-term break!!! Yeah!! I so need that break this time. After all this brain drain, I just want to go to the library and read a book or just the whole day watching tv!!! I really can’t wait!

We had our rehearsals and looks like it’s going to be a great performance!! Our dance steps are real cool and unique and we had the cool poem about youths. Initially, there’s going to be a sketch, but after much consideration….we found out that there’s going to be not enough time for the Devdas team to get ready and all…..so scrap the sketch and just go with the heartfelt poem accompanied by guitar…which is going to be played by ME!!! I hope I’ll do great and not spoil everything. It’s going to be in front of so many people, you don’t want to embarrass yourself, Seri…whatsmore, you’re only going to play four familiar and too used to chords. You should be ok and don’t disappoint your friends!!!

I really can’t wait for this Saturday and be done with the performance!! But I know we will do our best and have fun for the night!! We won’t expect to win, we just want to join in and make it merrier! We are the third performance and I hope we can DO IT!!! GO GIRLS!!! I’m so proud of their hardworkings and time spent on the training. I know we can do it. All the best, girls!!!!

I never know that I’m going to be brain tired like this that I forgot my days and dates, forgot the small things that I need to remember, had less than three hours of sleep every night, and tried hard to stay awake in class and consumed whatever it is the lecturer’s saying. Truly brain drain.

The week had been real busy, especially with the performance rehearsals..took up much of our time because we had three more days to go to the night. It had to be near perfect! And I had mid term exams and a lot to read up….pimples are coming out more than usual nowadays…must be the stress.

I can just thank God that I’m still alive. Truly brain drain.

By the way…some people are so shit they like to show faces at us, like they know everything…and I just want to be quiet, sit some place peaceful and read a cool book! And I hate answering stupid questions when answers are so obvious you just need to be more observant…and sorry but sometimes I just can’t be bothered to say something back. It’s like talking without sense. Just say it and I’ll listen. And I’m tired of having to do the first moves everytime…and reminding people of things they need to do. I know I’ve done my job, it’s up to people to do theirs. but don’t let things be ruined. That’s all I ask.

Brain draiin and someone don’t seem to care.

I went back to Singapore last week. If you noticed, that was my birthday week, so my parents asked me to spend the weekend in Singapore, most Singaporeans went back also.

 

I had a nice surprise from my family, they welcomed me with cakes and presents~ blue roses, a card and a cool Swatch, which I really love!!! Love them all!! Even though my mother had high dreams to celebrate my birthday (like a dinner or something) but this small family surprise is much more closer to the heart! Miss them already!!

 

Anyway, 30 mins of eye to eye with the friend. And another surprise….a very much unexpected gift from the friend.  He told me before he’s going to give a present, but I never imagined that he would give these two beautiful things!! It was so beautiful, I had been speechless! It’s like I can’t say ‘thank you’ enough. I showed them to my close friends and they were all awed by it~ I really love the gifts.

 

And another nice gift from my friends, a designed orange tile with a cd and cool guitar pasted on it! Real cool thing. And another nice blue flower brooch…..THANK YOU ALL!

Have I said that unintentionally I seemed to be involved in too much activities?? At the start of this semester, I was so sure of myself that I won’t involve myself with any programmes but as the days go by, I kept saying yes when people asked if I can join this and that.

Well let’s see:

1. Banner painting for Ummatic Week, seemingly taking care of the Singaporean team. Which is fun and doesn’t require much thinking.

2. Assistant head for photography for IRK Magazine for graduating students. Thank God the brother who is senior is a dependable person. So I’m more or less leaving things to him. hehe

3. Taking care of Sisters’ Cultural Night Ummatic Week for Singaporeans’ performance. Which I had to prepare the script and make sure that everything is going well. And trying, working, praying that the performance will be a great one. I have the feeling it is. Preparation in two weeks’ time! Right now, typing out the script…

4. A sub-committee under Programme Coordinator for Ummatic Week Cultural Stage by the Riverside. Thank God it’s going to be only one night. And the head seems to be looking over everything. I’ll just listen and follow instructions….which is more than fine by me.

5. A sub-committee for IRK Annual Grand Dinner for graduating students. I’m a first year doing ‘things’ for the final year students!! But at the moment there’s no meetings or work to be done yet.

6. I just found out from the Assistant Director of the Down to Earth programme that they have put my name in the organizing committee for Appreciation Night as an assistant in Publicity and Protocol bureau. No meetings yet.

7. Archery….and I still haven’t go and do some training!!! And it’s one of the important things!!! I hope the President of Archery club is not angry with me. I just don’t have the time…Maybe next week.

And amongst these, I have tests and mid term exams coming up!!! I hope I can do it. I have to!!! I’ve been sleeping late these few nights to catch up on some reading but I don’t regret it. Makes life more busy and time worthy. And unconsciously stick to mind the message that I have little time to study so it will make my brain eager to read my books!! I hope it works.

I’m trying my best.

I’m 21 today!!!! A beautiful day it has been and I’m thankful to God for giving me the gift of life. And this happiness start since this morning. Friends have been smsing and wishing me. Thank you all!! And of course The Call, which really is a nice surprise!

There’s nothing more that I could wish for. Only a successful life. To be a knowledgeable intellectual person and be someone of worthy in the eyes of Allah and the people. Most of all to make my parents happy and proud.

I’m 21 today!!!

I slept for only two hours last night but I am feeling unusually happy…or maybe the tiredness will come back later in the afternoon. I prepared my Halaqah presentation last night and presented it this morning. I think I did well. I hope the other sisters will benefit from it. I tried hard for this. It has to be fruitful. Anyway I love doing it. And one of the sisters said that without me, the halaqah would be too quiet. Yeah!! I’m appreciated. Thank You!!

Anyway, something nice happened, which might be one of the reason for this cheerfulness. An unexpected sms came from someone, 30 minutes after I had dozed of, ie, at 4 am! And I had just thought that someone is not going to sms. He heard me or what??? Nice of him to sms and so like him to send one at any time of the night!!

So today I planned to read up my books, do some revision, memorise the important ones. Since I’m going to be busy, it’s better if I start studying now, rather than waiting for exams. It is Knowledge after all…..and knowledge is not all about passing exams…though it is important..the ultimate knowlegde is fear of God and I’m doing this because Allah has given me this gift of knowledge. So help me God.

I’m at the CC at 3 am typing out my presentation. Trying to make a presentable presentation…..I actually enjoyed it. But the thing is….right now I’m in a middle of music ‘war’. Exactly on my right are these group of African girls downloading hip hop songs and I was surprised they listened to these songs and remembering every single word of the song!!! Actually grooving to them. And on my left were a group of Malaysian girls listening to some boyband songs…I think it’s by the Westlife??? And I don’t listen to either type of songs. I’m stuck!!!! But a merry place all the same..

Yes, I skipped two classes this morning. Intro to Fiqh class and I guess I won’t miss anything since the lecturer will be reading every single word from the book. And History class which was unintentionally because I thought I would miss Intro to Fiqh, woke up later and go to History but I missed the time. But then again, I hope I will be able to get the notes from my neighbour upstair. And I’m feeling quite sick and exceptionally cold, a headache and somewhat blurry of everything..

I had the meeting for IRK Magazine. I was assistant head for photography and I did nor know that it’s a very hard job and we only have one week to do our job, luckily the Head is a dependable guy. Well, he’s in the 4th year, he should be responsible and I’m only in my first year and just about to learn all these and needing guidance. I’ll try my best..if the photos for the magazines turns out well, I’ll be making my parents proud of me and that’s what matters. So wake up Seri!!! And THOSE BOOKS TO READ!!!

I attended an Interfaith Dialogue organized by the IRKHS Students’ Society for thier I-MEC (Islamic Mega Carnival), “Science and your scriptures, is it a conflict or conciliation,” and it was a very refreshing intellectual digesting my mind programme. There are speakers for Islam, Hinduism, Christianity and Buddhism and they are all real learned people I got to respect! The Muslim speaker, Mr Shah Kirit…he really knows every verse of the Qur’an which tells of anything scientific. I aspire to be like him. I am especially in awe of his knowledge in Science: the big bang theory, cosmology, the beginning of time, creation. It makes me eager to start reading anything scientific and astrologic. And then there’s the Hindu speaker. Mr Utama Saitani…he’s so eloquent and articulate, he speaks great English and it is as though he’s reading from a book. There’s a lot of things in Hindu I do not understand but I will learn about them. He speaks of the Vedic texts and that Ramayana and Mahabharata are historical recordings and not myth. Then there’s the Christian speaker which I did not really concentrate during his presentation and the Buddhist speaker who is a funny guy and bring out laughs from the audience.

I benefit from the dialogue. I know I am going to attend more of this in the future.

At the moment, I’m still preparing for my presentation and still unsure of how to present it in an interesting way instead of just talking about it in front. It’s due tomorrow….

I had had three classes today and I had been sleepy in all three of them!!! I can’t help it. I slept at 3 am last night and classes started at 8.30 am. I came and went to classes with a blur mind!! There’s a lot of things to catch up.

Cannot say much for now..I’m late for another meeting on IRK Magazine.

Just for the record..saw someone who looked like Orlando Bloom!!! With the hair and the cheekbones and the shirt!!! Now I actually find someone to look for for these few days 🙂

It was my little brother’s birthday last monday and I forgot to highlight that!!! But I did send a message to him. Too bad I can’t see him for now…and today is my sister’s birthday. Yeah three of us born in the same month. Cool huh? Well, here in UIA, there’s three of us born of the same date!!! Three of us and it’s not everyday we get to have three person of the same birthdate at the same place studying the same subject! I’m happy meeting my ‘twins’.

Well, suddenly I found myself very busy and I’m here supposedly to check up on things for my research but I got distracted by this. I had been painting banners for the Ummatic week and today I have three meetings back to back to attend. But the good things is that..the more busy I get the more eager I am to study and read all those books and memorise everything. Is it some reverse psychology working it’s miracle on me?? Because even though I find myself rushing to places and actually feeling tired..I am willing to sacrifice my sleep to read up my books…so it’s a good thing after all involving oneself in activities.

I just found out that the new head for Usuluddin and Comparative Religion is the very Madam that had snubbed me in Ethics class!! And I’m beginning to wonder if she is going to make my life harder….she’s strict in her subjects…she’s going to be strict in giving A’s and Dean’s List!!! Why am I stuck with her?? I know there’s something good behind this….right? It looks like I have to be in her good books after all!!! I have to impress her just so my life won’t be ruined!! What the….!!!

No problem….I will try my best!