what does revisits, traditions and civilisations have in common?
they are the three things very much dominating my mind, body and soul at this period of time. when i’m not thinking of revisit, i’ll be thinking of traditions, and when i’m not thinking for these two, i’ll be reading up for civilisations. hiyya!! worst than being an undergraduate! hahaha. but as i’ve said before, being busy keeps me moving, and thinking…. the very momentum i’ve been missing. reading, teaching and sharing these knowledge is satisfying, but at the same time, it makes me feel, i could have done better, i could have teach them better. and i want to do the best i can. but teaching..i tell you…is an art~
all is well.

counting to wednesday/thursday!! :)) i don’t want to be so excited, but i can’t pretend i’m not. even though it may turn out to be like ” lerrr tu ajerrr??” kind of respond from other people, but this is important to me. no one knows about this except me, and parents. hahaha!^*$#@)9(87!! and it’s just so fated~

by the way, Teach, i still haven’t finish reading Bila Tuhan Berbicara, i had to keep it aside because of these other projects i had to do. pardon me, it’s your personal copy of FT’s book somemore, felt bad about keeping it long. and the book is so scary i just had to stop sometimes. i couldn’t continue reading it with my mind imagining tsunamis and volcanoes. just scary.

another new and happy day. i’m counting.

when i was going through an infatuation, i told myself, once i knew something about this object of infatuation, which will automatically ends this infatuation (which it did), it will also mean something else. something which i might have been denying all this while, pushing and pushing away, until it came and went, and i’m starting to believe that i had been in the wrong. and aili, your dream still haunted me. i know i don’t have to. but it did. i just don’t know where to start.

but hey….no time to think about this. let’s read up some notes on islamic history and how it came to Southeast Asia!!!!

i cannot wait for wednesday/thursday!!! it’s going to be a special day, one which i have been waiting for so long! hahahhaha. 😉
serious tak sabar. kwang3x

alhamdulillah, the past week was a good one. even though i had to run around from one meeting to another, i am still alive and breathing at this moment. haha. i would like to keep it that way. busy keeps me moving and thinking, of real stuff. and the people i have met, are people of vast knowledge and experience. i really am on the quest i’ve been wanting to embark. 2008 sounds exciting after all!!

and by the way, weekend was great because there was HEROES SEASON 1 Marathon, on Star World!! had my dose of heroes for hours. sampai pening tengok!

talking of which, i have to send out a report, right about now. aaaarrrwwwww.
ni semua heroes punya pasal. hahah

seems like this abode is inhabited
by seemingly selfish and uncaring people
when the day has taken its toll
no one, and i mean, no one cares
for what happens to the near surroundings
near surroundings

when the day has drained your energy and sanity
too much information, rushing for ender dates
one whole day won’t be enough
that night be sacrificed
what is the world rushing for?

and the abode that waits
is not much of a heaven
can you please not shout
can you please not shout

for i cannot bear this burden
with all these anger and insincerity
isn’t this the role we should play?
when others act their lines with ease
why do we moaned and groaned
why can’t we just play our part?

for all these complaints hurt
an automatic blame absorbant
let me do all these
let me do all these
let me do all these
if it makes you happy
if it makes them happy

i will do it all
with silence

i hated all these complaints
i hated all these uncares
i hated all these ignorance
i hated all these I attitude
for this I will not help
for this I will not care
for this I will complain

for this I wants to play games
for this I wants to work night shift (but i rather play games all day, and not do a single other thing except eat)
for this I is tired with NPCC
for this I is tired with floorball
for this I is the breadwinner
for this I is claiming to do everything

what about this i?
i cannot bear to hurt
i cannot bear to anger
i cannot bear to order

still i have not done enough
still i be your silent slave?

for this i
has lost my strength

at last, some real piece of news.
i passed my final theory test!!! yey!!!
and that’s what been keeping me happy all day, except for one slight ‘hiccup’.

one task off the shoulder. it was a breeze answering the questions, after 8 sessions of e-trial tests!! still, my heart was beating at it’s fastest when i answered my last 10 questions, unable to really press ‘End test’ button, because i wasn’t ready to see what will came out on the screen! whether it will be FAILED or PASSED.

i just stared at my 50th question for for like 5 mins, before building enough courage to end the test, closed my eyes, and took awhile before opening them and see the all nice colour blue. passed!! i was grinning ear to ear.

now i can’t wait to go for the circuit training. albeit it will be next month. lama kaaannn!

so now one driving book off the list -TO READ BOOOKLIST-

what’s left of the list:

YOU DON’T WANT TO KNOW

ps: i see mary is all for starbucks, what about the rest?

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stop. and. stare.

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sekiranya kaca di depan mata?
perlu tidak aku mencari permata?

sekiranya kaca mengguris luka?
masih berpeluangkah aku
mengejar sinar permata?

sekiranya dapat ku capai permata?
mungkin pengubat luka kaca?

sekiranya dihantui parut kaca?
mampukah diselubungi kalung permata?

be happy. stay happy seri.

remember you have tonnes of things to complete. things which i hope will be rewarded in hereafter. Lord, for you know better. and i believe everything happened as has been written.
i should not be angry. i don’t have to blame anyone.

i just wanted to say whatever people has been telling me, stories i heard, i have always believe in you. always known the best side of you, friend. you didn’t give me a chance to be a good friend. i know i’m less in many ways. i wanted to say you are cruel for doing this, but i guess you get alot of that from other people. i’ll spare you. but what’s the problem? what’s wrong with replying to a stupid birthday message?? like i did this humonguous mistake to you which you can’t even begin to forgive? i don’t remember doing anything bad, for i was too busy thinking i don’t want to hurt you. and you did this to me? i don’t deserve this from you, you know that??

thank You for hurting Me.

who’re you again?

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kengkawan, disebabkan gwe sering sahaja dalam kesibukan, gwe akan delete account multiply gwe. takder masa la nak update2 kat situ. and i have one bad habit la kalau masuk multiply. penyakit kepo. haha. a friend of mine once said : what you don’t know doesn’t hurt you. Linkin Park said in their very first album “Ignorance is bliss” (tak pentiiinnngg).

makanya, untuk membersihkan hati dan jiwa gersang nih, i’ll delete my account. kalau bole frenster pun nak delete. tapi kengkawan uia ramai kat frenster. sedih pulak kalau delete frenster tu. baru ada hero handsome add me lagik.

dengan kegilaan facebook lagi. peeps, come join us at facebook~ tapi tu pun nanti dah tak heran daa.

and another reason is that i will be putting up another multiply, strictly for my teens aLIVE students. so kalau dah banyak sangat nanti, tak terlayan gwe.

akhir kata, seperti sahabat gwe selalu tulis di akhir blog nya : Idop mesti hepi!! :))
yeah, i’m happy already now.

salam to all~ how’s the first week of the new year??
heh, i started out the year thinking that i will be able to get some rest, and concentrate on certain projects which NEEDED to be completed.

I AM SO WRONG.

January 2008 turns out to be a busy month! a busy month! and now i’m almost having a nervous breakdown or some mental worry disease. it’s almost like during my uni years when i have to complete assignments and have tests and there’s the societies stuffs needed attention to all at once!!! seriously.

but let’s not fret. i just need to find some time to do all this stuff. and i will.

i have the neut. datas. ahp. py. yan. teens. iask. and then there’s the driving tests. need to read up la sey!!

i would like to give my piece on a this female malaysian singer. popular of course. everywhere and everyone seems to love her. she’s a datuk, as well as a datin. need i say more?

so anyway, she performed hajj last year. waa, everyone needs to know she went for hajj! look people! i’m going for hajj! like i care??
and news reported she brought an LV bag~ need to know that?? the fact that she brought an LV bag puts me off, you’re going hajj, i thought hajj is all about sacrifices and rendah diri mode? putting yourself low for you’re going to a place so sacred, it gives me goosebumps talking about the place and the history it bears within its ground.

and the fact that the reporter finds it IMPORTANT to include that piece of news that in her report? like who cares what bag she brings?? she’s going for hajj, not some red carpet fashion award show!!

so after some time i forgot that she even went hajj. and then i read the newspaper today, and on the what, third page? there’s a column on who else? the datuk hajjah herself. oh look! she’s wearing tudung now and everyone must know that ok! datuk k lets her wear tudung! yey!! this is important news. i was going to say Alhamdulillah, maybe she is the role model that everyone seeks in her. but wait.

the tudung is not just any tudung ok. it’s specially designed la beb! by some chinese datuk fashion designer! first it’s important to know she’s wearing tudung. then it’s important to know that the tudungs she’s going to wear is designed~ can’t you wear just any other tudung?? tak faham ah, kenapa tudung pun nake kena design special?? and from the small pic featured in the newspaper, she’s like wearing those pashminas, what so special about it?? heyy tolong ah, kalau dah pegi haji tuh, buat cara orang gi haji ah, you don’t have to flaunt it all!! entah eh, rasa macam penyanyi ni dah tak macam dulu la. not the rendah diri kind of person anymore. you have got to flaunt it datuk datin!!!

again, who cares if she’s wearing designer tudungs (and i thought there’s only designer bags, designer jeans and etc) or wearing one even.

putting this aside, i think most people who went to hajj now knows the significance and the importance of performing hajj. that it’s all about submitting yourself throughout the journey to God, cleansing your heart and mind and that everything that happens, is truly between you and God. and i hope to see people who already went for hajj, be a better, humble person. that’s the whole point. to be humble. you have been chosen to perform the fifth pillar of Islam. and chosen to return back home safely (when everyday, people are dying, losing a friend, family member) and you are here standing and breathing. don’t ruin it by being proud. sesia. Wallahu a’lam.

welcome the new Hijrah year.

a migration
to purity
to humbleness
to happiness
to better days
in HIS embrace.

we’ve been dreaming for so long…

i am feeling happy!!! haha, nothing significant happened, just happy~

i have tonnes of work to do but i’ve been racing in my mazda for the past hour aka Need for Speed. takdeerrrrrrrrrla nak race betul kaaannn.

but anyway, i never make resolutions and well, never keep them anyway…however, i have this sudden inspiration on being happy this year. i mean why brood over the past? why hold on to the sad past, and knowing, KNOWING other people ARE HAPPY at the expense of our heartbreaks, downfall?? and believe it or not, they simply don’t care. it’s so not worth it! they don’t control our life so, let us eliminate all those black spots, and put in some rainbow colours!~

i do not know what 2008 has in store for me, and i don’t know how the year will turn out. but i have a list of action plan which i will strive to achieve (for example, that driving licence). and i just have this energetic aura around me.

let’s live life to the fullest. i’m getting older, and i need to fulfill hopes and ambitions, i simply cannot be too laidback. too many things are going around the world, got to save yourself, got to save others too.

but for the time being, let me have one last race….vvvvvvvvvvvrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrooooooooooommmmmmmm