jiwa nak kata

jiwa dan hati
minda dan diri

jiwa sering berkata-kata
hati cuba menenangkan
minda sering berfikir
entah apa yang diri kejarkan

terlalu sering minda lupakan hati
terlalu sering hati merajuk dengan minda
diri kadang tercepit
itu yang jiwa tak suka merana

dengar sini hati
dengar sini minda
dengar sekali si badan
jiwa nak kata

jiwa nak kembali ke fitrah jiwa
jiwa nak duduk diam tafakkur
jiwa nak sesekali kalau badan, hati dan minda bersatu
jiwa dah selalu dengar kata minda dan hati
jiwa tak mampu lawan badan
tapi sekarang jiwa nak kata
jiwa nak selalu dekat dengan Allah
jiwa selalu nak ingat pada Rasul

jiwa tahu tak mudah
sebab tu jiwa ada hati, badan dan minda
kita bersatu kembali
bersatu dalam fitrah kita
sebab akhirnya jiwa akan sendiri
jiwa belum sedia jadi roh

rest dear soul. in prose

rest dear soul, no
this body has, no
listened to you, no
neglected you, yes

rest dear soul, no
this body has, no
grown ignorant, no
you and i still not ready, yes

rest dear soul, not yet please,
we have a lot to do together
many things to achieve
to walk together in two lifetimes

rest dear soul, not yet please,
this body promises to be with you now
i have walked alone, now i need you here
we teach each other what we desire

quiet now soul, this body is listening
we have wasted time, no
we do this together, yes
the mind will move us in sync

we shall do this
for us
for the people we love.

this too, shall pass

A Story from Attar

“This, Too, Will Pass”

A powerful king, ruler of many domains, was in a position of such magnificence that wise men were his mere employees. And yet one day he felt himself confused and called the sages to him.
He said:
‘I do not know the cause, but something impels me to seek a certain ring, one that will enable me to stablize my state.

‘I must have such a ring. And this ring must be one which, when I am unhappy, will make me joyful. At the same time, if I am happy and look upon it, I must be made sad.’

The wise men consulted one another, and threw themselves into deep contemplation, and finally they came to a decision as to the character of this ring which would suit their king.
The ring which they devised was one upon which was inscribed the legend:

THIS, TOO, WILL PASS

post review: the end of your life book club

I read it head on without any expectations, except thinking that it was about dying, and half expecting it to be a dread, and yes, blindly thinking it was pure fiction. Little did I know it was about a real person.It is also about love of books. I think that is what attracted me to read it and just couldn’t stop. I was eager to know what books that Will and his late mother would read and talk about next. It is about appreciating literature, learning from them, living the experiences of the authors. It teaches me how to really read books and appreciate them. I was so happy that at the end pages, there was a list of books that were mentioned in the book and quickly decided that there are some which I would like to read myself. Definitely going to be on the to-read list.

And Mary Ann is such an inspiration full stop. like a role model, a dear mother, a dear friend and determined to make a difference. reading on, sometimes I thought to myself, I want to be like her!

and I want to have a book club. although the end of your life bookclub is between a son and a mother, the discussions and reflections they had were very interesting, lively, thought provoking, reflective definitely and it make me want to indulge in those kinds of discussions. reading through it makes me feel like I am part of the book club.

So I have been reading three novels in a row, both about life and death, both about sincere love, care and concern towards the people you love. and this latest one, a lovely memoir if I may say. it is what inspires me. and I love books which inspires me to be a better person. to do something, no matter how little and make a difference.

in the book, much of it was reminisces of mary ann’s work in refugee camps, and I really love her mission to build a library at Afghanistan, I realized, it may just be something I had dreamt of doing. I remembered researching about social work in camps and all, and yes, admiring Angelina jolie for being able to work for and be spokesperson to relief works. it still is something I would like to do if given the chance. but as mary ann puts it, having no chance of not doing is not a reason for doing nothing at all. it may start small from a little donation. and it may move from there.

and maybe someday, I will. so anyone up for a book club??

these words

These words
they don’t always come often
they don’t always come out right

My words comes from the heart
With a bit of help from the mind
These words they don’t always come when I wanted
When there words are there, it flows
Without halting

The mind don’t always create the words
truly it comes from the heart

mencari diri – sajak sendiri

aku lagi mencari diri

30 hari ku beri diri

yang rasanya hilang atau tersembunyi

dalam kesibukan duniawi

 

aku lagi mencari diri

terfikir-fikir dari mana harus ku bertiti

apa yang harus dibaiki

menjejak 30 usia diri

tak tahu lagi ke siapa diri sendiri?

 

aku lagi mencari diri

baik memanglah baik

tapi terkenang pesan arwah ustazah

“kamu jangan jadi hipokrit”

marah diri ini dipesan begitu

tapi itu yang terkenang hingga kini

 

aku sedang mencari diri

sering bertelagah minda dan hati

rohani dan jasmani

aku memang mencari diri

hanya ingin kenal seri

pencarian ini bukan dalam sehari

 

kan dah kata 30 hari mencari diri

terfikir tertipu

terfikir

hidup ini penuh dengan tipu

tipu semuanya baik belaka

tipu semuanya senang belaka

tipu semuanya indah belaka

terfikir

hidup ini penuh dengan tipu

mana yang baik mana yang buruk

hilang sudah jelasnya

entah apa yang dicari

tipu, hidup ini tidak bermakna

tapi…terfikir juga

tipu kiranya hidup tidak ada susahnya

tipu kiranya hidup tiada yang buruknya

tipu kiranya hidup ini tiada kurangnya

tipulah kiranya hidup langsung tiada maknanya