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Romantic moments

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very fulfilling exhaustive days since thursday. a lot of emotions going on for me as well.
a productive day at thursday changed right towards the end of the day. when i usually would be waiting for husband to fetch me from work, i had to do a long detour of ‘fetching’ him instead all the way from woodlands and back to home. Edge of Sengkang – North Coast (Senoko) – Hougang Central. and drove home 1/3 of the way at that!

just glad we reached home safely but my night was filled up with sponging him now and then. his body temperature was real high. i was just so worried i dont mind not sleeping. luckily friday was my off day and he was on mc. i think my wife instincts really surfaced. sponging him, went grocery shopping, cooked for him etc etc. and even though i worked saturday whole day, surprise surprise i woke up at 5 am to cook so that he wont have to go out buy food for lunch!

i was exhausted, i was close to tears smsing with my sisters, but come to think of it, i am surprised that i could do it all. really am. i could complain of exhaustion and my body is tired. but my mind is saying good job Seri. this is what you did for your self and for your husband. because i wanted so much to take care of him and i did. my brain has these positive neurons all over.

true, once you set your mind on what you want to achieve, things are a bit more bearable. without compromising us.

i love you.

restorative sunday

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so thankful for this day. i have longed for this day for so long. no no it was nothing special. it was just the restorative niche (a term i learned from Quiet;)) i needed. well, along with the menstrual cramps i am having.

as you might have known, i have missed my sundays for so long. but today, i braved myself to forget about work and let the day go through its course and full belief that everything will be ok. i must learn to let go. and alhamdulillah things to have gone fine except for little messages i received from my teachers.

i got to do laundry, read, watch tv, read again, actually do some writing (a blogpost, a review, proposal), power afternoon nap and finally dinner at our fave place (which is at Lau Pa Sat), only the two of us, me and hubby. i loved it. and i think hubby loved it too because he barely have me for a full day nowadays.

i feel i can do work better now. i can face the week. i can take a deep breath, clear minded and do proper work.

Alhamdulillah.

being the eldest

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dad is currently home now. discharged last Tuesday. I made the decision to attend my training half day and was grateful that the chairman and the trainer was very understanding.

my father has always been an independent person, he never relied on any one. and although I think he would willingly go home on his own, I cannot let that happen. Siti and Khidhir managed to see him first on Tuesday and report back to us about his scan that morning and whether dad can really return home. once I got the confirmation, at around lunchtime, I was able to go straight to the hospital. I think my siblings kind of liked the sense of importance and responsibility of taking care of dad. sat through with Dad while the pharmacist explained in detail of all the medicines he has to take. there’s about close to 10 meds he needs to take daily.

and I have to admit, for once, I made regular visits to hougang ave 8 just to check up on him. he definitely is recovering and looking well, and staying true to his promise. I just thought this ordeal is almost a reminder to me to start taking well care of my parents. already my mother is looking frail and sickly, I had to tell her to stop whatever supplementary pills she’s taking and to concentrate on her actual medicine. all these products out there, I don’t know, now I feel like I cannot trust them. because my mother is looking too thin and my dad had this heart attack. maybe they are not to be blamed 100%, but who knows. supposed to be keeping them healthy! and their diabetes is nowhere lessened from taking these supplementary.

I need to take an active role back in that house. I left the house too long that things are getting disorganized. I don’t mind rushing there during lunch, cook something simple but healthy for dad and rush back to work, after work cook for dear hubby also. I really don’t mind doing that. I have to think through my life table again. just few posts ago, I was saying that I need to reschedule my life table due to my night classes, now I have to put in the hougang ave 8 into consideration. May or may not be long term, but I guess, it needs to be done somehow. it’s just me to be taking up and doing everything, taking care of everything and than I drown in exhaustion. balance, Seri, balance.

oh I have to say my siblings have been very helpful around the house too, and they need the encouragement. I guess we are all moving into that adulthood phase. the responsible adult. I have always been proud of them and their achievements. we will do well.

and also giving my full attention to my dear one and only hubby. this is another boy I have to give my heart and care too. but this, I will do with all my heart.

cycle noob

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one thing about turning 30 is the ability of knowing your body well. I am more in tuned with my body, I listen to my body and what I need and/or capable of. i know when to stop and when i can push my self further.

you see I was never a sporty person. I didn’t do sports back in school all the way to high school, hey, my school don’t have sports back then, being an all girls’ school. the sports we had was all self initiated. there was that occasional badminton games we play among friends and for a while, a soccer fever in the all girls’ school with kains and all until the teachers couldn’t say anything to us all because we were always playing ball! I knew then I was never going to be interested in soccer. back at home, dad was an avid badminton player. he was our unbeatable badminton hero. 🙂

and then there was ye-ye, an old school game rubber bands tight together to make a rope and two persons will hold each ends going up from the knee to the highest level while the rest will take turns to go over it. i can say i was among the best in the game.

so i was choosy. but what i know now is i love badminton, second only to cycling, and always will be, archery. (Now, archery, I am so going to return practising that, I had so much fun during Uni years and I never regretted taking it up as part of my extra curriculum activity, and its a sunnah plus point).

I have always loved cycling. the funny thing is, i only realised my body relationship with cycling today. it helped that hubby loves cycling too but he has more stamina and he cycles much faster than I can. so it always makes me wonder (I just realised I am an analytical person anyway), what works and what don’t for me. Cycling is almost becoming like an art that I need to learn.

Well, today I realised that this bike hubby bought works best for me (I have tried many other bicyles, they don’t always come out as faves). It was not heavy, light tyres and the gears, thus far, I know I can go gear 5 and mind you, up a hill at that gear ok. I was smiling ear to ear when I could cycled up ok! and your noob here just realised that even the height of the bike seat also determines whether I can cycle fast because otherwise, it just feels terribly hard to pedal comfortably, your leg should stretch out the whole length so the thighs will not be too strained out when you pedal down. your posture as well, how at times you just need to bend forward to preserve a bit of energy. hah, it take me to be 30 to finally realise these! but i still havent mastered the art of breathing though. It was fun nonetheless.

psst, I have been cycling 25 km all this while. Yes, just found out about that too. 😉

Starting out as not a sporty person, I can finally say I am taking care of myself by doing sports, and doing it with the man I love nonetheless.

hmm no, no running please, my knee cannot take running.

there I know my self.

i need you now

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dont know what is up with me and this song. it was popular awhile ago, but i couldnt care less. but been playing this song in my mind for a few days and everytime i listen to this song, i miss my husband more. haha.

and watching the video, where at the end the singers met their partners, i always imagined it was me and husband. merepek kan. haha, apa2 ajelah seri ni :p

built to last

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i love my husband.

i want to do so much more to show him i care and love him.

his health, his well being, his clothes, the food he eats, his spiritual needs.

i dont know what i would do without him. its only been a few years of knowing and living with him. but i have grown so dependant on him and my life revolved around him. i couldnt live without him.

he takes great care of me.

oh definitely there are imperfections between us, but that’s what made us perfect for one another.

whatever may come. i will be with him.

this was built to last. amiin.

two nine

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July has been great so far. alhamdulillah.  or maybe its just the state of mind. maybe its just that time of the year when things going a bit alright. but for all that has happened, i am grateful for it.

there was the visit from my fave singer Sami Yusuf to our mosque. i mean who could have thought Sami Yusuf right in front of me. haha. but anyway, its his songs i like and listen to. and as i have been telling the singer himself, we were very surprised to have him because my teachers and i had been discussing about our graduation this end of the year and choosing his latest single forgotten promises for one of the songs and here he is, right before our eyes. and best thing next to that are complimentary tixs i received for his concert the next day!! went with my mother to the concert and it was fabulous. he is really a talented musician.

to add on to my exciting july 😉 is my fave author Tariq Ramadan came down to Singapore to give a number of talks and a workshop right here in singapore! and i got the opportunity to go to one of his talks last thursday! i just love his reformative ideas and how he makes us think all the way through his talk. it’s a blessing to have listen to his talk on Religious Ethics in Post Modern Society. Fantastic.

and the letter for our Centre of Excellence (ACE) award reached us at last!! and that is another thing to give me something to smile about at work…apart from all the hustle bustle down there.

what matters most is i get to spend some time with hubby for a day and with the families on the day i turn 29.
its a weird number. and its weirder because im one step closer to another decade which starts with the digit 3. have i achieved my dreams, have i become what i planned to be, am i the person that i want to be, what can i do more and achieve more? how is my life going to be in the next ten years, if i get to live that long, will i? somehow 29 brings a lot of questions to myself. it really is. but i am blessed to have my husband with  me to face this life together now, to support me and hold me when i fall and cry. always there for a comforting hug.

oh, add on to that weirdness, i did have a weird funny day. celebrating it with chernobyl radiation infected zombies (a movie which goes from lame to a bit of horror to just plain stupidity), a wild boar and a bunch of monkeys. quite a memory i suppose.


and of course, lunch with the tweevrans and dinner with the kamirs. alhamdulillah rizq minAllah.
to my man with the heart of gold and a gift of love ❤
to my parents for a gift of life
to yati family for the much needed notebook and giving me a reason to spoil myself at the prologue/popular soon!! 🙂
to sis ipah for which langkawi trip is possible because she belanja us 😉
to the siblings for the smiles and laughter and making my hardwork a big sacrifice
i love you all.

ten days

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preparing myself mentally and emotionally for hubby will be away to China next week for ten days. i know its not the first time he went for a work trip. he went to US last year, but still. i will be missing him loads!! ten whole days! and i feel like just curling myself at home for that ten days wrapped in his shirt and sleep at his side of the bed, listen to his fave songs and putting on his cologne and just stare at his pictures…ok ok im exaggerating…heheh i pray for his safety there but i worry of what kind of meal he will get because he has a rather sensitive digestive system, its either a stomachaches or coughs. pray for his wellbeing and i just want him back safe. otherwise work will occupy me, but im starting to think now, that a rest at home and do some serious housechores would be good for my system. but depends…its the school holidays but i am nowhere near free. i definitely need a massage sometime. i think i deserve that at least! and i cant wait for langkawi trip with Ipah and cik bandi’s family. im already thinking of food actually!! ok, by right, i have nothing else interesting to say except that i will miss my husband a lot tahap giban while he’s away for his trip. but i find this sweet, he downloaded the whole 8 seasons of charmed and a new series called once upon a time so that i will have something to accompany me should i cant sleep at night. but abang, its not like i can watch all of them in ten days! but its the thought that counts. 😉 ps: looking around my four walls, i really should consider taking leave for serious clean up of this room!

an april end

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a pretty good end for april.
its also nice to have a week without a working saturday and without having to think much on lessons and trying to expect the unexpected. it is very exhausting every week to always be on your toes and anxious of what might happened next. and indeed it had been a very tumultuous month. same old same old.

I am just truly relieved that the maulid event went well although quite a humble celebration but i think we did well and surprisingly more organized especially with the meal together after the event and the free ice creams we get to give away. and i am proud of the teens students who did a qasidah and ever so ready to help out with giving away ice creams and assisting our volunteers to serve the food. really proud.

and of course, the soft launching of the reading room. all the tasks to be done seem stuck in the head just screaming to be materialised throughout the month managed to be completed and the books purchased and the room decorated a bit more. i have to say i wouldnt have done it without the help of my project officer who did a lot. he did the mini exhibits and doing whatever it is i asked him to do diligently. but now that it’s 90% person done, more importantly is to ensure people utilize the room, but that’s another day to think about.

i particularly love how april ends. with my husband’s birthday, and brother’s birthday. yes they are two days apart. and sumptuous delicious meals for dinner at bedok on saturday with my family and lunch on sunday at sakura, a sweaty but nice walk at fort canning with the family and an impromptu visit to the battlebox.

a selfmade card for him, blue roses and nice shirts for him. what im happy most is i managed to get the right size shirts for him! and he loved them. knowing him, it can be quite difficult to get something he will really like when size and material is concerned. we get to have late lunch at east coast for his favourite satay and an hour of cycling before catching the sunset. it was a lovely friday.

and yes, a minor milestone for me is, i managed to open up an Islamic bank account! i had been wanting to open up a savings account separate from my everyday use and i hope with this effort, i will be more disciplined in saving up and be more prudent with my spendings. and maybe in the next five years, able to perform zakat some day, and even hajj or umrah, and oh well, just the nice feeling of getting to save up.

grateful and happy with what i had and did. hopefully more better days coming soon.
a decision still awaits.