Those were the days
1. completing works on p.y – rechecked lesson plans, rechecked readings, get back to designer
2. editing works on tw.a – reformat lesson plans
3. works on n.m – consolidate datas, list for remunerations, upload pics, get back on invoke webdesign, check up invoke
4. compose a resignation letter for nahdhah
ok, let’s do this!
i had the sudden urge to listen to some old songs and i found my old skool fave girlgroup song!!! and believe me, i went through this phase, from the short pixie hair (and have always loved short hair since), to the dress (albeit mine was out of jeans material, i still remember) with stripe shirt and down to the boots (that’s why i love Doc Martens boots).
heh, watching this vid brings back funny memories seh. so the pop-pish hehe.
and they say, it’s hard to forget your first love right? here is my first love.
seriously, i had the huge-st crush on Affa. :))
no one else could quite take over his place in my heart. CEH~~~ sampai termimpi2 lagik! i guess there still isn’t. for a while, i thought a certain src president back in IIU looks like him, i think the girls might know which src president 😉 but Affa still tops the list. haha.
so zaman hingusan eh. am very much embarrassed to have to type this out, well, many people are reading this. but hey, everyone goes through teenage years. and am just writing what’s truly in my mind.
(ps: if you want ‘real’ writings of mine, move over to unpoeticpieces.blogspot.com)
a new skin to a new add for beloved beloved journal.
i have this sudden inclination towards things new and starting anew and feeling new and and and (ok draggg) .
and we’re still two months away from a new year 2009. well, who says you can only start a new leaf at 1 jan (state the year)?
seriously, i don’t know what’s ‘motivating’ me for this certain personal progression. and you know what, even my kurtas look ugly to me (but they are still wear-able and comfortable, so i won’t be giving them away anytime soon). oh i think i know why! must be the new look of my room, and the arrangements of the furniture and all. could be the feng shui or the aura of the room, rite? hmm, it’s possible. or maybe it’s just the state of mind~~
and the conversation circles i’ve been to last friday and saturday, which i was truly grateful to be a part of, it’s enriching and enlightening. i couldn’t say enough thanks to the Lord for paving the way and making it easy for me to attend these circles. i’ll share my thoughts on them later insya Allah.
Note: somehow i realised the name endertrust has been synonymous with me, being the title of my life for the past four years! seriously, i miss endertrust already!
but got to get use to livingseri. living as seri. seri in live. seri in life.
alhamdulillah. syawal meets us again. thank You Lord for all the goodness You bestowed on me and family. thank You Lord for this chance to meet syawal with much rezki…
so people, i’m having a short breather here after the errands i did through and through the whole day! half day at work, which quite honestly, i didn’t do much except emailing e-cards to acquaintances, yes it’s part of the job, haha.
went to ikea to buy the boys’ carpet for their room and some other items. and collect this and that, and sent this and that, in the heavy rain nonetheless. and did some cleaning up of this room which, what seemed neverending is now complete. i feel i love my room more now, hehe. truly.
and in about awhile, will be helping Mam for her Sambal Goreng Pengantin with Mom’s touch~ that’s going to be the only dish we’re cooking for Raya. the rendangs and the ayam masak merah and the lontong whatnots, we ordered from my mother’s friend. and the kuih-kuih raya bought at geylang, foohh, everything ‘instant’.
all things nice in good hands…
and my wish Eid Mubarak for all my friends- esp the Girls with the many monikers (chantique, tf clan, mizaum, armouredpetals),
alma’arif friends, schoolmates all the way from 6 years old, like mahir and dayah and dyan,
assiiumers tak kiralah batch manapun esp the xcos and special mention for my halimah junior babes ;),
IIU-mates international esp Tawfique Mubarak who never fails to wish on birthdays or eids, and malaysians like best roomie Anna (i miss you!!), mrc gals, and those like amir and hairul and abg helmy for the occassional hi-s and hello-s.
colleagues from m.uis -YE and YG,
Teach (teacher and friend at the same time), Aishah of the YE Temps*,
and troopers from the new*med team,
colleagues from an*nahdhah education esp the teens trainers and the always changing youth trainers,
curriculum accomplices for hadith (assiiumers nonetheless) of assyafaah and project Y of alfalah- my fortune to have known intellectual people who’s helped and shared knowledge in so many ways esp ustaz yusri and yazid, amin and yousef, abu sufian – you guys are truly our leaders of the future,
and kenalan2 yang memang kenal dan yang tak berapa kenal ;), yang dekat mahupun yang jauh, yang tua atau muda, and acknowledging counterparts in the islamic call and mission, activists, scholars and thinkers alike–> salam aidil fitri maaf zahir batin.
and with this list of people, i hope i didn’t leave anyone out, but truly, all of you are in my thoughts on this beatiful day…
….and because my ericko-san blacked out on me, i have lost 100s of contact numbers, i’ve been receiving raya messages all day long, without knowing who the senders were, except for a few numbers which i recognised, thus! the *academy award* list of ‘thankyous’….
and generally, wishing all Muslims:
i was just thinking and remembering that this same night, 6 years ago, i made a turning point. and i yearn to have that feeling again. is tonight the night?
6 years ago, i made a very difficult decision. but this night have helped me to pull through. for i know there’ll always Be There. i remember this night had given me strength. truly.
and days ago i had to make a difficult decision. again. and i understood the moment i voiced out my decision, there are going to be challenges. there are going to be hardships. which might just pull me down. i understood that well enough. even if i were to choose the other. the same rule applies. i know it’s going to be hard. i just wasn’t expecting it to be rushing down on me.
for every hardship there is relief, seri, for every hardship there is relief.
but maybe tonight is the night?
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aside from that, after so long not talking about the friend, i happened to hear two different news about the friend within the span of 7 days. neither good nor bad, coz i don’t care..anymore.
heard the friend is getting engaged soon. and then heard the friend was sentenced to a month’s jail. a world’s apart of news, heh?
and now i began to not understand why things happened, why the friend had to be a …friend…back in those days? i had always believed the friend more, despite all those ‘stories’. always had.
and now i began to think, for all those ambiguous words you said to me, friend. i guess there is one truth.
“you’re right, friend, i don’t deserve you.”
thank you for not being a friend anymore. coz it hurts less this way.
an overdued post actually. but would pictures tell it all? :))
as a Mother’s day and an advanced Father’s Day present, i bought tix for them and me 😉 to the P Ramlee Muzikal held at the Esplanade Theatre. it was a beautiful performance altogether. well, for a first timer, ever been in a theatrical performance, it sure gives a whole lot of impression and awe. i pretty much enjoyed the musical, the dances and songs especially when P Ramlee’s song was performed. (and Thank God it’s not Sean Ghazi nor Datuk ct among the cast!!)
Liza Hanim is such a dear, and the guy playing P Ramlee, Musly Ramlee, he’s honest and the sincerity in bringing P Ramlee’s character is applaudable, its the same as how you watch…say, Bujang Lapok films, at some points i feel like Musly is not Musly, but The P Ramlee, you get what i mean?? pardon if you can’t. honestly, i can’t quite describe the awesomeness.
and now…i’ve been listening to P Ramlee’s songs these few days. ahakzz.
even though i had to fight my inner ‘responsible’ part of me and go to another concert…i don’t regret it though. it’s just the thought….of making my parents happy. and getting to watch one great art production.
psst..gentarasa this saturday… *wink wink*
and last vesak day, despite the heat, went out to meet the girls at the Terminal 3 Changi Airport. some pics to show tell.
yes, it’s actually to celebrate Za’s birthday… Happy Birthday Za!!
we all used to have EXPECTED birthday surprises back in IIUM, wah liao, missed those times when the clock strikes 12, there’s sure to be a knock on the door, the girls and a cake waiting for the birthday girl!
but now, except for Za, all of us are back in SG, so can’t expect to be having surprises now. there’ll be a hundred reasons why one of us can’t join, and then there’ll be the totally unexpected missed out names on the list (even though we’ve always tried our best to ‘publicize’ the outing), and then there’ll be a hundred reasons why one of us can’t join…oh..i’ve said that already…and then there’ll be the laughters and talks, the heartbreaks and feelings hurts. (tu ah, mak cakap jangan banyak ketawa, nanti nangis..)
ok ok am being ultra sarcastic. it’s the heat and the fever am having now. i keep getting sick this year~ i’m not thinking well. i just had sh*7^/y chats and i’m being sh*7^/y. . and the net and imeem is sh*7^/y.
(can you see that?? the change of emotions i had in a span of minutes?)
i want to go back to my sh*7^/y reading of Through a Glass, Darkly, which at this point, i regretted reading, because as of this moment, i think it’s a lame attempt of understanding humans and angels (well, their version of angels and God even). aarrggh…baca buku lain ah!!
living seri 