crossed parallel

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how can you know when it’s your time? somehow a loss of life affected me much that till this night, i still think about it, and the deceased still pictured quite clearly in mind, despite not having known her enough.

is it because i had been too happy that the news came as a shock…utter suddenness, a reminder that happiness is HIS and can always be taken back.
is it because of the realisation that i couldn’t get to know her as a family.
is it because i keep remembering to the day when she had been the one who handed me his gift to me.
i feel happy waiting for the day but i cant help thinking she wont be there. and why should i be rejoicing?

it hurts to know they are pained by this loss. and me, my family, we are deeply saddened by it.
although life has to move on. and pray Lord will help us all.

but you know what, i can never stop thinking that my most loved family members are not here to see me, see us. they have been gone for so many years but we can never forget them and will always miss them. i still remember those innocent years when i thought they will live for as long as i am but had them taken away. never stop remembering. it’s the only comfort.

and right now it’s crossed emotions running parallel. because it’s all happiness and grief at the same time. it pained me to see and hear him in sadness, but this pain i cannot control.

(and i can’t sleep for thinking about the orientation in a few hours’ time and the load of things to be done…work in non-ender do they?!)
and a meet up with two of my petals is great to relive those memories. thank you babes and i’m so going to get used to being driven back home by qzaimah!! hehe.

please pray everything went well, what’s with the first week of classes and THE day and whatnots.

i.m.y

Pride

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Watch.


No, it’s not about the late music legend MJ, although the world is somehow grieving still for his loss. RIP MJ.

But it was my brother’s performance at Chong Pan CC!! which is he? he’s the handsome boy whereby towards the end he did a one-man show of going through the two lines of his NPCC peeps and eventually leading the team backstage. my little brother he is!!! and i am so proud of him!! great performance from the bowen sec npcc!!

plainly not responsive

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i have lost that energy and enthusiasm of working at home. there is NO WAY i can concentrate and start to do some small work. berangan je nak buat kerja kat rumah, but once i stepped home, i forgot what it was i was contemplating to do on the journey home….open up my laptop and i go merayap at other websites, mainly speaking Facebook…entah apa2 aje yang ada kat facebook, hehe 🙂

and i’ll try to build up the interest by looking at my docs and it just goes blur.
it’s interesting how your mind and body works. when you’re at your office, your mind is like an avalanche of ideas and your body automatically sets itself to work (and i cannot grasp it when some people say they are bored at work, but each people to his/her own). but once you’re at home, it’s a totally different story. nothing works. and to think i used to work from home some time ago!!but funnily, these days, i go housechores mode :/

this cannot go on. i love my job and i have so many things to accomplish. please keep me motivated.

(side track: every time i watch a local drama, mesti ada aje adegan-adegan tak penting dan yang tak masuk akal, dan menyakitkan hati. *sigh* it just have to be, is it?!)

oklah, i intended to complete some work. but looks like i wont be doing any work AT ALL. so let’t not waste electric energy and torture any readers to boredom.

in the mood for lego

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of all things to buy…and be fascintaed with…i bought for me LEGO!!! and i’m actually very much excited about it! like a born again child. wahh, 26 and heading a unit and one more month to go, still want to play lego~ aha! but i really think Lego is a good destress when you have many entangled stuffs in your mind…lego makes you think one step at a time and finding solutions..like how you put one block after another…and eventually creating something, whether conscious or unconscious(ok, takdela nak justify sangat why i bought Lego..oh ya…here’s one very good reason: it can also be a learning tool!!)
and you know what i’ll end up doing…grouping them blocks according to colours or sizes or shapes. i just did.

let’s do lego together ok sometime 😛

art folly random

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definitely a nice feeling to be awaken to a nice sunny day(despite the heat), looking out to the green park and breathe fresh air, and not have to go to work! haha!

some very random thoughts to fill up the space.

  • spent the first half of the day doing bits and pieces of what i’ve always wanted to do since started working at the mosque, and havent had the chance to. the room looks more…well like a girls room …

  • helped to clear the kitchen and ….

  • was thinking of doing more of the gifts deco but ended up…

  • reading The White Tiger (Aravind Adiga). speaking of which, i just realized i tend to enjoy Man Booker Prize-d novels…

  • and i still prefer Yuna to Zee Avi

  • 4 more weekends to go

  • and i’m actually doing the Gifts do-it-yourself way!! and i think it turned out pretty nice with some hot glue and laced ribbons here and there and you have a themed set of Gifts.

  • and then i remembered i have many other things to do work-related but i refuse to do anything…

  • because i’ll be working on the weekends. (right…welcome to working saturdays AND sundays, albeit half day) just like the ‘good’ old days — although i hope this will change come July

and throughout all the chaosness,


i had the opportunity to appreciate art although very much a newbie and knowing pretty much zilch of what’s in the scene…thanks to dear with the heart of gold~

there’s orchestra on Final Fantasy, and since our seat was on the second floor(or was it the third?), we got a good view of the screen where they show scenes from the many Final fantasy episodes and a bird’s eye view of the talented talented musicians.
(i think they should soon have one on Lotr + orchestra!)

first time ever watching the performance of young shaolin martial arts, although very much contemporary.

and tricky Seven Boards of Tricks. i mean seriously tricky. with triangle and square boards to make whatnots..although we got pretty sleepy since some of the songs were in chinese and we can’t for the heck of it understood what it all meant.

i know there are meanings behind every moves and dances but i couldn’t figure it out, just like the cullberg ballet..although there’s some sort of a storyline which i could follow but in all i can appreciate just how much talent and the energy and time put in to come up with a 100 minutes performance. all those passion they put in. pretty amazing. never had the chance to view performances before but it’s a ‘new breath of air’ to be able to catch and see what’s the hype is all about. have always wanted to experience them and you have given me that chance. thank you.

-holiday- programmes

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the very first childrens’ programme held at the mosque went well! it was all about me running here and there assisting the teachers, printing worksheets and making sure the learning materials were provided, making decisions, food and more food for the kids and whatnots. eventually the smile of the children and their laughters and seeing how much they enjoy the programme were the greatest gifts of all~~

the overwhelming response and support from parents are as valuable as their children’s happiness. organizing these holiday programmes had actually given me a glimpse of how it will be like when it comes to the real thing! and that is…in less than a month. what a long list of things to do!




enthusiastic, participative…a happy bunch! especially on the trip to pasir ris park on wednesday. of all days of the week, it had to rain that morning…but the powers above were on our side. just when we reached the park, the sun greeted us with such fine weather i almost cried with relief.

the younger ones had to collect seashells and dry leaves to make a collage and i was amazed at how sharp the kids can be. they could even spot the tiniest crab shells and squealed and jumping with such amazement everytime they found something. it made me remember why we were doing all these in the first place. beautiful children.
of course, there are always room for improvement. all through the week i noticed all the small details which i should really have thought of earlier and not take for granted. but alhamdulillah, children were safe and enjoyed the whole 5-days programme.
so this is the job i have chosen to tread upon…so much strength and mind energy….and i’m fortunate to have people around me encouraging and supporting me.
but i guess this is just the beginning, it’ll get more easier as it goes along~
i need a break. and exciting July is just few more weeks to go!! 😉

officially

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the open house of the new mosque in the block marks its functioning for the public officially….three very challenging days has gone and i think it went well….i cannot be critical since everybody, and i mean everybody worked so hard to make it went succesfully. i am so glad it’s done with. the preparations towards the event, my heart body and soul to decorate my classes. the nervousness and whatnots. i’m just real glad and HUGELY relieved that my mock class- cum colouring and drawing competition went so well!!! and my feet is hurting doubly bad!

and since the mosque is all about family as a niche “loving and affectionate mosque”, i realised my family members pretty much involved themselves these few days…apart from me as the staff, my mother is also a member of the women’s wing of the mosque, so we’ve practically spent the whole week at the mosque, mother helped to decorate class, nuri came to help around last friday, and then father bought lunches and got stuffs for us…my brothers for helping to move the books we bought for the Reading Room, and of course, my dear for lending us a hand sending the books to the mosque, accompanying me to collect mcys booklets and…more books.
what would i do without my family~~

so ok… let’s stop here, my eyes really can’t take it anymore….so…glad….it…went…well…zzzzzz

full force

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super duper busy since i step in full force at mawaddah. and it’s only been a week!!! and time seems to fly double fast rate. straight away when i come in at 8.30, there’s no time to ‘warm-up’ get to gear 2 and do emails, pick up calls, making decisions, and trying to decorate two classrooms as best i can, with the help of dear mother and my little sister nuri who tagged along last friday to help out. and somehow found ourselves staying a bit longer till 8pm~

last friday, i had to present in front of a whole auditorium and share a little bit with the volunteers what alive is all about…with a few last minute slides which alhamdulillah turned out pretty nice and straight to the point presentation. since it’s also more of like a briefing to the volunteers so they know that we’re conducting aLive as the madrasah. mother said it was a good presentation. thankfully it was an informal kind of setting since i mixed english and malay up there on stage! and i believe i spoke too fast!

and next week is going to be another looonngg week! but in any ways: everyone of you are invited to the family buzz at mawaddah this friday – saturday!

on to the next thing, somehow word got round among the aunts at the mosque that i’m…hmm…taken ;)because apparently some aunts were ‘inquiring’ about me and mother had to be clear about my ‘status’ with them. at the same time, it turns out everyone’s excited for my birthday month…and i thought it’s going to be a family affair!!
on that note: i don’t know where to start and ideas all around that i need to focus, haha! these are like big things for me, the mosque, the family affair and the next year in line~

the weekend has been a short escape for me, watching Wolverine which is awesomeness, and glad that my brothers and sisters enjoyed the movie and the company as much i did.;) i mean, it’s X-men!! who wouldn’t enjoy it? i think there’s more action to this than the Last Stand. and i’ve always liked stories where they tell you how things started and me being a non-comic reader, i appreciate the storyline. and first time truly watching star trek with real interest and enjoyment, even though there’s some parts i don’t understand in the movie. i told you i’ve seen more movies within these few months than i ever did in my 25 years of living.

mono: God has always directed my decisions and meeting you must have been part of the deal…

cloud 8 and a half ~

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there are some things which i can freely tell the world but there are also some others which i just can’t bring myself to type it out here. no matter how good a news is. maybe because i tend to take these special things as really precious that only the closest would know. or that if i tell the whole world about it, it’ll lose its ‘preciousness’…but that’s just my thinking anyway.

tomorrow marks the day..my first day at the new mosque. watch Detik @Suria sometime next week 😉 they’re going to talk about the mosque….full force at the mosque starting tomorrow and i mean it. i’m imagining i might have to work overtime even to settle the things there. there’s humonguous amount of work to be done before it’s opening day, say, in 11 more days! please pray for me peeps and if you guys have the time…come down to the mosque…i’ll be there~ 🙂

and i think i’ve been to too many places in these few months than i’d had in the years i’ve been alive…having the opportunity to look at the ‘world’…ok, ok, it’s just Singapore, from many different angles…i’ve appreciated the sky and the trees, even buildings! so much for a small island~ although, if it’s me, i appreciate the company more 😉

and today marks the day…of which…i’ve only heard so much but now i’m going through it myself. happy faces and dear feelings..can’t believe its really happening but it’s true. and ur true and i’m true.

Reaching out to teens

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Some ways to reach out and teach teens without yelling…hehehe

Ring a bell or blow a whistle. Start a noisemaker collection so you can vary sounds.

Choose a hand signal with the children that they can all remember and agree to honor. When it is noisy, make the hand signal and wait for all the children to follow.

Praise attentive behavior: “I like the way Jane is ready to listen” and “Joe is ready to listen, too – thank you” until they all quiet down.

Throw a small, soft ball to the first child who pays attention who then throws it back to you. Only toss it to children who are paying attention and just until it is quiet.

Talk VERY softly so they must strain to listen.

Flash the lights on and off a few times.

While talking, stand next to the chatterboxes. Lightly touch their arm or shoulder if they start to talk.

Start a physical routine such as a clapping sequence or a sequence where they touch their heads, shoulders, noses, etc. Stop when everyone has joined the sequence.

Play a “freeze” game. Whenever you say “freeze” they must stop and freeze in place without talking. You can then give your directions and “thaw” them.

Pick out one positive code word, such as “focus”, and use it as needed.

taken from Shelley Murdock, M.Ed., Community and Youth Development Advisor(ucdavis.edu)