orchids

hehe, tell me i’m into flowers nowadays??!! but believe me, orchids ARE amazingly beautiful and my omnia proved to be useful in times of need. it took almost perfect pictures!!(to me laa)

anyway, if i’m going to be writing anything here, i’m telling you it’s going to be same old same old because i’ll be telling you that work has taken its toll and i’m going from one mosque to another (again!!) and for this whole week alone, i’ve been to and fro one mosque to another and rushing for meetings. as the time comes near, it’s getting more and more demanding! and shall i put this in…exciting!! hehe. and part of the job is buying books!! it’s like a dream come true when i can just pick out books, to my liking, and not having to pay for it, the legal way! haha!

may is going to be a blast~

although i’m thinking bearing a position does not mean we could raise voices to subs who are older, even if they’re only a support officer. i think they deserve more respect. i’ve observed and i’ve learnt. having worked at places, sometimes i feel my being quiet is a given. as long as the job is done la kan. speakig of which…i myself need to be more decisive and i guess the only way to be that is to believe in my choices and decisions. i’ve always been a person who likes negotiation and listen more, but i guess now is the time to be more specific with what i want and execute them effectively, even if it means making a mistake. and i’ve mentioned before…a mistake is a lesson learnt. 😉 although when you’re handling education, you really can’t afford to make mistakes.

amidst everything, i want to talk to God.

game plan relearn

Here are some ways you can get what you want at work (game plan tactics):

* Schedule a meeting and ask. Make sure you bring concrete facts, lists, and reasons why you should get what you want. Make lists, charts, trackers, etc. Be organized and professional.

* Ask your boss if they need help with anything. Always be willing to help no matter how menial the task is. This shows your boss you care, you will eventually turn into the person they lean on when they need something, and in turn, you will be more worthy of getting what you want.

* If its a new project or responsibility you want, make suggestions. Say this new project gets brought up in a meeting. Share your insights. If the person working on the project already mentions something about it, try to work in the line ” Oh, let me know if you help with that…”

* Always show gratitude and always show interest and excitement. Whenever you do get new responsibilities, or someone gives you feedback, help, etc. Never forget to be super thankful, and always say things like ” I am so excited to help you with [insert not so fabulous project here]” People respond better to those who are always positive.

Warnings and Tips:

* Be persistent, but don’t be annoying.

* If you are just starting out in a position or career, do not ask for too much too soon, you need to put your time in.

* Don’t walk around feeling jipped because you deserve x,y, and z. If you want to keep your job, you need to realize that you are disposable, replaceable, and someone is always waiting to snatch your job up if you screw it up.

* Be patient. You may not be getting what you want because your boss doesn’t think you deserve it yet, so, work harder.

taken from http://hubpages.com/hub/howtogetwhatyouwantatwork

The fisherman


A story @ Qisas.com

leaving you a moment to read and have a thought on it. whichever way you want to interpret it. my reflection, well can’t hate hardwork and having a career if they can bring happiness in life in the most simplest way.
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An investment banker was at the pier of a small coastal village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The investment banker complimented the fisherman on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.

The fisherman replied, “Only a little while.”

The investment banker then asked, “Why didn’t you stay out longer and catch more fish?”

The fisherman said, “With this I have more than enough to support my family’s needs.”

The investment banker then asked, “But what do you do with the rest of your time?”

The fisherman said, “I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siesta with my wife, stroll into the village each evening and spend time with my family, I have a full and busy life.”

The investment banker scoffed, “I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing; and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat: With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor; eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to a big town and eventually to the the city where you will run your ever-expanding enterprise.”

The fisherman asked, “But, how long will this all take?”

To which the investment banker replied, “15 to 20 years.”

“But what then?” asked the fisherman.

The investment banker laughed and said that’s the best part. “When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions.”

“Millions?…Then what?”

The investment banker said, “Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings and spend time with your family.”

The fisherman


A story @ Qisas.com

leaving you a moment to read and have a thought on it. whichever way you want to interpret it. my reflection, well can’t hate hardwork and having a career if they can bring happiness in life in the most simplest way.
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An investment banker was at the pier of a small coastal village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The investment banker complimented the fisherman on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.

The fisherman replied, “Only a little while.”

The investment banker then asked, “Why didn’t you stay out longer and catch more fish?”

The fisherman said, “With this I have more than enough to support my family’s needs.”

The investment banker then asked, “But what do you do with the rest of your time?”

The fisherman said, “I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siesta with my wife, stroll into the village each evening and spend time with my family, I have a full and busy life.”

The investment banker scoffed, “I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing; and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat: With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor; eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to a big town and eventually to the the city where you will run your ever-expanding enterprise.”

The fisherman asked, “But, how long will this all take?”

To which the investment banker replied, “15 to 20 years.”

“But what then?” asked the fisherman.

The investment banker laughed and said that’s the best part. “When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions.”

“Millions?…Then what?”

The investment banker said, “Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings and spend time with your family.”

Leadership (Part 3) – Dynamics of a class

Classroom should

  • Allow for flexible groups
  • Foster the students’ responsibility for their own learning
  • Provide a mechanism for students to get help when the teacher is busy with other students
  • Provide ongoing learning activities
  • Display assignment/project schedules, scoring rubrics, general procedure

Instruction should

  • Be less teacher lecture and more investigation and group sharing
  • Be less whole group and more small group or individual
  • Be aimed at different learning styles
  • Allow for a variety of responses
  • Allow for conference time between student and teacher

Assignments should

  • Vary in content, based on student need
  • Vary in difficulty, based on student readiness
  • Allow for choice based on student interests and strengths
  • Vary in time allocation
  • Vary to reflect student goals
  • Contain directions that are clear and direct enough for student and parents to understand

To reflect ongoing assessment and evaluation, records should

  • Include a writer’s notebook and portfolio for each student
  • Include interest surveys
  • Document readiness for curriculum learning expectations
  • Record individual goal setting
  • Record achievement of goals
  • Allow for scoring one assignment with differing scoring rubrics and for scoring a variety of assignments on the same topic

Despite having this knowledge, how do keep or retain this dynamics while conducting classes? its either we’re on the right track although not realising there’s a theory behind it, or we are not sure whether we’re on the right track or not. Got to act consistent :))
Extracted from “leadership for differentiating schools and classrooms”

acknowledge your success

You can build your confidence by acknowledging your successes for each step along the way to trying to achieve a goal. The self-congratulations will build and re-enforce your confidence along the way to feeling like a champion.
http://www.school-for-champions.com/excellence/confwbt.htm#10

….but not up to the point that you’re showing off.

anyway…was just thinking…i thought i had so many dreams. but by doing the job i’m in now, does that mean i have to forego the dreams i had? i thought i was going to do something for my alma mater, i thought i was going to visit the place often, i thought i was going to be a person who likes attending talks and suchs, heh, i thought i was going to be a volunteer at orphanages. i thought i was going to be a regular at hC? whatever happened to those?

or would it be justifiable to say – let’s concentrate one thing at a time?

sunflowers

honestly, i’m a lucky happy girl to be feeling this way. having someone who really cares about me is, well, rather new to me. i never realise it can make your world go almost fantasy-like. tapi seri, berpijak di bumi nyata :))

HAPPY

anyway people, i really can’t wait to move in to the new mosque!! haha, went there yesterday and i’ve actually aimed the workspace that i’m going to sit in!!
the thing is, the whole of this month, i’ll be like going from one mosque to the other. which is, *sigh* just like last year, where i’ll be rushing from one place to another for discussions and meetings. i thought i’ve had it nehh. but patience seri, it’ll be like for two more months, and your VERY OWN WORKSPACE!! :))

although please pray that i’ll do my work right.

eh, i didn’t tell you about the talk i went like last week! was it last week? anyway, it was a talk by Abu yahya on early christianity and islam, looking at its similarities and differences. it really had been such a long time since i’ve been in a lecture and one which felt so familiar with me. terms and names which i’ve learnt before repeated and new knowledge added. it’s definitely enriching. going to put up some proper reflection on that soon, insya Allah.
makes me want to be docent @ hC more often. it’s passion i think, it’s not just doing it for the sake of doing or da’wah thing. sometimes there doesn’t have to be a reason to want to do something like, having a manicure or going to the zoo, or volunteering or simply doing your job.

although sometimes having a reason might justify things but really, it tires the brain la. can i just do it because i want to do it, i have the interest to pursue in it. sometimes, i can’t think of an answer when people starts asking me like why do you do it? kenape eh? alamak, because i want to la!

orait, wouldn’t want to make my blog a place for craps, haha. i’m just blabbering man!

i love it that you rush to see me (although, only we know) i love it that you worry about me and, i love the sunflowers of course. life is brighter. and i hope this will be as strong and persevere as can be. hmmm, well, i’ve been through treetops and an island for you. 😉

report strength

‘reporting strength’ to my blog:

1. as you have noticed, i’ve changed the layout of the blog!! but it depends how long this layout remains and maybe i’ll revert back to the previous skin. however, it does look clean and organized, and still segoe script for the font!
the changes this beloved blog has gone through…from grunge to emo fantasy to emo love to grey to blue background to white and now this. but my fave has to be the emo love with that cute couple pic. and the previous one. you guys’ vote would help though~

2. after much contemplating and calculating, i got for myself a new handphone, or rather, a PDA (as i’ve been told). and presents….


it’s a beauty laa…so sleek and bronze. although it’s going to take some time to get used to the touchy screen, to the stylus even, to the interface and its functions, since i’ve been pretty much a normal sony ericsson phone user. 😉

3. with all these changes happening to me, like a particular haircut as well ;), i’m looking forward to better days! haha. honestly, i need to build up the inner me to face the new challenges and not disappoint myself, much less other people who have such confidence and trust in me. this is not the time for me to be thinking that i might not be the right person to do the job, because there is no turning back, truly. and i do not regret what i’ve chosen to do. i need to assert myself that I AM the person for the job. i can do this.

there’s just so many things to do and learn and RE-learn! haha:))
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mono: i never knew it hurt so much until it was mentioned. maybe i asked for it because i made that question. but the answer was unexpected. i don’t understand why it hurt since it’s only a past. and it’s not like it had never been spoken before. but somehow it hurt more last night. i’m still feeling that small crushing feeling in my heart but i’m not going to let it rule la ok. it’s now that matters. and a future which is still vague, i think i have the pieces of a puzzle, but i don’t know whether it fits. don’t break my heart.

gain confidence in 5 steps

1. Do something that requires a decision and a follow-through.

Have you been putting off writing that letter to aunt Martha? Is there a friend you’ve been meaning to call? Wash the car, tidy the garden or clean the house. You’ll gain confidence by setting goals (even small ones) and following through on them.

2. Enjoy something you do well.

Do you have any hobbies or sports that you enjoy playing? Some things like going swimming, painting or writing can hold your attention and get you into a state of ‘flow’. While you are in the flow you forget about everything else.

Afterwards, you’ll feel competent and capable. It’s a great way to boost your self-esteem. If you don’t have any particular hobbies or pastimes that you enjoy make an effort to try something you’ve always wanted to try.

Picture yourself doing it, and then give it a try! It doesn’t have to be something big – it can be as simple as joining a walking club.

You’ll find that you are more centered and happier if you do something that puts you in that flow at least once a week.

3. Shift the focus.

It’s been shown that low self-esteem develops hand-in-hand with individuals who put too much focus on themselves. You can gain confidence by doing something that focuses on someone else or even something else.

You’ll find that when you are in a situation where you are meeting new people, you immediately become less nervous when you focus on the person you are meeting.

At the end of the day, you’ve interacted with others and will notice that you feel much lighter.

4. Relax, already!

Learning to become more relaxed is a great life enhancer. People who are more relaxed have fewer problems with their memories and are more likely to take the bumps in the road of life in stride.

The practice of meditation has gained popularity for this reason. You might want to look into Tai Chi, which involves physical relaxation techniques.

Whatever method you decide on, take relaxation seriously. The benefits are just too great to ignore. If you’ve never considered relaxation important, think of it this way: if you can attend to something that results in feeling good, how can you not gain confidence in your personal abilities?

5. Make a list of everything you’ve ever accomplished.

Think small. An accomplishment is an accomplishment! Some things you could put on your list: passed my driver’s test and got my license, scored a goal when I played hockey, managed to save enough money to go on a trip and so on.

These are just a few ideas you can use to gain confidence and boost your self-esteem. Use these ideas as a base point and add these things permanently in your life.

Keep in mind, people are not born with good self-esteem, most of us have to work at it. It develops from your thinking and the things you do daily to make yourself feel good.

http://ezinearticles.com/?Gain-Confidence-and-Boost-Self-Esteem-in-5-Simple-Steps&id=152685

Leadership (Part 2)

This would be the part which i believe is utmost important, especially for me, looking at the transition that i’m going through. everything which i must learn to be.

Leadership requires a person with vision and the capacity to extend it to others.

  • Articulates a vision based on moral and professional purpose.
  • Inspires others to think along with her.
  • Listens to the ideas of others and incorporates them into the vision as appropriate.
  • Gains acceptance for the vision.
  • Teaches followers.
  • Helps others.
  • Focuses on maintaining a sense of direction over an extended period of time.
  • Is an active participant in the change process, accepting responsibility for outcomes rather than merely assigning responsibility to others.

Administration = management role

  • Make plans to ensure abstract visions for change become concrete.
  • Taking care of budgets, schedules, access to materials and knowledge, and organization of other resources necessary for change.
  • Working with teachers and administrators to determine their needs and responding effectively and efficiently.
  • Assess the process.