all nice in blue

/ livingseri / Leave a comment
hectic week has left me exhausted with a sweet ‘i-can’t-describe-what-it is’ feeling. 😉

to ma*hir, my closest friend since primary school years. the thing about closest friends is that you don’t know how and why you end up together, why our friendships maintained till this day, and between you could be two stark different people. and of all friends who’s been married for now, ma*hir’s wedding seemed unbelievable. for one thing, it’s become a common anticipation among our classmates, since ma*hir and aa.shiq had been together for the longest time, since sec 2? sec 3? albeit the hiccups now and then in relationships, they got through it all. i’m so proud of you la babe!! :)) (and i’m so glad i had a heart to heart talk with you last monday night).

it’s a beautiful wedding, purple dais and bride n groom in white and gold, mahir’s dress looked like galadriel’s dress(!) during the nikah, and nice pastel colours, an English country theme on Sunday with a touch of bhangra! it was definitely something to be remembered! instead of the normal kompangs accompanying the groom, they had the bhangra!! i’m so happy for you la ma*hir & aa.shiq!


and somehow i got smitten by these handsome boys~

squeezed in some time on thursday night with the zharif babes at a non-zharif fullerton starbucks albeit with a sun sunny boy serving free crunchy and warm blueberry muffin and melt in your mouth choc cake. had the best laughters over jokes and facebook. thank you babes!

blue petals a sweet lullaby for as long as it can, but the memory of it stays. it seems like being with you, everything is a first for me.

bookmarks to match the books

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

i was planning to tuck in early tonight, but i cannot resist the laptop~
on a short note, my mind has been going on non-stop, seriously with all the work needs to be done. yesterday and today, i felt like i’m a machine running on full non-stop, going from one thing to another, that time almost passed by unnoticed. although it’s fulfilling knowing that i’ve accomplished some tasks. i must be enjoying what i’m doing huh?? hehe.

since i couldn’t get the chance to find a box for my bookmarks, which by the way, 6 more bookmarks to reach 100(!) i created one myself using coloured ice cream sticks!!

ok, ok, it’s not important news, but it makes me Happy!!! haha.

face down

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

This is what you do when you’re B.O.R.E.D.

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.
———————————————————————————————

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
i never wanted to – saosin

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
believe – yellowcard

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
letting you go – faktion

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
paper walls – yellowcard

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
damn regret – trja

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
believe – yellowcard

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
forever- papa roach

WHAT IS 2+2?
about a girl – the academy is…

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
waiting game – yellowcard

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
the kill – 30stm

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
unintended – muse

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
beautiful lie -30stm

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
take it all away – faktion

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
anywhere – evanescence (this is so unexpected!!!…because i’ve dreamt of this)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
all the same – sick puppies

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
fallen leaves – billy talent

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
attack – 30stm

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
seven black roses – chicosci

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
beautiful mistake – the ataris (hmm, that’s deep)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
not capable of love – the ataris (fear of losing actually)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
little death – +44

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
distance – faktion

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
from yesterday – 30stm

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
forever- papa roach (you can wait forever?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
damn regret – trja :O

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
do it for me now – angels and airwaves (erkkk…)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
all the same – sick puppies

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
be my hero – october project

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
dashboard – modest mouse

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
face down – trja

APA APA SAJALAAAAAHHH

happy eclipse

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

sumptuous lunch at seoul garden @ Taka meant alot to me, although i stayed with them for about 2 hours? i have never left them halfway, i’ve always managed to stay throughout in any outings we had. but yesterday was an exception. both meets are important to me. i couldn’t choose. i know the girls would understand, right??

2 hours of laughters and sharings were more than enough. happy colours II in my thoughts and memories.

and then i got to catch a glimpse of the eclipse. amazing and priceless for two reasons.

i’m catching up on a new ‘batch’ of articles, so my mode of writing is more on that, not the bloggering type, pardon me.

-truly blissful-

the L word

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

am in a state of drowsiness at 12.52 am, but i need to note this down.
i realised that each and every one of us bears a certain responsibility, whether conscious or unconsciously realising it. it’s amazing actually.

you see, with all this hype of gaza and so many people being uptight about it, i mean who wouldn’t, with my little knowledge of understanding politics and depressing war news, and seeing so many demonstrations and petitions going on, it’s almost ridiculuos because u can’t draw the line between true and sensationalised. all i need to know about war is innocent blood is shed, somehow i don’t care who started it, either way, lives are lost.

but my point is, some people will do anything to help, write letters or set up donations, but i can be a mere follower and contribute in terms i can, but i may not have that drive to carry out that responsibility. because my ‘perjuangan’ my da’wah is not that. my mission is here, right here in this small island, in mosques, sharing as much knowledge as i can, no matter how mundane the subject will be, it does not matter that it’s just a once a week thing. i guess this is my perjuangan, you know?

why i’m saying this is because, i used to ask myself, why can’t i do this, why can’t i be doing something ‘big’ that can seem to change the world, or why aren’t i able to do that? it’s not because i can’t do, but because it’s not my forte, it’s not what He wants me to do because other people will be doing what they are able to, there’ll be people who’ll lead, but my perjuangan is to shape those leaders and share knowledge, for the future.

but you know what, i still think i have loads to learn more. there is still so many things i don’t know. it never ends yea, learning.

so Learn.

angels and airwaves

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

if anyone had been reading this blog, they’ll know that my blogtitles don’t always come in sync. most times it’ll be random, as random as how my mind works. and disorganized at that because many things want to invade my mind at the same time 😉

well, today am in a happy mood, for one thing, it’s my off-day!! yey! and although i’ve promised myself this morning that i will not do anything related to work, but i can’t help myself to take a peek at my emails, which i just did. but fortunately nothing urgent. and i still have to prepare myself for the weekend’s classes.

and to relate rather mundane things here. i actually went for a jog and a workout this morning, hehe, accompanying the mam, which is good! i think i’m going to make it a weekly thing, every friday! :))
and did some essential chores like laundry and cleaning my room..which also make me feel good, because otherwise, i really don’t have the time to do them!
and arranged my books! and i think i need a new nicer box for my bookmarks, there’s no more space in my loyal bluestriped mug!

i shall not bore you people…only…it’s official now.. that my ericko-san has gone bonkers! the keypad doesn’t work well anymore and replying to one message take much time and hardwork!! so until i can get my htc diamond, i’ll make do with mam’s not so old slim-o sony ericsson. but then….all those messages, erkk.. :/

and i shall not bore you…that all four usb ports on my laptop is filled with 2 ericssons’ and my zen’s and a thumbdrive, with all these transferring files going on. and i want to susun my files and pics in here.

and i shall not bore you with my intention to read She’s Come Undone (yey, a book which is not for writing articles!)having got bored with Twilight the novel.(only because i’ve seen the movie, i don’t think i need to read it) and having tea time with ratu and romo…and so looking forward to the weekend and CNY holidays. 🙂

…what a blissful day. hehe.

ps: and yes. please pardon my post yesterday. sometimes, when you’re angry you tend to do irrational things and say out impulsive words. but these are rare instances for me. and it brings me to remember one of my youth’s goal for the week, she wanted to have an ‘anger-free week’. you’re so right babe.

this ain’t a scene

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

seriously, if he cannot do any changes to the stupid site, then DON’T! it’s not as if he’s the one doing it, right? i’m sure what i want requires minor changes?? and for someone who has the knowledge, changing html codes would be a breeze la seh!! don’t make it sound as if it requires the whole Bl88dy world to make the changes!
and the thing is, i’ve informed how i wanted it to look like, not yesterday, not last week. it’s way last year!! and at that point of time, they say, let’s not talk on the details because it’s content-oriented, we’ll concentrate on the design, but now he’s saying otherwise! but all the same, i’ve given them details last year, i’m only bl88dy repeating what i’ve said.

i know i’m not equipped with this it-design knowledge, and don’t make it as though i’m the most stupid person for not understanding, but really, if i do, i can do all of it MYSELF, i won’t need you people to do it ok! i know what you’re doing, trying to put the blame on me.

honestly, i lost respect to this particular head of a unit. he’s not my boss anyway.
i don’t even know why i took up this bl88dy project in the first place. i thought i knew, but having to face people like him, makes me puke. ada juga orang suka kat kau eh, pelik ah.

i’m merely letting out my anger in this blog, coz, really, it’s a very very fine morning, but somehow one email spoilt it all. and i don’t want to spread this anger aura with the very nice people around me. pray that i’m over it now that i’ve written them down. what a way to start the day, shouldn’t have opened that particular email!

and you never fail to make me smile. blue knight saving the day, always.

waiting game

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

i feel like this is the longest january i’ve ever gone through.
seriously, i’ve been through so much in the span of 18 days!! it’s still january~

i’ve had good days…
i’ve had busy busy days which is good because it preoccupied my mind from glancing at my ericko-san too many times a day…;)
i’ve written a number of articles…
i’ve even got angry at a head of a strategic unit and practically showed it…
i’ve taught a total of 4 classes so far and enjoyed them much…
Lord, it’s been days fulfilled.

although
i’ve not understand, still, why tears and blood must be shed. only donations and Al-Fath read with hopes and thoughts that this will give them the strength.
i’ve not understand, still, at this age, you have to have sore feelings to your friends over a small misunderstanding…i thought we’ve grown out of those? the rare times i mass-messaged, there never was a reply from a particular friend. so tell me, who forgets who?
and, heh, i still hate taking buses 🙂

on repeat mode: waiting game by yellowcard.
no particular reason.

and then, i’m happy. you know why.:))

home is here

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

my first class starts today! will be teaching teens year 4 at the mosque and somehow i was prepared for it. excited and ready to roll!! haha. i think sitting in the office doing paperworks and brainstorming has taken its toll that for once, i’m moving around and talking and sharing and whatnots!!

have i told you that i love what i’m doing?? that the sacrifice is almost worth it sometimes. tomorrow will be another day of teaching. although not exactly something which i looked forward to at the start of this year, but somehow i was able to comfort myself and have a shift of thinking. i’m the few people who can do this. so let’s do it seri! hehe

anyway, last friday, went to see my youngest sibs Nuri and Khidhir performed at their school’s CCA Openhouse. they represented their cca-NPCC. and their big sister here is just so proud of them!! they used to be little babies and now they’re up there all uniformed and holding mark-four rifles, aka, fake rifles doing some precision drill squad. truly happy to be there and you of course. for sharing one of the most important part of my life.

and when their teacher praised them for their commitment and being active participation in their cca, commenting that it must be because of the family’s good upbringing, i had a split thought of doing su*jud Syu*kur right there and then! hehe. it’s just that, truly, we are a simple family, unrich and not exactly born of academics nor having some blueblood or whatever it is. and we’ve had our hardtimes, i’ve witnessed it all. and somehow, i’ve realised those hard times have shaped us- me and sibs to be more grateful of what has been laid before us and to do the best in everything we do, and i know it has been God’s work all the way, i just feel we’re blessed and protected. that’s all i can say.

i won’t trade for anything. despite the flaws each of us have, i don’t know how i’d live without them. without my nuri’s adorable teasings and my siti’s wittiness and how she could talk sense straight to the point, and my haliffi’s concern in ignorance, and my khidhir the apple of the eye, still a baby although he has grown so tall. of course, ratu and romo. his silence and her chatter.

oklaa, no need to be so mellow right??? haha. i’m contented at the moment. truly.
please remind me to get down to earth, because i’ve been up high in the sky for quite awhile there. There’s so many things to do Seri!! let’s get moving~

moving forward…with a jolt

/ livingseri / Leave a comment

i was amazed that the mos*que is so full of life and people moving about and phones ringing every other minute and not to mention crying and shouting children because it’s their first week of school!

my mind working non-stop from 7.30am to 5.30pm and although i was supposed to have lunch at 11am all the way to 2pm, i just can’t stop~ especially when you’re in the writing mode and your mind is just flowing with ideas and words, you really can’t afford to risk stopping and having a hard time to get to the same momentum. -teach- might understand that.

it’s not even a whole week of the new year and life has moved on like there’s no tomorrow! and i mean it. even after all those hours at work, you still feel like there’s not enough time. Lord, what are we rushing for??!

in times like this, you really appreciate when you have to get up and face Him- have some time to drag yourself from work and calm your mind after all those chaos. just for five minutes. that’s all it takes…or maybe more..

still in the mood to put up a positive outlook, because really, things are going so well. only…’3rd rock from the sun’ came tumbling down on me today in the midst of me doing a report for one mos*que. (be prepared of getting confused because at the end of the day, you can’t even know which mos*que i’m actually talking about haha!!)~

back to what i was saying, i had just practically stopped myself from writing lesson plans and articles, and start on something else, which was the report i was saying. and more or less an ’emergency’ call came up. one mos*que is in desperate need for a youth trainer that could i cover for at least one whole month until they get someone new? WHAT??? isn’t there anyone else? apparently none.

the irony is: i left that mos*que last november because i thought i want to concentrate on two other mos*ques~ what the??

add up to that, i somehow got this feeling that one project is coming my way. let’s not forget the whole new*med thing which is literally endless!! i have only 24 hours a day. sobs.

but all in good time i pray. Lord, please give me the strength physically and intellectually to do this. Please i pray.

and just in case you haven’t had time to google for that evanescence song i mentioned to you, here it is.(but you most probably have googled it)

http://media.imeem.com/v/5ODR2ONJNt/aus=false/pv=2
Evanescence – Anywhere – Evanescence – Anywhere

to my loyal blog readers, you might say: Not this song again??!!!
heh, honestly, i can never get enough of this song!!
so bear with it! hahah!

ok…another long day tomorrow~