murabbi


the ignorant me have always thought teaching is…well, teaching. you have a book to teach, read to class, explain here and there, give the students homework and grade it…after which, they will go through exams and if they study, they’ll get good grades and move on.

but that’s on the superficial level of teaching. after a year and a few months of teaching Teens and Youth a.L.I.V.E., i have realised how so much more teaching is.

i have taken up this teaching at a mosque madrasah rather unplanned. i really wasn’t planning to teach when i graduated. but after substituting an ustazah a number of times, the teaching vibes has caught on me.

Paulo Coelho mentioned in his novel The Alchemist how sometimes the world conspires to let us achieve a dream. it was not my dream to be teaching, but somehow the circumstances have paved me towards education. i have been surrounded by people who are in the education line, whether religious or academic, meeting people who have the passion and the talent to teach, who have dedicated their brain and energy for the development of our children, intellectually, emotionally and utmost, spiritually. i’m inspired alright. and with the exposure and the little readings i did in due course, i realise teaching is a whole system that revolves the world. you’re nowhere without knowledge they say, now who’s to get that knowledge if no one’s teaching?!

just as the Prophet seeking knowledge and receiving them direct from the Lord, and the Qur’an mentioned the name Rabb. it means: teach, nurture, educate. and for me, i have been searching myself. teaching, i believe, regardless of what subject, is almost holy. and to teach, means to make MYSELF better, because i’m not just any working person, but i’m a teacher. a trainer nonetheless, as how i would prefer to be known informally. still. the mechanisms of teaching starts from within myself.

and the Lord, being a Nurturer Himself, has paved the way. well, for one thing i have a personal mentor who’s helped along the way. and quite recent, i had the fortune to attend a closed session with an experienced and knowledgeable Muslim educationist. Dr Dawood Al-Hidabi.

if i could summarise the whole discussion, it would be The Heart. teaching is from the heart. and there’s the spiritual element to that.

how does teaching comes from the heart? well, IKHLAS is one. and two, the realisation that trasmitting knowledge is, to develop them intellectually, and utter ‘shaping’ of the whole being of the students. is not easy, man. i’ve always known that in order to teach, there must be something in me which is almost perfect. of course being mere human = imperfection, but if we’re on that strive, we’re almost there. and thus, Dr Dawood has given a list of what being a teacher means:

-> a murabbi = shaping personalities. also meaning, the teacher as a good example.
-> a counsellor = competent in giving advices and lending a shoulder, as well as, a helping hand
-> a researcher = aware of what’s going on in the surrounding
-> a leader = an agent of change

these, i should cultivate within myself.

I had 4 pages of my journal filled with notes from the discussion but there’s only 4 things which young trainers/teachers need to remember. while teaching is not just about syllabus and knowledge, it’s also building meaningful relationships with the students. only with this relationship will knowledge be truly transmitted through example. and to be able to create a companionship with the students, here’s the phases the teacher-student relationship needs to go through.

1. Admire – there may be something which is truly unique to the teacher that allows the students to admire her/him
2. Trust – when there’s a level of trust built, knowing that there’s someone a student could turn to without risking being embarrassed. and i guess a sense of respect towards the students’ needs
3. Love – after much time, love can be developed through knowing one another and much communication
4. Obedience – and this is when whatever the teacher says or teaches, there won’t be much trouble for the students to listen to us, because of the trust and love, they know we, the trainers/teachers are here for them.

and since then i’ve been having ths list in mind, almost like a mantra for me to teach. i’d be building up these 4 ‘hearts’ to motivate myself and know that i’ve been in this line, not only by choice, but chosen to.
May Allah bless this effort.

murabbi

the ignorant me have always thought teaching is…well, teaching. you have a book to teach, read to class, explain here and there, give them students homework and grade it..after which they will go through exams and if they study, they’ll get good grades and move on.

but that’s on the superficial level of teaching. after a year and a few months teaching, i have realised how so much more teaching is. and note: i’m not even a full-time teacher, like say, Mary and kak Dewi. but i’m sure they will agree with me on this.

i have taken up this teaching at a mosque madrasah rather impromptu. i really wasn’t planning to teach when i graduated. but after relieving a number of times, i somehow got stuck with it. haha.

and you know how the world sometimes conspires to let us achieve a dream. it was not my dream but somehow it is, because circumstances paved that way. i got a temp job at youth education unit, and then the accidental relief jobs i took up, and meeting with people who have the passion and the talent to teach. i’m inspired alright. and with the exposure and some reading i did in due course, i realise teaching is a whole system that revolves the world. you’re nowhere without knowledge they say, now who’s to get that knowledge if no one’s teaching?!

just as the Prophet seeking knowledge and receiving them direct from the Lord, who by the way, goes by the name Rabb. it means a lot of things: teach, nurture, educate. and for me, i have been searching myself. teaching, i believe, regardless of what subject, is almost holy. and to teach, means to make MYSELF better, because i’m not just any working person, but i’m a teacher. a trainer nonetheless, as how i would prefer to be known informally. still. the mechanisms of teaching starts from myself.

and the Lord, being a Nurturer Himself, has paved the way. well, for one thing i have a personal mentor who’s helped along the way. but i had the fortune to attend a closed session with one of the Muslim world’s experienced and knowledgeable Muslim educationist. Dr Dawood Al-Hidabi.

if i could summarise the whole discussion, it would be The Heart. teaching is from the heart. and there’s the spiritual element to that.

how does teaching comes from the heart? well, IKHLAS is one. and two, the realisation that trasmitting knowledge is, to develop them intellectually, and utter ‘shaping’ of the whole being of the students. is not easy, man. i’ve always known that in order to teach, there must be something in me which is almost perfect. of course being mere human = imperfection, but if we’re on that strive, we’re almost there. and thus, Dr Dawood has given a list of what being a teacher means:

-> a murabbi = shaping personalities. also meaning, the teacher as a good example.
-> a counsellor = competent in giving advices and lending a shoulder, as well as, a helping hand
-> a researcher = aware of what’s going on in the surrounding
-> a leader = an agent of change

these, i should cultivate within myself.

I had 4 pages of my journal filled with notes from the discussion but there’s only 4 things which young trainers/teachers need to remember. while teaching is not just about syllabus and knowledge, it’s also building meaningful relationships with the students. only with this relationship will knowledge be truly transmitted through example.

1. Admire – there may be something which is truly unique to the teacher that allows the students to admire her/him
2. Trust – when there’s a level of trust built, knowing that there’s someone a student could turn to without risking being embarrassed. and i guess a sense of respect towards the students’ needs
3. Love – after much time, love can be developed
4. Obedience – and this is when whatever the teacher says or taught, there won’t be much trouble for the students to listen to us, because of the trust and love, they know we, the trainers/teachers are here for them.

and since then i’ve been having this 4 things in mind, almost like a mantra for me to teach. i’d be building up the 4 ‘hearts’ to motivate myself.

and one more thing, which, also pretty much sums up of being a teacher.
companionship.

so help me Lord.

living seri

a new skin to a new add for beloved beloved journal.
i have this sudden inclination towards things new and starting anew and feeling new and and and (ok draggg) .
and we’re still two months away from a new year 2009. well, who says you can only start a new leaf at 1 jan (state the year)?

seriously, i don’t know what’s ‘motivating’ me for this certain personal progression. and you know what, even my kurtas look ugly to me (but they are still wear-able and comfortable, so i won’t be giving them away anytime soon). oh i think i know why! must be the new look of my room, and the arrangements of the furniture and all. could be the feng shui or the aura of the room, rite? hmm, it’s possible. or maybe it’s just the state of mind~~

and the conversation circles i’ve been to last friday and saturday, which i was truly grateful to be a part of, it’s enriching and enlightening. i couldn’t say enough thanks to the Lord for paving the way and making it easy for me to attend these circles. i’ll share my thoughts on them later insya Allah.

Note: somehow i realised the name endertrust has been synonymous with me, being the title of my life for the past four years! seriously, i miss endertrust already!
but got to get use to livingseri. living as seri. seri in live. seri in life.

in writing mode

heh, this is a bit too late, well, they say better late than never!

informing all that the very first edition of aL.I.V.E. E-News bulletin is out online!
http://alive.sg/alive-news.html

out of cuzzie suli’s hardwork and myself managed to contribute one simple article.

speaking of which, i have to send in one creative writing for pemikir islam. and and maybe come up with one article for next month’s e-news.

i can do this.

magnificence

My soul is brightened by a light in my heart
When I praised God of mankind
And my soul is cheered up and the tears were flowing
Oh God! guide my heart to reason

In the tranquility of the night I pray during worshiping
While the black darkness is all around me
Oh Kind! Oh Most Merciful! Oh Most Forbearing!
Oh Kind! Your gifts are endless
Oh All-Hearing! Oh Answerer! Oh Most Magnificent!
Oh Creator of the strong predatory animals!

Guide me
Guide me to truth,
God I depend on your guidance today
Oh God of the universe! you are my aid
You are the refuge of man in the afterworld
Here I am, God, asking your forgiveness
Forgive me and grant me my wish

-Ahmad Bukhatir

what is happening???!!!

first my ericko-san, the handphone blacked out on me and all 100s of contacts are lost!! LOST! unretrievable.

and now my laptop is giving up on me!! i switched on the laptop this morning, all eager to check up on emails, before going for that interview and nothing came out!!!!!

you do not know how kan chiong i was! and i thought i was going to keep myself calm and ready for the interview, but all my mind could think of was “MY LORD, ALL MY DOCS IN THERE!!!”

but then i remembered i had burned those docs in a CD, just last night, because the laptop was irritably slow and some fishy signs made me wanted to ‘save’ my docs. brother says confirmed got some virus and i think i know where that virus comes from. one stupid thumbdrive from OTHER people, and caused me to lose all my docs! and to think i used my laptop with much care, for work purposes only and did not download stuffs!

but alas! i took that particular CD, put it in my brother’s PC and BAMMM, NOTHING CAME OUT!! did i or did i not burn those docs in the cd last night???!!! more kan chiong before my interview~

paham tak????!!! my hard work laaa!!!! arrrrggghhhh! like bl***y banyak tau docs!
and fortunately all pics i burned already in cds. kalau tak, gamabr2 yang berkenaan dengan kerja semua hilang! hamun!

haiiyyo!! makes me feel that technology s***KS big time! siapa yang bengong pegi buat virus2 nih! takde keje lain ke?!!

so now, consider am still screaming inside…but life has to go on. and RETYPE some docs which are about due!!!!!!

please give me the mental and physical ability!
i.hate.this

breathe

these days, i’ve been not sikit, but ultra malas, to blog. well, for one thing i do have stories to share but everytime, i logged on to blogger, my mind became blank!

and this online project i’m doing is really taking its toll. really. i really need to accomplish many things due this end of the year. or else, it will be a waste of all those times i spent online!

and maybe my mind is quite full with project Y and the interview due tomorrow at Al-istighfar for Mawaddah.

seriously, i thank the Lord for the ability to think. i wouldn’t know what to do if i had difficulties in thinking or some mental disabilities.

so Seri, breathe in, love what you’re doing, do them towards perfection.
Seri, breathe in, and pray your knight will come and save you. 🙂 (ok,ok tak penting~)

=love my Girls=

with this syawal

with this syawal, i’m a year older.
i’m feeling light hearted and less saddened.
i’m motivated to move forward.
i’m intent to achieve more in knowledge.
i’m preparing my soul to meet the next Ramadhan. insya Allah.

there will always be some things which i have to accomplish.
and surprisingly, i’m more than eager to do them.

so please help me Lord.