Went to see my lecturer this morning to have a look at my answer sheets from the midterm exam and quizzes. I did average but I know I can do much better!! I know I can. I’m so used to being among the best that I cannot settle for average. I mean if other people can, why can’t I? I have to be the best! It’s a need.

I think I know what went wrong. Maybe I spent too much time with friends wasting a lot of precious time. I’ve been following them, playing stupid Uno which I don’t know what I gained from playing it. Watching stupid vcds. Talking about not so good things. Talking about people’s mistakes not realising that maybe we are the ones making mistakes. I guessed I have sinned a lot and this is the ‘retribution’. Now my time is running out, I have a lot to catch up. And at this moment, being alone s what I needed most. I appreciate their presence a lot but too much wasted time. I cannot handle that!

To the Lord above, please help me. I am not going to disappoint anyone. I have to be the best.