Yes. Exams are finished at last but that does not bring a smile to me at all because I knew I SCREWED UP BIG TIME!!!! And it’s my greatest regret of my life for not using the time that I had wisely. I don’t know what went wrong or who to blame. Guess I started the semester the wrong way. I knew I screwed up.

Intro to Communication’s exam – I didn’t read thoroughly and in the end got mixed up all the facts of the history and eras of television, film industry, radio and whatever else. Then Sciences of Qur’an which are supposed to be easy had I really read and memorise all the important facts and verses. And to think I had one week gap between my Intro to Comm and Science of Qur’an.

I almost had a nervous breakdown last night and didn’t sleep properly and then I waved goodbye freely to a 14 mark question….I truly gave up. I knew I SCREWED UP.

No tears can clear out the regrets. All I can do is maybe hope for at least a pass and go for the better next semester. This time I know I won’t repeat these mistakes because these are to be hideous scars in mind for the rest of my life. And whenever I’m about to waste my time and laze around, these scars will emerge. I will remember the nights I spent trying to crammed everything and risked losing the points the very next morning. And the nervous breakdowns. No repetitions, Seri. Start a brand new you next semester. NO MORE WASTING TIME. Insya Allah.

I know I cannot make the same mistakes again. There is no turning back, for God’s sake. No turning back and I cannot go on disappointing myself. It’s a SCAR, Seri. There’s no erase of it. Live with it.

SERVED ME RIGHT.