ASSIIUM held a Ta’aruf session last Wednesday and in my opinion quite a grand one. What made it grand was actually the 95% attendace of the Singaporeans students studying here in IIUM. I was actually surprised and do felt happy at being able to be part of a large group of people. It felt close. I wish we are all closer to one another. A tight knit of friendship that won’t be forgotten forever. I guess I will have to remember them after all. Even though I don’t consider them as truly my family yet, but they are the ones who may stay by my side in times of need and happiness. Of course we can’t be the best of friends to all of them. But they are here…with me.

Well anyway, the Ta’aruf is for the new students who entered IIUM this semester and the introducing of the new exco members of ASSIIUM. There are about 15 new students. Most of them brothers from Aljunied and sisters from various madrasahs. A ‘brother’ of mine is one of them and I’m happy for him. I know IIUM had been of his first choices and he makes it here. At least I have one more friend I can actually communicate with. A brother….and maybe in a few months’ time, my cousin will be joining me!!!! Yeah!! I hope she’ll make it!!!

The new exco members…well. we found out who’s the new ‘president’ of ASSIIUM. I won’t comment on him, I just hope he and all of them will do their best and not made the same mistakes and wrongs they did to me and my friends!!! DON’T JUST PREACH GUYS, ACT IT!!! Because, I’m too observant sometimes and one wrong move, that’s it, no more trust on you guys!!

The problem with the Singaporeans here, I don’t know, maybe some of them think they are better than others or that they know much than others that they forget who they really are. And just because they have all the time to sit at HS almost the whole day makes them the ‘popular’ bunch, the ones people know….what f**k. And talking about mahabbah with sisters indeed…. look who’s closer to the brothers now?? It’s like the bad things they said about us, are slapped right to their face….and I wonder if they ever realised it. We kept it all inside because we don’t want to make things worse but sometimes their very face makes me want to puke……and trying to take in some of the good things in them….it’s a chore….does that make me a hypocrite??? I wish I can just sit in one corner and read a book peacefully and listen to my Reason 24/7. I wish I could…but I can’t….because I’m only human. Maybe I can forget those hypocrite faces, maybe I can forgive them for the things they said behind us….even if people said they don’t talk about me….well they talk about my friends who have been there for me all along….maybe I can just act as if nothing had ever happened….but I can’t, because they are real and right in front of my face. Help me God.

Well this is supposed to be a happy entry. I had fun during the taa’ruf. For a brief moment, I was able to ignore any bad aura and concentrate on the new students. We did have fun and I’m glad almost all of us came down. Almost like a reunion of some kind. Bless them all……