Just a week in school and quite a lot of things have happened! I will start with last Saturday. A shitty day to start with, by the way. There was supposed to be a photograph session for the editorial board of the IRK magazine I was involved in. So I woke up oh so freaking early in the morning, trying to put in a good mood in myself for having to rob myself of sleep. And when I reached the place, there was not a single soul there. I thought I was early as always, but then I grew suspicious, and I messaged my leader…and guess what??? There’s no freaking photo session for that freaking morning!!! And me, as his assistant, did not know of the freaking cancellation!!! He just said he forgot to tell me. What the..!!! I am so frustrated at this feaking miscommunication which can so be avoided if someone had a heart!!! I don’t know if it was intentional but I’m not trying to be pessimistic but this is dreadful. How could he forget??? And I haven’t been talking to him this few days and I avoided meeting him in campus. I can’t believe it!! And I just found out from another brother that there’s going to be a phototaking tomorrow at 1pm and I didn’t get the message!! I don’t know a thing!! Am I fired or what?? Well at least have the decency to tell me!! Locals here can be so freaking weird sometimes!! I’m going to go down tomorrow and put on the most innocent face ever and acted as if nothing happened and that I do know about the photo taking. And to think I was the one rushing here and there and everywhere trying to get hold of the deputy dean and the dean himself and all the heads of the department for their confirmation! And it was so not easy to get hold of these important people, and me, only a first year student having to face them…have some respect, for God’s sake. But never mind, I will not let this stupid childish thing worry my mind. The heck with it.

Well, anyway, that same afternoon, I went shopping with my close friends..Qadar, Qzai and Miza!! It’s been quite a long time since I went out with them and I had fun!! Bought a nice orange shirt. At last!! Something orange for me to wear!!! But I might have spent a bit too much. So I have to start saving now.

And later at night we went to this bazaar in campus which was held in the event of convocation for the newly graduated students. The whole thing was called Convest. I guess it is a grand event. There’s food corners, stalls selling various stuffs, a cultural stage and even a funfair….well there’s only a ferris wheel and some kind of ‘flying spaceship’ it’s this thing that goes on up and down and going in circles. That was fun but I got worried halfway. I was so worried that I would be thrown out of that freaking thing. Freaking scary but fun and the funny thing was, it was a funfair and they played nasyid songs. Well, the upbeat nasyid but still….I don’t listen to nasyid but I just thought that they should have some respect on nasyid songs and not play them in funfairs, nasyid is supposed to be preachy, and funfair is not a preachy place…people couldn’t be bothered…maybe they have this concept of you can have fun, but listen (!) you have to remember ‘who’ you are. Oklah….good..at least you’ll be woken to reality and remember you are a person of faith…maybe I’m a bit secular in that. It’s just that there’s a place for faith and a different place if you want to be like everybody, it’s two different things, cannot be combined. It just seems freaking rude to combine them…

And anyway, there’s the ferris wheel which looked more like birdcages!! Not very interesting and less than attractive. But sometimes looking at others having a ride on it like they have never been on one before, it kinds of make me feel pity towards them. Go,go and have fun and it’s in the ‘right’ place, you’re not allowed those outside, so try them out now. The religious locals here really took care of themselves and things of entertainment are like a shock to them and they look embarrassed to try out and when they’ve tried, there’s this huge smile on their face….like they just realised having a ride on a ferris wheel is a ‘good’ thing, it doesn’t ruin your faith, you can actually see God’s creation from up there and appreciate it! It’s a nice feeling I know…

Oh yeah, before we went on the rides, we had dinner at one of the foodstalls. I forgot that I couldn’t eat food cooked outside in the open, I ordered and I just couldn’t swallow the food…it went wasted..it’s freaking tasteless anyway!!!

Then on Sunday…I got to try wall climbing!!! It was fun and the feeling when I actually reached the top!! Heaven, like you conquered something!! And it’s only a 25 feet high wall!!! I’ve always wanted to try out wall/rock climbing and when a free try-out already right here, I cannot miss the opportunity!! Qzai was the first to try, always the one who don’t care what people think of her whenever she wanted to try something, she’s cool! Then I went, after Qzai shouted encouragingly…I don’t know where my guts went when I reached the place but I managed! I tried and it’s great fun. I’m definitely going to try again some other time! Then Dewi and Miza had a try.

And I finished the freaking assignment. I did not sleep the whole night~ And right after class, went back and slept throughout like a log till 7pm. I really did not hear anything, it’s the deepest sleep I ever had.

Tuesday, I had my surahs memorising test. The very first to be called!! And the lecturer requested for the very two surahs I would have gladly avoided if I could. But I managed, only that I mixed up a few words. I wished I could read the whole thing again. There were six surahs…there were four of them I’m fluent in, why couldn’t the lecturer asked about them instead of that two!!! But anyway, I managed but I will see madam again and asked if I could read again. I hope she’s ok with it. Otherwise take points from the fact that I’m brave enough to go out and have the test first.

And today….things are well…oh yeah, I had tuition for my Islamic Aqidah with this foreigner brother who’s doing PhD here and he always freaking spot me!! Whenever my mind wander a bit or when I said yes I understand when I’m actually not, he can freaking know!!! But he teaches well…me and Norlin really understands his explaination better then the real lecturer. And this brother gives me the motivation to do well and read up all my subjects. I really can’t wait to do that! I will study hard and smart and start be serious in my studies!! I want that in the near future, my final exams, I will be so freaking ready and remember every freaking points so well, I’ll be smiling from ear to ear when writing out the answers. INSYA ALLAH!!!

And the main thing that I really want to say is that- these few days of convocation…and I see graduates everywhere with their cool robe and bouquets of flowers…they inspire me…they get through…I will too. I think therefore I am. I can’t wait to see my parents’ smiling face…I’ll be waiting for that day…..

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