I’m bored right now but I think I have a lot of things to say…for what had happened this week…. Monday was ok. I think I woke up rather late that day and nothing much happened…wait I’ve been waking up late the whole of this week!!! Ok except on Wednesday. What would my mother say to that!!! But can’t help it, I have no classes this week ..it’s revision week. Tuesday…nothing much. I can’t remember what I did..oh I think I went to campus to go to lab but the place was full. I so wanted to email him that day!!! Had Tilawah exam on Wednesday. I think I did well! The examiner was so cool, he let me read a few lines, ask two questions from one simple word of an ayat…I answered correct and then khalas….finish. That’s it. And some of my friends got examiners who asked so many questions, especially when they know we are IRK students. Thank God for the so lenient and relax examiner that I got. Hoping for an A but since he was so easy testing me, I’m afraid he would give undesirable marks. I was actually surprised, I even asked him, that’s it?? He said yes that’s it. Maybe he was a foreigner examiner…so he’s lenient.

And afterwards, I got to send him an email. A rather formal kind of email. I hope he’s not intimidated by it. But it took me one whole hour to ‘write’ one for him. It’s been so very long since I send him an email…it’s all because of him ‘hibernating’ even though I have so many things to tell him, I don’t know how to start it…until last week, he sent an almost ‘heartbreaking’ message…at least there’s something to start the ‘conversation’

The thing with him was that sometimes I don’t know who he is, I don’t know what he wants….but I don’t want to get angry about it and ruin a friendship. I think he knows…He always seems to know. And I know he have things kept from me but he will tell me all about it one day…he always do. Anyway….I’m trying to stop thinking too much since my exmas are coming nearer by the hour!!! Starts on the 17th! Stop thinking and concentrate on my studies for now! But I think I’m restless because he’s leaving for Mesir soon…I don’t know what to expect. I sent him that email and I have yet to receive any reply. I doubt if he even care to read them….

Later that day, had a rehlah meeting. This is amother worrying thing. I’ll write on that when I have the time…not now..so many things going on for now but I just hope this rehlah will go well…because I’m organizing it with four others!(+Qadar+Hafiz+Haron+Izhar)

Thursday, a Turkish friend bought lunch for us. She had been a committee for IA secretariat, and the six of us (+Qadar+Qzai+Mint+Hafiz+Bro.Rosmadi) was treated a turkish meal, made of bread and tomato sauce with yogurt and beef/chicken. I can’t remember what it is called but it’s nice and very fulling!!! Later went to bazaar which nothing much there. Food and vcds. Same thing every week and people seem to love going there like a weekly routine!!

Friday and today Saturday…nothing much but I had been reading and studying…..I hope I didn’t waste my time because this time I really have to score better. I wouldn’t want to waste the money and the time spent here. Even my brother is supporting me so I have to do the best for them…. no matter how hard it is….especially now when I’m facing this sickness called ‘him’…my family matters most, because the specialist to the sickness ‘him’ don’t seem to care…well I don’t know if he does, he himself is sick, so all that we both can do is to concentrate on our studies, and let time be the remedy. I will let time decide. But exams…no time is going to decide for me…I will decide what I want to see on my result slip. All the best Seri!!!

When you are not doing your best, you are wasting your time.”