Today marks the start of exam week which will go on for two weeks. But solitary me find solace going out alone amongst the crowd at JJ Mall. My exam starts on the 17th and I have this one whole week to myself…I’ve been contemplating whether to go home this week. The whole family has been expecting me but I’m worried that I might not study at home but then again it could be a motivation for me to study. I don’t know….I told Ratu I might not be coming home and even though she let me stay here but she sounded sad. I miss my home anyway…..and I’ve no mood to talk to anybody…no mood for unnecessary screamings. I’m just worried for my exams. It’s a sacrifice not going home…since there’s only two more weeks to go…but I feel like I’m ready to cry any minute…. I’m giving myself till tomorrow morning and see whether I’ll just dash out and go home…or stubbornly stay…either way…I still have to study…It’s a sacrifice not going home……

Anyway back to my solitary day…I actually enjoyed myself. It sorts of cleanses and refreshes the mind.I’m quite happy, after for so many days cooped up in my room reading and memorising. And dropped by campus on the way home, went to HS canteen (the instant Singapore spot) and met few Singaporeans who are waiting to enter the exam hall.Wished them good luck and they sort of mentally motivated me.

I’m still thinking…to go home or not to go…