It’s supposed to be a happy entry today but suddenly things changed and I’m not feeling happy at all now. I’m at my anger level 4 and I won’t let it all out today. I just want to say someone doesn’t seem to care but at the same time I’m thinking what’s happening to someone? Is someone well?? What’s wrong with someone?? And at the same time quite angry for there’s been no reply from someone, no apologies as what is deemed almost compulsory during this festive days… None at all…. What’s happening??

And at the same time the song that is stuck in my head – Indecent Obsession : Fixing a broken heart…everytime I hear it, it breaks my heart..I can really feel it…who will be there for me when I turn around?? Who will make my loneliness easy to bear? It’s shit feeling this way. So shit! I don’t want to be melancholic.

I do miss him after all and it’s shit when he doesn’t seem to care. I just hope he’s all right there…