Yeah, good things have heppened in the last few days. For one thing, I went to Midvalley with some good friends and had a good time!! Some of them do bowling while others just chilling out. It’s quite a long time ago since I went to Megamall. I really enjoyed it. I’m willing to forget the small unhappy things that might happened and focus on the sweet memories. Plainly speaking, I am happy!

And then I had a mid term test for Sociology which Alhamdulillah, I managed to answer them. Hoping for a pass now!! And I did pass for my Study of Qur’an which I was surprised at that!! And another suprise~ I got a pass too for my Ethics…and this was much more unexpected since I had that test amongst the business of organizing a programme. Third highest!! And the lecturer announced our names..this is the first time I got really good marks for a test and had my name called for being among the best. Thank Allah!! This will be another booster for me to do better. I guess things are much better this semester and I’m going for flying colours this semester!!

And always….I do not know what is the problem with me nowadays but I just can’t stop thinking about a certain someone and it’s driving me crazy in not a good way…like it’s bad for my nerves and my brains! I do not know why it has to matter if someone replies or doesn’t reply to my emails and why does it has to make me so bothersome and worrisome that this certain someone has a lot of girls as friends…maybe it’s because that this someone used to tell me that someone is afraid to befriend girls??? It bothers me alot!! And I can’t talk about it and I can’t ask someone about it because I’m a nobody!! I really don’t have the right to know, right. I shouldn’t even think this way..it’s not fair to me and it’s not fair to someone. I wish these feelings would just go away!!

And I was reading past emails which I don’t know why I kept and I wish for those times when I don’t know whether someone was online or not but only the fact that someone will always reply to my emails whenever someone was online… I wish I am that innocent and naive as ever…but it’s my sensitivity, I cannot run from myself. I really miss those times when someone would actually call at any time of the day, the chats, the smses, the emails…….but of course, things just changed without any warning. Someone might still be the same, the very person I used to know but maybe just not the same to me. Is there something wrong?? Or am I just being stupid for nothing, paranoid of…what?? That’s the big problem…I don’t know!!

Let’s turn to good things…I’m giving a silent gratitude to Adit…this guy in one of my classes who doesn’t fail to bring a smile to me, especially on mondays when I used to have ‘monday blues’ but now I look forward to Mondays and seeing him first thing in the morning. He’s nice and cute and Smart! And we always wear the same colour clothes, or same shade and it just brightens my day. By the way, his real name is Mansor Ayob but I’m calling him Adit, who cares?? Thank you Adit, for freeing me from some worries of a certain someone. Thank You.