one day to go for a new year 2 double 0 7. Most people would be listing out their achievements or the events that created an impact in their lives. Or already writing out some new resolutions. Me? I quit having resolutions… I’m living life one at a time and do the thinking along the way. I’m still trying to be a better muslim, a better thinker and doer, just be more efficient. I’m growing older and maturity is far from my life dictionary. Still much to learn.

But I would just like to reminisce the beautiful year I have led and be grateful for the memories and lessons I got.

First and foremost, my studies have bring much joy despite the inefficient service in IIU. Persetankan dulu their weaknesses. They did give me my education after all.
Dr Wan Sabri, Dr Kamar, Dr Haslina (miss her), Dr Anis Malik, Dr Fatimah. Am always in awe of them and their knowledge. Allah bless them. And Alhamdulillah, I managed to achieve one dream I’ve been aiming for last semester, Sem 1 06/07 which came very much as a surprise thinking of the things that I had to do having responsibilities that I had to deal with at the same time handling my studies. It really is a sweet surprise.

Becoming v/president for Assiium. Mixed feelings and anxiety…9o of us and still not very easy to unite them. I’ve learnt to accept that fact and not to worry too much on them, as long as they are out of trouble, learning well and achieve whatever it is they want, I’m satisfied with that knowledge. Am proud to share the exco position with my cousin aili. She has the passion and willingness to work. For me myself, I still have to learn how to be a good leader, haron is fantastic. And am so going to make the newsletter materialise!

Becoming president of mrc halimah. Mixed feelings and it started out with a great disappointment when old mrcs suddenly refuse to stay on and unfeelingly let me do all the searching for the new mrc. the lamest reason ever, ‘mak tak kasi.’ I will remember to despise reasons after reasons, as far as I can take it. And the team that I have now, they are still learning and maybe I’m expecting too much from them. But I guess I had been a bit too lenient and complacent with them. I have to strike some chord in them and make them work!

And have to add the Pahang trip. I don’t enjoy it that much, all the to-n-fros for dealings with the authorities there, and their attitudes, that opened up my eyes alot. And having my foster family, miss them and yet to pay a visit again. Anyhow, the trip doesn’t come as a sweet memory, I don’t know why.

Well, this have to be added, the cost for being a president…I got the misfortune of meeting a crazy person and the big mistake of having this crazy person as my vice president. It’s an all time experience of getting played on and betrayed. Talking about this and the thought of this crazy person, I wish I could throw up in front of her and let all the gooey stuff stuck to her face. I’m cruel yes but I can’t help it with what I’ve been through and it’s all because of her stupidity and unfeeling shit. So I’ll be unfeeling. She doesn’t know who she’s dealing with.

Another disappointment was the dream down the drain, I couldn’t maintain our number one last year for university sports carnival, other than the first spot for marching. It was a great disappointment. I don’t know what went wrong, but it happened and I have to accept that.

Becoming asst.director II for ummatic week’s closing ceremony. Thanks to my friend tawfique for giving me the opportunity to be one. It’s a wonderful experience, dealing with students from different countries, and for once got to realise how troublesome they can be, but wonderful all the same. As for tawfique, he’s a good leader, command respect and negotiable. but too good for some who will take advantage of him. He’ll go far I guess.

My father, went through a bypass operation, I was crying when he went into the emergency room. the hours wait was nerve wrecking and I was glad I was by my mother’s side and a hold of strength for each other. That wasn’t enough, I was spared the shock that my father actually got into an accident last 20th december! Thank God, he got minor injuries.
Whatever it is, I’m truly grateful that he’s still here with us. We need him still.

I’m grateful for the life, always, and the memories. The friends I have especially, not to mention names, all of them are a cheer to my life, even though some may have fall, and I just found out something from a close friend which made me even more disappointed, but I guess that’s how life is, there will be people who would stand by us and others who are hypocritical in friendship. I have to say I’m grateful to some who have accepted me as I am and a comfort when I’m in distress. I’ll remember the night with the tikars, and the fantastic video clip we managed to produce. One of the coolest and will never be tired of watching it again and again. The raya video and the tribute to superheroes dance. I had fun no doubt.

It’s an amazing 2006! Am up for 2007 and maybe found someone who will be there for me, I’m waiting for a pair of sparkling eyes who would look down on me with love and care. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I guess it’s the phase I have to go through, you know when friends are all attached and even engaged, not saying getting married sooner or later, or already married!! So yeah, of all the achievements that I may gain in 2007, I hope to meet the Onlyone.
So peeps, pray for me!! I don’t sound desperate am I??!! ; )