it definitely is a nice fine day. a bright day. if it rained, i didn’t noticed.
have you ever felt how when we manage to break away from the things which haunted us, we seem to be ourself again, our real old self? i felt it somehow.

anyways, just a few more days to go till my last exam, which is Evangelization and Christian Mission. no worries about it. there are hundreds of websites talking about their evangelization. i got my information from them. i have to start reading before i find myself brain freezed from the bliss of having nothing to do….at the moment.

i was in a dilemma whether to continue for masters straightaway or look for a job before continuing? i would like to continue my studies because i feel i haven’t had enough of studying, but at the same time, i can’t wait to find a job and make my family happy with my earnings. ratu and romo are fine if i continue my studies but then again, there’s the fees that my father will have to continue paying if i go for masters, and then i’ll feel like i’m such a kid still for having to depend on my parents. i think it’s about time i do something for them now. so the decision that i have made was to postpone my studies. take a year or two off. and there’s the travelling that i would love to do. the thought of working is quite scary but hey….i think i’m ready for it. had enough of skills during my years in iium with all those involvements.

and with all these discussions that i made with my parents on my future, the question of relationship always comes up, but am glad my parents are supportive and not in a rush to marry me off to some guy. for one thing, it’s not just some other guy, it’s for a lifetime and marriage is everything…commitment, care, love, blablablabla. and my Only One isn’t here yet, close but still far metaphorically speaking. i just need someone who accepts me as i am, my weaknesses and understands my role as the first child in the family….and like an acquaintance said to me (during the journey back to sg, got to know this guy named fadli)”if a guy loves you, he’ll wait for you”….words of wisdom indeed…thanks man.

oh… i didn’t mention anything about this fadli yea?? he’s like this inspiration which came to me sunday night, on the bus, he was super friendly, and my initial please-don’t-talk-to-me attitude had to give way to his lifestory. but anyway, he gave a lot of alternatives and advices and am truly grateful for that. his experiences taught him alot. and the fact that he has a positive outlook for singlehood is motivating. so i may not see this fadli again, but his is one fateful meeting i’ll remember always. hope you get to go to japan, for that teaching job, and hopefully reunite with your first Japanese girlfriend.