actually, i don’t really have anything to say. it’s just that i like looking at my blog~ i could spend hours just staring at it. but then….

how could a person, a friend, who managed to charm with the words said and the things done, could suddenly be a complete stranger? it’s like here is the person who had been there for the friend, and would do anything for one, at the expense of hurting oneself, anything for one to be happy, if it means one going back to the ex-girlfriend. at that moment, everything was right, as if fated to meet. as if this is how God wants us to meet. but is this how God wants to end it? ignorance is bliss, right? but i don’t know how it went wrong. and it hurts that one is spewing words to another, words which i thought was meant only for me. had one forgotten that? or maybe am asking for too much. am too holding on to the past. for too long. i only want those times back. times when distance don’t mean a thing, and even a simple thing would always be a reason to tell. and you always just know~ you always know when i’m angry, when i’m worrying. i do not know why this has to bother me much. i can live forever and still would look back on one. what is it with one. i’m seriously tired of this. i used to believe everything that you say. and i still do. i still do.

goodness me! how melancholic can i get?? i got carried away!

but seriously though. i wish i could just shut one out of my life because it seems like one has forgotten about me. i mean nothing now. how best could you be, one? DON’T SAY WORDS THAT YOU DON’T MEAN. i was just a person who you managed to confuse with the ex. you were going through a hard time, i was there and you confused yourself, and dragged me into your world of LOST. you are always lost, now and forever. i was once there when you were lost! and i thought you got over it, you left and i mean you LEFT and i found out you’re still lost, because that was what you spewed out to another. i don’t want to judge you. but you made that clear enough. i just hope you remember those friendly days. because i do. because it’s you.

and you know what, i shouldn’t have told you about this song, because it was meant for someone who will really mean to me for life. and you spoilt it by singing it to me. it’s MY song, you knew that, don’t you? and now my favourite song became the worst memory of you. the LOST friend. how best can you get?

oh yeah, lesson to learn: DON’T BE THERE when a guy just broke up. you end up being the aunt aggie and getting meaningless hopes. and i am not the place for comfort. i’m anti post-break up-and looking-for-comfort guys. i learnt. twice.

whatever. i pray, truly pray, you’ll find your way. don’t get lost, ok. because it worries me everytime you’re lost and you know that. you are, a FRIEND, after all. and i’ll be missing you. but i’m a girl who has her pride. maybe this is how God wants it to end. we started with silence and glances, we end with silence and absence.

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