heh, never realised that this song of fort minor’s a somewhat sound therapy for me.
listening to fave songs while blogging~ THIS IS HEAVEN! doing this at home, able to dengar lagu kuat2 takde orang sebelah menyebelah yang menjenguk2 because 70% of my songs are all shouts and noises (scenario at the computer labs, kalau tak, volume on at level 2 lah sey….

there’s a few things needed updating for the sake of my own memorabilias…

ANNUAL GRAND MEETING 07
it passed and am no longer the vice president of beloved assiium. thus the slash on it on my bio —->

aaahhhh, the sweet feeling of no longer on the frontline, and was able to savour the taste of being a follower for the past week. it felt like i had passed on the ‘burden’ to another. am clear headed. am relieved. but a voidness somewhere in me.

but anyway CONGRATULATIONS(even though it’s belated) to the new excos of assiium year 07/08!!! drumrolls please …. hmmm, excos, am i allowed to write out the names here?? or should i not? mintak izin lagik kat excos~

But anyway, am truly happy to every one of the excos. this is your chance to show what you are made of! there’s nothing glamorous about it, it’s all about hardwork!! there will be a lot of challenges, but as i may have said it, jangan takut dengan cabaran. believe in the powers above. i was not the best of excos, but i believe you guys and girls will be much better. learn from the weaknesses and the mistakes of the past.

the most difficult times that i faced had to be those times when having to prioritise, assiium and mrc, add those to the assignments and tests. but alhamdulillah i got through them. i don’t know how i did it. seriously. but i was just trying to do the best. giving my whole heart, mind and body to the things i had to do. it’s hard, sometimes stressful, and my mind was always thinking and thinking, my own brain drain….but i took it all in and enjoy every moment of it. i guess am fortunate that calmness is in me. as long as you are willing to commit, believing in THIS IS WHAT ALLAH WANTS ME TO DO. and maybe, just maybe, this small thing that i did, might change for a betterness. worries, anger, disappointment…those are eventual ingredients. you can hardly escape from it. learn to listen, be wise and thoughtful. i said it time and again: ASSIIUM is not about you and me, but all of us. but still, you can’t always make everybody happy. that you have to take in with an open mind.

by the way, meeting minutes and reports are important. be serious about it. oh one more thing, jangan suka banding tugas atau kesibukan, kalau ada test, cakap ada test, but don’t sound like you’re the only person in the whole world who’s having a test. ALL of you are students. and beratnya tugas tidak ada pengukurnya.

to the excos 07/08 : insya Allah you can do it. am here to help you, no trouble. but believe me, you won’t need me past the first month of you guys being an exco!! you’ll do well, doesn’t matter that you have to start from scratch, this is where you make the first step. always be willing to learn from others, ASSIIUM is not what you say, but what WE say. ALL THE BEST for your journey!! we wouldn’t have choose you if we didn’t think you can do it!! don’t disappoint us~

never get personal things come in between. it had been really hard for me. but i had to bear it. whatever, ikhlas is the keyword. kalau kita ikhlas, lautan duri pun sanggup direnangi!! walaupun ada jarum tertusuk di jari, terpaksa kan bertahan luka di hati. aisey man..melayu nah~

a short tribute to the excos 06/07, as i did not get the chance to really say it to you guys.

to R & W secretariat @ Suli aka Aili : i was so happy to get the chance to work with you cuzzin!!yours were always vibrant and enthusiastic, your lively anticipation was encouragement to all of us and there was sincerity in all you did. you were great. if i had the power to decide, i would want YOU to stay another year as an exco.

to Secretary @ Aisyah Spec : i am always amazed at your commitment towards assiium, with you also being the president of psycsta. running from one meeting to another meeting and never wanting to miss any assiium meetings if you could help it. your dedication should be a model to the new excos. and the blue hat of the meeting? always telling us to return to the subject at hand whenever we were going a bit off. i had some experience working with other secretaries in progs and societies, and for all the expectations that i had, i take my hats off you.

to Financial Controller @ Qadar : seriously you could have done better. but i guess you tried your best. tears can never solve things.

to HR secretariat @ Loy : you have your priorities but you’re willing to learn, you have great ideas! and good job with Reflection! now that you’re going to, more or less, lead the excos 07/08, show more of your dedication. am saying it again, assiium not about you and me, but WE. if thinking ‘mine is hard,’ then it would be hard on others too. WE have dreams too. share experiences.

to Secretary 1 @ Fadiah : i kind of guess who you are going to be in exco 07/08, but my guess may be wrong. Fadiah, believe in yourself, you are better than me and you have my respect, even though i have high expectations, i guess it’s wrong of me to do so. you have to feel being an exco, and it does not depend on others, but ourselves. if i don’t let myself be in it, then who will? initiative is the works! you will do great. maybe there’s a reason why you’re given another year as an exco.

to the brothers >

self dvlpmt @ Izhar : worked with you again. i kind of had to learn to not see you as the president and you keep forgetting i was NOT the secretary anymore. but we’re good huh. despite the downs, you are a leader. respects to you bro! finch and the used – forever!

and last but not least

to brother president @ haron : it’s been good working with you. your speeches were inspiring. the way you think were amazing. and you really care about assiium. i hope i’ve been a great help to you and sometimes i talked too much, but really, i thank you for the support you gave all the way. and am proud to call you as the president. it really is an honour working with you. i think we made a great team.

really, i am so fortunate to be working with you guys. no word of thanks is enough.
so i guess, i’ve talked much. well wishes to all.

(betterness? i never seen this word before….hmm, memandai je tau aku ni, my penchant to self create a word)