haha, i have a new song to hummmmm all day long and it’s none other than my favourite indo band of all PETER PAN!!! and it somehow strike a chord in me but what’s best, it has a catchy tune to it, not slow melloww.
Menghapus Jejakmu – Peter Pan
terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan
perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
kucoba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
kucoba untuk lanjutkan hidup
engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
lepaskanlah segalanya
lepaskanlah segalanya
oh well, i am trying to act as though i have never known someone, nor had i been a close friend of someone. and you know how you shouldn’t be looking at their friendster account or multiply or whatever it is, because you will end up feeling hurt when seeing things you expected as much as you prayed you won’t see but you did. and then be hard on yourself for looking at their site because it hurt so much. and what hurts is that they don’t know. they don’t know and they may well don’t care. oh hell. and how the world, specifically singapore, is such a small place. pusing-pusing rupanyer kat situ-situ jugaklah!
is there any way i could avoid someone without turning around and knowing that a friend or other knows someone. and a close friend at that?
i wish i had never known someone seriously. i mean what part did someone play in my life? what signifinicant role does someone has? other than making me feel like shit. i’m happy the way i was without someone intruding in my peaceful life. why did i have to face those times? what wrong did i do to face this? and what right does someone has to do this to me?
there are five people in this world that i would rather not see again if i ever could help it. but if i have to, i’ll bear it. i have no hatred or revenge towards these people, i would rather not be in their way. and they just don’t keep popping up in my life.
1. she who knows someone, heh childhood friends they were
2. she who ruined her own reputation
3. she who is so much like she no.1
4. he who was just passing by and somehow connected to she no.1 and no.3
5. this someone i have been speaking of who is somehow connected to she no.1
no.2 and no.4 i don’t worry much coz they are not singaporeans. no.5, you were not supposed to be among this, you were not. i so wanted to see you again but then, i guess not.
i said once a long time ago, well, it seems quite a long time ago if the past 5 years is anything but short…this is all a game, and i will not defeat.
living seri 