i’m feeling like talking rot here, and to those still in m18 age, don’t do this at home. this is unlike me i know, but sometimes we need to let it out and i like to let people know what i feel because i am not a very verbal kind of person, but sometimes it became obvious among close sisters, but not so for some. i’m showing you me.

but this is just a humble opinion. i was just thinking how some people had pride in portraying clothes, and make -ups and jewelleries online, for people to see. and i don’t mean for sale, like my friend’s mahir’s site, i mean she did those brooches and whatnots with her own hands and it’s called business. but these are those who showed their personal items out of pleasure, or truly, out of nothing to do??? what’s the point?? and i saw laments saying sending out resumes and no replies at the moment yet? but the need to work….to have some money to shop. *sigh* the laments of a rich girl/boy who feels she/he doesn’t have enough already with all those pics of ‘my things’…. seriously, for someone who learnt alot in far away land, he/she seems more concerned of what they own, than what they should be doing.

so to kawan2 and adik2 assiium…the distance of the place which you sought knowledge does not ensure that you have the best and be the best. translation : knowledge is everywhere. jangan ingat orang yang belajar jauh2 tu lebih bagus. appreciate the knowledge that you have gained, even though it’s just a UNI next door, kat KL (orang kata tak klas belajar kat m’sia, takde snow, tak pandai berbual arab, blablabla) but i think we are on par with those studying in the middle east. better, even. despite the system in IIU, they really teach you about life, academically and practically, in knowledge and in life. (like those probs we have at finance or with the mahallah, itu semua mengajar kesabaran, and bayangan2 orang2 yang akan kita jumpa when we go out to work).

and i have to say i am rather fortunate for truthfully, i didn’t go looking for a job, they came to me. the prayers of my parents and my friends. and i didn’t send in resume for interview, instead, the interview came first, then send in the resume. the lord has helped me indeed. the world is not a friendly place to live in. if not for the seniors and friends who already have careers, and some people i know, i really would still be looking for a job myself. my gratitude to these people indeed. heh, even though it’s a temp job, i have one at the mo. four months, by that time, bebudak azhar yang cuti kat sini pun dah nak balik. (tak pentiiinggg). looks do not ensure you a job i suppose, but your willingness in the things you do.

so now you see how the world works? how balance is so the keyword of life, like qzai ever said in her blog. you got something there which i don’t. but i seem to have so much more.