fuwwoohh, i have 20 minutes before the clock turned 11 pm, and i strive to end this as fast as i possibly can because i need to sleep in early. Kerja lah esok~ kerja lagi ekk??? i’m honestly and truly feeling exhausted and i don’t think i had real rest the whole of this week and my sleeps were not helping. you know those nights when you were thinking while you’re sleeping, or there seem to be a million things running through your REM? really, i thought i only got those thinking – sleeping nights during exam weeks!! and waking up feeling unrefreshed. *sigh*

the week, was Kia ora! had the working with youth workshops, which was totally enriching and motivating, meeting old friends and making new friends. sincere laughs and intense brainstormings. i learnt alot. and am so motivated to teach my teens classes, even ready to start next year’s class. i have so many agendas for the students next year!

saturday was no rest day, in fact,i was out of home the whole day! 8 am – 4 pm, teaching. it was evaluation day, which i avoided thinking on it, it passed, and i couldn’t possibly enclosed anything. it’s masjid thing. not my thing. just praying for the best, and i did not let anyone or any parties down, i hope. i’m just doing the best i can. then took over 1.30’s class, because there’s only one relief teacher. so i had to help her, considering the real trainers for that particular class, both of them are having exams at the moment….

…which became a problem for me today, sunday. which was supposed to be a fine day. of course i had to teach today. at 1.30. there were two teens classes. i have my own class, and the other was managed by the two-examed trainers. i got an sms early in the morning, from the Coordinator, informing me she couldn’t get any relief for the other teens class. do i have any friends who can? damn, i don’t have friends who have teaching backgrounds!! but then again, i sms-ed a few, one i knew had some formal training, others did tuitioning. so i smsed whoever i think would be able to at least teach, well, they don’t have to really teach la kan, i will be there to assist still. so from 7 am to 11 am, none of those sms-ed were able to relief, with reasons such as nak jalan raya, going to wedding and what nots. i truly understand them. it’s a last minute thingy anyway!! even if it’s me, i wouldn’t want to do it!! but what made me angered, at that moment was… i totally understand that exams are important, so so important, but couldn’t they at least, settled who their relief teachers first?? i could make myself available for your saturday class, but sunday class, hello?? i have my own class? same time? have a relief teacher lah, inform the coordinator earlier, not leave her in the dark, unknowing??? expecting us to automatically understand?? we totally understood your situation, but at least, have a heart for us too!! kelam kabut seh nak cari relief. hari ni ada class, hari ni baru nak cari relief, and mana ada orang yang sanggup ajar at such a short notice??!!

so i took up both classes today. thank goodness students were cooperative. i enjoyed teaching them. my anger cooled the very moment i saw them. but it’s just that, don’t take me for granted, can?? i have a life too. i willingly did not go to an alumni raya gathering because of teaching, and i know it’s just so hard to get a relief teacher nowadays. i so willingly did not go, when i so wanted to!!

it’s so me, isn’t it? always taking up jobs/tasks/errands when no one else can!! so me. the disease i had since iiu days, right?? come on peeps, i have a damn life!

i wasn’t forced to take up both classes today, my sheer motivation was the thought, if no one’s teaching, who will? but others have got to realise their responsibility too. don’t take me for granted, or the coordinator for granted. don’t think just because she’s supervising, everything’s fine. just because i’m here, i can always relief for them. please ah!!~

i’m so tired.

oh by the way. congratulations to a new friend, Eddie and Ike on their wedding. Ike looked gorgeous. it’s been nice knowing Ike. (alas i couldn’t take their pics, went to their wedding on Saturday, right after teaching, and my Ericko-san’s battery was uncharged)

and tomorrow’s another day. a working day. a challenging day. and i don’t know what to expect, considering i haven’t been in office for the whole week. pray the best~