new year’s eve. the much needed break.
there’s this malay drama on suria which i never paid attention and when i did, well for the first 10 minutes, i was astounded. seriously astounded. because there were some familiarity between me and this illyana girl.

so as far as i understand, this illyana girl has a very good close guy friend. which other than treating him as a friend, it so happened she kind of had feelings for him. she had stayed good friends with him, even though he had been dating with other girls. granted that this illyana is not the feminine bimbo types of girls. and the guy is sort of the handsome guy who knows beauty when he sees it.

now this guy seems to know that illyana might have some feeling for him, but she has always treated him as the GOOD friend, and the guy admits she is the only good friend he has, no matter how many girls he went out with, and illyana is the only one who understands him, and oh-i-don’t-want-to-lose you friend. I SO UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FELT, illyana.

so the story went on and on, i wasn’t paying attention. until towards the end, there’s only this illyana and her good friend. and she told him, she really miss him. really miss the old him, his as her friend, the one who listens to her, the one who knows almost everything about her. she misses HIM the FRIEND. she don’t want him as anything more. just a Friend. I SO UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FELT, illyana.

but our similarity ends there. for she gets to stay friends with him. I DON’T. and never will, i guess. for my good friend has long disappeared. oh yea, forgot that i exist. her good friend stays…for her. MINE DON’T.

but that’s the past!!

am so living in the NOW. as long as this friend of mine (no more) is happy….whatever. a statement: anti -orang area Ubi. i know i shouldn’t generalise this, but i do. so far, people i’ve known who lived or are still living in Ubi, i just cannot click with them. even with one i remember fondly, is just, a disappointment, heart breaking. so anti-Ubi, can?

haiiyyyya, 24 and you’re still thinking like some immature confused teenager. you’re a youth trainer, for Lord’s sake! haha. i am so over the past anyway. just at times, you can’t help but be reminded. but well well well, we learn from the past, don’t we??

so am going with business now.

action plan chronologically to be accomplished:
1/ clean up my room
2/ report Project Y
3/ lesson plan for teens
4/ prepare some materials for teens notice board
5/ prepare the transliteration for assembly doa
6/ read up on work which am doing with Teach, now baptised as ‘concept review- C.R’
7/ research on transliteration matters
8/ report H-Primers
9/ read THE books, esp on ancient civilizations for y.a
ok kasi genap sepuluh
10/ do some blogskinning for teens and my sisters.

busy busy busy i LIKE???