i wanted to write (as if you can write in a blog) something, but suddenly i’m blocked out.
i mentioned to my Ratu today that maybe my ‘semangat akal’ hilang. what’s semangat akal you say?? if you’ve been reading my blog for quite some time, you would know i like to create words or terms, which may not sound dictionaryable (there, another out-of-nowhere word). what i termed as semangat akal, is your thinking part of your self. i’m always like this. i thought i’ve lost it somewhere.

need to get back to basics, my Ratu said. you sure is right. i’ve been neglecting certain things which i used to do everyday. i need to start doing all those deeds again.

now there’s various ways how you may lose your semangat akal.

one is when you’ve been out of school for so long. when you are not in this ‘studying’ environment.

next is when you get too used to everyday routine. you take for granted and became stagnant, because you begin to feel there’s nothing more to do. you’re not progressing, peeps.

or when you have too much things to do, you just don’t know where to start or what to do. regardless of the environment you’re in.

or when you have become detached from your own self. this is quite hard to explain.

leaving school is the hardest part of my life. at the moment. studying and being in the learning environment has always been the central root of me being in the reality. now, even when i’m still in a similar circle, i’m still searching for something which in the end, will tell me, this is it, THIS IS ME.

apart from all this, i’m grateful for everything which had happened, for the opportunities laid before my eyes, so Seri, why not let’s just move on.