ok, actually, my mind is stuck with this song, it’s the opening song for a sinetron at sensasi, i don’t know, perawan desa? and the only lyric which keeps coming out of my mouth is “seandainyyyyyaaaa….” it’s sickening actually, haha!!

Tariq ramadan’s talk last saturday was enlightening, enchanting, inspiring, and so much more.
– he mentioned about how the topic given “the prophet’s enduring message to humanity” is a difficult topic for him, because there is just a lot to talk about the teachings of the Prophet, and not so much what to say, but what NOT TO SAY, because of the short time given and seriously, how could you talk about one aspect of the Prophet’s life without missing out on others.

my exact sentiments! i did relate here how i had to do a write up on the Prophet for one of the youth al.i.v.e. primer series. the difficulty was there’s so much to share in a two-page write up, and i had to choose between all the amazing stories of the Prophet.

-how we always like to translate ‘rabb’ as lord when actually ‘rabb’ means as an educator, and that the Prophet, having orphaned, he was educated by Allah HimSelf. we always forgot this important this and Prof Traiq had put it beautifully in his talk.

-i like how he mentioned the supplication of o Lord, please give me the knowledge to know you. now, some of us might ever prayed and said, o Lord, please tell me how to help you, meaning to say, how to defend/uphold the diin. come to think of it, Allah does not need our help, He has all the power. and simply He’s the Creator. but instead, we are the ones who need help from Him, to get to know Him, to know His Diin.

-and Prof Tariq also mentioned that yes we are commanded to seek knowledge, but remember, there will always be some knowledge that we will or may not know of. so the need to be humility (just as per discussed with Teach today)

i need to be surrounded by peole who will keep inspiring and motivates me.
i admit i was lost last week, i went through some confidence loss and degradation of inner strength, like some sort of nervous breakdown? depression? i don’t know how to put it, but i just lost the strength to move on and do all these pending tasks.

but alhamdulillah, ratu’s comfort and meeting people have somehow recover my old self. i just have to move on. keep on living and striving to give the best that i can. and start realising that what am doing, is not only for me, but for my family and the people out there.

i have to thank Lord for this gift of life and start looking at the positive sides of things. oklaaa, no need to be so mellow.

this week, and so forth, insya Allah, looking forward for good days!!

where is legolas when i need him? ahakkzzz