but today was very very cranky. and the incident of tunang-ed friends who argued with one another, and out of nowhere, included my name in their issue. hey! apa nih??so nanti kalau dah kahwin, gaduh sikit, can use my name ah, and then can fingerpoint at me to put the blame on!! you want to joke around ke provoke one another ke, leave me out la. and kalau dah tunang tu, buat hal tunang la, why harbour old skool feelings??!! berfikir secara matang lah. honestly now, i felt betrayed by people i called friends.

i didn’t think this was serious when i first got to know about this, just some petty fights among tunangs. but then when i got to really think about it, i began to think i shouldn’t take this complacently. after all, they’re using my name!!

both of you have a little argument – got angry at one another – girl provoked guy (apparently including me as tool)- and guy ‘confessed’ of old skool feelings – girl tells me – i hunt the guy thinking the girl was wronged – but apparently the girl had always been ‘joking’ about guy and me- ni baru betul orang kata 2 kali 5 dol!alamaaak ni criter zaman biler ni? umur masih 15 tahun eh? i go and scold the guy like hell, and then much later the girl sms-ed me asking me to please not fight, everything is settled between him and her.
sorry girl, not that easy.

i don’t know why am truly angered by this, seriously, and very much sore still about this. it’s going to take time to forget.

you guys have been good friends, but even good friends have received the silent treatment from me. and to those who know, they’ll understand what silent treatment from me means…

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dreadfully cranky.