the past weekend was a mix of emotions for me. the transmission between one emotion to another was so fast it left me numbed. from grief and sorrow to joy and happiness, seriously, it’s a total mix.

my prayers for Dyan. i wish i can do more for you in these times of need, but i don’t know what.

my prayers for Dayah, i know Lutfi is just the best gift you could ever have for all the hardships you faced. no wonder he’s such a good little boy. he’ll have your looks with my brains and mahir’s wits. 😉

and a prayer for guidance. the year has ended in ways i never could have imagined, it’s almost like dear Lord has been answering my prayers and given me so much. so much. will the new year bring much joy? i need Your guidance.

i’ve always asked myself every new hijrah year: is this my hijrah? somehow, it never stick to the mind that i’m going through change or am i receiving the fruits of my sacrifice. but 1429’s ender came in such a way that when 1430 came knocking, i’m thinking… could this be it??