am in a state of drowsiness at 12.52 am, but i need to note this down.
i realised that each and every one of us bears a certain responsibility, whether conscious or unconsciously realising it. it’s amazing actually.

you see, with all this hype of gaza and so many people being uptight about it, i mean who wouldn’t, with my little knowledge of understanding politics and depressing war news, and seeing so many demonstrations and petitions going on, it’s almost ridiculuos because u can’t draw the line between true and sensationalised. all i need to know about war is innocent blood is shed, somehow i don’t care who started it, either way, lives are lost.

but my point is, some people will do anything to help, write letters or set up donations, but i can be a mere follower and contribute in terms i can, but i may not have that drive to carry out that responsibility. because my ‘perjuangan’ my da’wah is not that. my mission is here, right here in this small island, in mosques, sharing as much knowledge as i can, no matter how mundane the subject will be, it does not matter that it’s just a once a week thing. i guess this is my perjuangan, you know?

why i’m saying this is because, i used to ask myself, why can’t i do this, why can’t i be doing something ‘big’ that can seem to change the world, or why aren’t i able to do that? it’s not because i can’t do, but because it’s not my forte, it’s not what He wants me to do because other people will be doing what they are able to, there’ll be people who’ll lead, but my perjuangan is to shape those leaders and share knowledge, for the future.

but you know what, i still think i have loads to learn more. there is still so many things i don’t know. it never ends yea, learning.

so Learn.