hecticness beyond description. working weeks no end. no proper rest. working long hours. coming back home and rushing to clean the room, clear the mess, bake some simple cookies just so it ‘felt’ like raya-ness and hey, actually shopping much less this year! which is record breaking.

why? because i’m working, mom’s working (which is terrible) and dad’s home and had to do a lot more, we had quite a last minute shopping last saturday. really, rasa sedih pun ada because of my younger sisters and brother so looking forward to raya, and wearing nice clothes, looking pretty and handsome….it really was nice to see them sisters getting dresses they like and wearing heels this raya~ all in all, our shop for raya is quite minimal but i like it! haha.

and one disappointment is we couldn’t get to rent a car because simply we think it’s a bit too much to spend 4-500$ for a 3-4 days rent of car and pretty much most rentals are fully booked.

like my mother kept lamenting, sebab kerja ni…mematikan mood raya betul!

raya mode is not in by now, maybe because of the tiredness and all i want is to have some proper rest and enjoy food. erkkk…

oh yes, working on the eve of raya, albeit half day but still! and semi working on pagi raya. i don’t think i can be used to this!

but let’s look at a brighter and better angle. at the least, we have fasted for a whole month (of course minus 7 days for us ladies), volunteered time at the mosque and spent nights terawih and managing to read (although managed to read only half of it), still i don’t feel i did enough. sometimes i hate myself for that. but the past cannot be undone. i pray for His mercy. for His forgiveness.

a nice eidul fitri to all. may all blessings be upon us insya allah.

and what matters is being with my family. my beautiful family. my life my joy.
and then there is you. 🙂