i’m indulging myself in jodi picoult’s handle with care and perhaps cure this sadness and crushed feeling i’d been having the whole week. and just trying to forget the whole thing and bring myself up to face whatever needs done next.

it made me wonder why am i doing all this? what is it i want to achieve out of all this hard work? when in one ear fiery remark can tore your heart. but like a senior adviced, don’t show your emotions and stay strong. and here i am, being strong. as always.

the thing is, if my being busy is my mistake and a bad reason to not have called, as opposed to parents’ -quote-busy the whole year-unquote- well with all due respect to all parents out there, let’s do the math:
i am busy because i have other 600 students(as oppose to two teens) to care for and making sure they really learnt what they should have been learning at home in the first place.
i am busy because i have 600 students to discipline and learn how to respect, when parents don’t show that they respect other people.
i am busy because i have 1200 parents’ bizarre expectations and demands to sanely deal with.
i am busy because i have 5-DIGITS dollars of unpaid fees to think of recovering.
i am busy because i have 9 team members who i have to keep together to be able to deliver the job in the most perfect manner. and i mean perfect.
i am busy because i have only 365 days in a year to save my ass before 600 students and 1200 parents made me accountable when facing HIM after a lifetime.

so do i apologise for being busy?

i am not saying my responsibility is any bigger or harder than parents. no. their responsibility and busy-ness is of utmost nobility. but with that nobility, i do not think it gives parents the high and mighty-ness to snap at me or any other asatizah. if i can show them all respect, as i have been taught by my own parents, couldnt they give a speck of that to us? i mean, please, enlighten me, i do not understand why cant there be mutual respect?

well i am not generalising, this happened among some, while many others have been very supportive and i am truly truly grateful of that.

and i hope there is no one out there who’s hurt by this post of mine, but if the reader happens to be a parent, let’s think about it…why do we always complain when teacher did so much. why are we unable to respect teachers, no matter how young they are when they are taking a portion of the burden of educating the children?

my parents have never shown disrespect to my and my sibs’ teachers. and we’ve learnt that. and i pray that when i have children, i will respect their teachers.

i am but a small fry in this world.