5 more days to go. and i’m nervous and worried and i pray that everything will go fine!
and its not just that…but also the emotions going on in my heart and mind that i will be someone’s wife and its like a whole different life.

at one time i will be thinking about the wedding and what i need to do next, or whether i forgot something or what. and for once, i dont think about work at all, i cannot think about work, my mind is just reeling about the wedding. and then at another split second, i will be feeling sad that i might miss my parents and siblings, of course, we stay so nearby, but its different! i’m moving to a different house, home, i think it can be a scary thought at times, but also excited because i will be staying with a husband. really, mixed emotions. no wonder bride- to-bes are discouraged to go out so much, because if they have so many things to think of, they are better at home than out. need to calm oneself a lot.

ok maybe i worry too much. i know things will be fine and i will do well as a wife. insya Allah.

but at this crucial time, i miss my grandparents. a LOT. i miss them so much and wished that they are here to be with me, to witness this day. i longed to see their smiles. i wish i could hug them and say i love them.i know they will be very happy. yayi would have been the happiest grandfather. nenek would already be here, staying here and will probably be nagging if i dont follow the rules, atuk would be here, probably sitting in front of the tv watching news. Lord, i miss them.

anyway. please pray for me. i want the wedding to be perfect and a good start to a marriage:))