Never have i went through the month without telling myself that come July, i want to forget that its my birthdate and that someone would eventually surprise me with, say, a gathering, or a bunch of presents and things that make a child happy on her birthday 🙂

but not for my case. for one thing, we don’t always for get our birthdays. that beautiful number that you are born into, fated to see the world at that particular time and day, of all days. unless you so caught up with work or lost in a place with no sense of time and day, well probably you wont remember your birthdate.

anyway as i was saying, i cannot forget my birthdate because i have to remember two prior birthdays in July, which is my brother and sister respectively that reminded me ‘oh yea..my birthday in a few more days..’

this year i am blessed for celebrating as a wife with a nice surprise from hubby, wishes and prayers here and there. And although I got a mild response from my family because I believed everyone is just too preoccupied that they can’t be bothered, well I got teary eyed when I got an SMS wishing me birthday from my father. I don’t know, he rarely shows his affection that a simple message from him becomes such precious thought. And mom, a facebook message? I’m not just any friend ok :-\ I don’t understand why I would feel insulted by that.

But anyway it was a good day..I’m grateful for having come this far, grateful for everything my family has done for me because I won’t feel sore for so long, it takes too much energy.

I guess this is also a phase of marriage life, you tend to feel distanced from one’s family and feel like they don’t care anymore. Hopefully this is just a post-wedding-into-one year-marriage kind of unfathomable emotion. Like a feeling of I care so much and try to contribute but they don’t seem to care anymore.

Oh, maybe its just the age. Beautiful number 28.
Aside all these emo, I pray for happiness and wisdom, with much strength to face everyday challenges career/marriage/family/social wise.

And Lord, I pray for Your forgiveness for I have sinned I know.
Lead me to the rightful path and all the people I love.