So i have been reading. it made me reminisce those days when i have to do research. reading upon reading and trying to make sense of everything in a short time possible. only this time, im reading to plan a lesson. a lesson that i hope will make an impact to the people out there. i took up this with the thought that it gives me a chance to challenge myself and the knowledge i thought i had. i didnt think it was going to be difficult.

but this has been an opportunity to really crack my brain and recall all those lessons ive learnt back in school and uni. i will say it again, this is really difficult! Allahu mustaan, allahu yassir wa laa tu’assir. i need this to benefit the ummah. Allah please help me.

so the term gratitude. i have mentioned in my previous post how exhaustive life has been for me. so i come upon a website (pickthebrain) while looking for some inspirational articles to bring myself up up and up again. one of the tips is to focus on gratitude and the positive things that have happened, and in my case, my career thus far.

since i have graduated, i have been in this circle and i have met some very good people along the way who trusted and believed in me. given me chances and opportunities. but i guess i dont always give my best. sometimes i say i dont know how to do and dont think. ok that is me belittling myself. back to the gratitude part.

– i have a simple but close knit family
– i went to a good madrasah and passed through effortlessly all the way to A Levels nurturing and educating me
– i got admitted to one of the best Islamic universities and received knowledge from great lecturers who shaped my values and prepared me to face the world
– i got a job, albeit as a mere project officer, immediately after graduating
– i had the first hand experience to see the development of mosque madrasah’s curriculum and the challenges it faced…all that critics, mindblowing questions, the publicity it had to go through to convince people, the curriculum changes and the numerous edits done. i see this curriculum grow. i was part of it having helped developed some of them.
– i have always been able to work under pressure, in fact, i work well under pressure although at times i like to be well prepared ahead

– heck i started the madrasah, from scratch, from zero knowledge. from zero student to…now..about 800 students? it was really an opportunity of a lifetime. and it has to be one of my best achievement.

– and now i am married to a most loving caring most patient man that is always there to give me a hug and a kiss when things go wrong.

– rezeki is all in the hands of the Lord. will get what is sufficient. insya Allah.

im in gratitude of what i have and had achieved as of now. i just need to move on and improve. make interesting what seems not and make ezciting what seems to lack of it.

i can do this.