Usually i always start my blogpost with a title and i could work from there. but nowadays it seems that i work the other way round. not that it matters but i seriously think titles are everything, and it is the focus of a story..

it has been a turnaround in my perspective, in my work, mostly. i had been praying hard for the past weeks and still is to God to give me the strength and guidance in this and mostly asking for HIS blessings in my every actions and decision. and remember i blogged about trying to make this exciting when there’s a lack of it, surprisingly, i find myself treating my work with a bit of excitement and that energy of purposefulness. I know it’s God’s way of comforting me and guiding me through. and im seriously taking mental notes of all the signs. ALHAMDULILLAH. with Your guidance Ya Allah, let me do what will be best for me, for my husband and family, for the community and the ummah.

But it doesnt mean my mind has not stopped thinking about it. i still do. its just that the circumstances is not giving me that chance. not now anyway. i will persevere on. insya Allah. indeed HE knows best. Im asking for HIS guidance.

on a happy note, one of my closest friends, still friends till this day, all the way from those Roswell years and I am glad we are still friends..ok ok…she gave birth to a sweet baby girl with a sweet, and in my personal view, a cool and most unique name (which is, expected if it’s dyan, hehe) Nur Athea. I love the name! alhamdulillah, visited her last friday and so glad mother and daughter is safe and sound. So my three closest friends from school have children. Mahir with baby Emre, Dayah with 3-yr old Lutfi and now Dyan with sweet Athea.

And you know what, i cant wait for one myself. but Allah knows best. we can keep on praying and trying but Allah knows best when this little one should be created. and with all the people i met who will ask every face time, with their prayers, we will have one two three four? who knows?! Allah knows. and maybe in time. in the right time. little he or she will come. and mommy and daddy here will be waiting patiently for you precious one.

i had a dream. and that dream will come true. Amin.