its mid January no? reading about The Time Keeper makes me reflect quite a bit on my outlook of time.
I am reminded of a moment while working back in December that I asked for time to slow down because I still have a lot of pending work to catch up. and I was truly not ready to face 2014. I was not ready to face the work I have to endure in 2014.

then I did ask for time to move faster because I had just had it with all the work and I just want to go home and read. and how we are always rushing to go to work or complaining when the train is late when it is always on the go every few minutes. oh let’s not go into waiting for buses because I gave up on that.

we are always thinking about what will happen tomorrow if I don’t finish a task today, what will happen at the end of the week if I don’t do this and that? why not just focus on now. on today?

and truly the first weeks of January had been a rush. rushing to finish this and that, rushing to record the new students, rushing to send out letters because even parents have become impatient nowadays. rushing to return back calls, rushing to meet the teachers, rushing to make sure all classes going on well. its a mad rush. I didn’t think I had a chance to stop and breathe and just take it all in. its only mid January and I am exhausted. I am still rushing though. barely thinking for myself and my needs or that my family needs me. it is always about other people. other people’s times, parents’ timing, students’ timing. barely giving a bit of time to even say hello to my close friends.

I am going to teach myself to don’t wish for time. make do with the time given and don’t rush. coz my rushing is not for me. and people do not care. we have been so engrossed in work. so engrossed in what people expect of us, of what people want us to do for them. I would like to do my work and enjoy them. I do not want to feel forced. and for the second year, I am not going to make work the sole purpose of life. although what I do for a living could well be my purpose of being alive, but no, I cannot make it dominate my time. Already I am working 8 days last week. 8 days and a half. I forced myself to take time off Monday afternoon. I was bugged with calls and letters to send out. my off day is not a two days straight. I am always feeling exhausted. my off days are bugged with smses and calls, or, yea, back to work. im still ‘working’ on off day. and I am not even a business woman. I am a daughter, a sister, a wife. I don’t think im good at those departments now.

make time for myself. take it easy. don’t rush. things will be better I guess. 2014 is an exciting year but I have to face it with a clear rational mind and act effectively. not through rushing. keep time. as it is.

don’t feel rush. I’m a cancer, what can I say. we are domestic harmonious people. and I have my own idea of resting.

who is the freak who decided that everyone must work 8 hours a day anyway? 44 hours per week? what is home then? a place only to sleep? and you have to pay for a house for your whole life when you can only ‘sleep’ in it? you cant even enjoy your home coz you spend 10 hours outside, barely 5 hours of sleep and rushing through everything because of ‘work’. ok, I will stop here. because I am going to give a piece of my mind about living in this mad rushing island.

stay calm and do within what is in your control. today. not about tomorrow. What does the Qur’an teaches you about time? Patience.

learn some zen why don’t you Seri?