i am watching The Matrix as im typing this and im brought back to a time, in my pre-u days when i had a general paper lesson and guess what the teacher made us do? Watch The Matrix! and i am introduced to a world of learning where it was not based on textbook and from then on, i learnt to watch movies with a critical mind and learn the language at the same time. of all the lessons i have learnt, this particular lesson practically etched itself in my memory. it invoked a sense of learning, wonder, critical inquiry but at that point of time, i have to admit, all the while watching the movie with my schoolmates, i was thinking: why the heck are we watching this movie, wont we get caught by the principal or the discipline mistress, despite the knowledge we are watching this with a teacher in class. but, hey, it’s keanu reeves, if we can watch him in class, why not?! and giggle to his handsomeness along the way. but now, im just thinking, it was still a process of learning. im in the education line now and i realised the need for me to be on par with what is happening around me, the community, the world, the religion. i can say i have been quite ignorant, coz it’s bliss they say. not anymore. as much as my introverted personality wants to shy away from all the chaos, my analytical thinking style would really like to do something about it.

so the machines used in the Matrix, kinda obscure now that the world is more advanced and technology wise more sophisticated and smart than those shown in the Matrix. i never really get to fully understand The Matrix though, not then not now. Dont even talk about the second and third Matrix movie. the second movie, i always stopped watching when it reached the part where they are all partying in what looks like an indigenous cave. so now what, what makes Neo’s life different or more pure than the life the matrix has computerised human to believe in? i just hated the club dancing scene.
so What is Real? well here’s real for you.

life has been a rush these few weeks, aint it? i have this mosque officers course i had to attend and in the midst of it all, my dad had a hard attack and warded in ICU for a night and just when everything is going back to normal, my mother was warded due to high fever and suspected of TB. SubhanAllah. the challenges this family is facing and it is only March. Mom is undergoing treatment now, she’s home but on hospitalisation leave and has to visit the polyclinic everyday for the next two weeks to get her medication. already she’s looking weak and frail, lose weight and have no appetite. and its kind of heart wrenching seeing my father taking care of her at this point of time now when he himself needs to slow down a bit recovering from the heart surgery. so they went through some hard times but i know the depth of love they have for each other. i am glad the choice is still this. life.

i am praying for health in the family, even my husband who himself have been coughing close to two months now. after all this settled, mom, dad and hubby gets well, i am going to do a check up of my own.

2014 has been something, maybe something good will happen soon. pray for health and happiness.

Rabbana aatinaa fiddunya hasanah wa fil akhirati hasanah.

the body cannot live without the mind… so the mind needs to live for the body.