after much procrastination i finally did perceptual positions.

i procrastinated because, yes i had been busy, but i also do not have the opportunity to do it with always being around people at work and hubby around. so today i happened to take some time off and right now at my PV home. i procrastinated, too, because i was scared of the truth. but doing this perceptual positions is supposed to break whatever belief or perspectives i am currently having and to learn to manage and understand about the other people we are having ‘problem’ with.

so i did. two different persons and on two different issues.

one i had to desperately do because i have been having these bad emotions and vibes towards to and i cannot afford to live this way, i need to clear this self and heart from this bad feelings before it shows in my behaviour or my words and actions towards the person.

and i was surprised. is it possible to feel and finally learnt that the other person had ego and built a wall between us? i felt such closed inner self. like ‘i should not reveal to anyone my feelings and that everything is ok with me’. i felt that need to just close oneself and keep things to the self. and loneliness. it was not a fear but just a feel of unsure and uncertain of how one will face that loneliness.

and i learnt to involve that person. this is truly my home and no one is going to take that away. i am at peace.

the second had a desperate need to control everything, for whatever reasons, just that exhaustion and desperate need. i felt so much tiredness. but i think i learnt a truth and such grievant truth and i found out that forgiveness need to be seek, from specific person to another specific person.

i am at peace. like nothing is pulling me down, i am clear of myself and consciously aware of the difficulty i faced and the other persons. i am able to be true to myself and be sincere to the other persons. it had been a relief, like a whole burden taken off my shoulders.

i am truly glad i learnt nlp and able to use these tools to face my own demons.