how is it that it is already february?! where have my january gone to?? seriously i feel like january has gone too fast and i am already looking forward to some actual rest. for the record, i have not had a proper weekend in January. yes 4 weekends, and none with a complete rest day and off day. it is always either days taken off. and it is super tiring.

and nope i am not looking forward to the long cny weekend, because i dont have them. working weekends and then some boss thinks it is a good idea to take the two days cny public holidays away for some retreat. honestly,  i am not feeling it. i feel betrayed and robbed of my days with my husband. i am having neck pains and shoulder pains and i know its not just about posture. it’s this deep stressness and hatred i am having. and when i cannot even look at someone, it tells a lot of how much i despise and if i can help it, i dont even want to talk to him. this would be a first time i am really at odds with a superior. i never thought it would be this way but seriously now i understand what it is and what it meant to hate your boss.

continue to be this way and i can assure you that i will not be waiting for 2018 to leave.

anyway, i feel like i am already doing things as though i am leaving. i need to make sure my teachers know and continue doing the right things even when i am not around.