2017 has been hell of a welcome. quite a roller coster of emotions and mental peaking on and off. these two months has been such a difficult time for me i almost crashed and burnt.

i am not in a healthy state mentally and emotionally to record the life i went through for the past months. but suffice to say i am healing my self. i need to be silent for a few days to allow myself to recall who i am and why i am here, because i feel like im going down at such speed that if i don’t step back, i could damage everything and lose it.

already i am having headaches almost daily. i cannot think straight and make proper decisions. sometimes i hear people talking but then i blanked out and i couldnt understand what they are saying. like i need to stop and listen to whoever is talking say it out one by one. i cannot be fast paced anymore because i couldnt decide properly. i start to have doubts and not taking risks. i couldnt decide what is better for anyone or anything to do with work anymore. i couldnt finish my work fast enough.

i really feel like i need to just literally stop doing anything. because i have so much dedication for this whatever it is i am doing, if i don’t stop, im just going to fall off the cliff.

please, allow me to have some breathing space and pull my self back.