previously i received comments from people that i look ‘perpetually tired’
and it’s true. i had been tried. exhausted. heavy. heavy at heart and body.

so i was surprised when last weekend, i had a few familiar faces saying i looked radiant. i looked healthy. it was a nice surprise. considering the stress i have been having. so one nice lady even come up to me, and asked me what had i been doing? i looked different.

it stumped me…because i didnt know… i mean we always look the same everytime we look at ourselves from the mirror. i didnt see any changes.

but then it stopped me to thinking.

i told my hubbylove about it and he said, must have been the 10k steps and exercises i have been trying to do. exercising somehow bring some healthy hue to the cheeks, adrenaline, endorphins. i like it. no. i love it.

and then i tried to make sense of things again.

last week was our first week of school. i used to be anxious. worried. i still do, but i was at peace. perhaps doing this every year give me all the unexpectedness expected. everything will be fine. perhaps i really leave everything to God. Tawakkal.

i squeezed in a few minutes do tahajjud and asked for His grace and assistance.

early morning saturday, i was the first to arrive and somehow managed to read a page of the Qur’an. something i have never done before. i was calm, i read on. i was ready. perhaps the positive mindframe i had reflected in my expression.

but it was all not done alone. the team did great. everyone moved seamlessly. everyone knew what to do. the parents were calm. the students were calm and happy. it was perfect. both saturday and sunday. the weather was calm. it all came perfectly and everything works just nice.

something must have done right.

alhamdulillah. i hope this continues on to the rest of the year.