Alright! Where do I start?? One whole week of mid term break and quite a lot to tell, I really don’t know where to start. It’s not like it’s the most fantastic week or whatever but a much needed break. Well, can say I’m much more luckier than most of my friends because I’m the only one who doesn’t have to study for midterm exams during the break! Zero tests right now and some of my college mates have to crammed as they have exams this week! So long friends~ At the same time I did do some readings and notes, just to fill up the time and did some catching up and memorised 5 surahs!! I’m most proud of my achievement in memorising 5 surahs! Go Me!! And read History!! And finished my Ulumul Hadith notes. Yeah! Guess I’m quite ready for a new me this time. Only one thing I did not touch when I really should- my assignment for Intro To Fiqh. I can’t bring myself to read but I did check up some points for the assignment..only need to read through and compose the whole thing….in Arabic! Hope I can do it. I have to do this seriously now as it is going to be one of the thing to help for my final exams! I’m not putting much hope on my past tests. Go Seri!! Thank God I have 6 more days to hand in the assignment.

The week’s been a cool one! I had fever on Saturday so basically I’m in bed the whole day. The family went to Changi Beach on Sunday and had a good time. My little siblings had the most fun time swimming. I don’t but I still had a great time splashing and building sandcastles….I know it’s childish but I don’t get to be childish that often so what the heck!!! Monday till Wednesday, I’m a potato couch but it’s fun watching tv all day with nothing on in particular. It’s like don’t care whatever’s on tv, I’ll watch it. Only on Thursday did my day seemed a little bit spiced up because for the most embarrassingly proclaimation, I went out with someone, for the first time(!!!), just the two of us, that person drives. Guess it’s a cute thing to happened. And it wasn’t planned and it’s not a date! That has to be clear- not a date!! I’m still digesting the fact that I allowed myself to go out with this cute someone. Thank God I was myself, despite the no-mood-to-be-pretty-today..I really was in my most slackest attire ever, Well, how should I know he’s gonna ask me to accompany him. I was, by the way, already on my way to pay some bills at Somerset and was planning that I would wander around a bit at Orchard, maybe hanged out at Borders and devour the smell of new books. I thought I was going to enjoy moments of solitaire in a crowded place all by myself when he messaged that he’s going to Parkway to buy cds and would-you-accompany-me, please??? I was surprised at that because I was losing hope of ever going out with anyone for the week. Very much surprised and remembering that I had actually dreamt that we were going out together the night before…..he read my mind or what?? Well, after I paid the bills, I waited for him at Eunos and he came and drive us to Parkway. Heh, first time ever with a guy, and happened to be him, and he drives….cute. My friends are gonna envy me~ Evil. Since it’s a casual thing, I can say we had a good time talking about everything, although maybe I was a bit too shy….but I know I was at ease talking to him and no guilty conscience or anything…I am myself. Count himself lucky to be the first…whatever. He sent me home and then we talked somemore, he borrowed my cds, tuned my guitar…Let’s say it again…he’s cute.

On Friday, I let myself be a housekeeper, I cooked(!!!!), did washing, sweeping, mopping and watched tv! I’m happy doing that since when I’m here in campus, the only thing I did is sweeping. Then Saturday, he came down again to return the cds and we talked again. All we did was talking…boring…but I appreciated it. I told him I don’t know why he showed so much concern towards me but thank you and I appreciated it greatly. He’s been a good friend anyway so it seemed unfair to doubt him. Whatever he’s keeping from me…well, he’ll say it one day. He’s always like that, kept things from me and suddenly dropped everything like a bombshell. So take your time. You’ll explain yourself one of these days.

That’s my cute week!! Still digesting….I went out…wonder what he’s thinking…if it’s good things, thank you but if vice versa…well what the heck, I couldn’t be bothered. Still, thank you for the brief memories.

So now I have to concentrate on my studies. And be well prepared for the exams which I feel like it’s just round the corner. Go Seri!!

Yes we did it!!! We did our performance and I am so proud of all of us!!! The Sisters’ Cultural Night was a good one and I know we did great! We were actually the fourth performers on the list but something went wrong, the UAE who was third came in late and so we had to be forwarded. Thank God all of us were ready but very much surprised too because of this slight mistake. And furthermore, because of it, there’s a slight technical mistake when we were to start the music.

I was the first one to be on stage with my guitar and people were already ‘wowing’ but I had to be sitting up there taking coolness within me while waiting for my friends to come out. And then my strumming was good, but I doubt people could hear it carefully, so that was sad because I know I strummed well!! And the poem was supposed to be cool….. Then sudden silence and suddenly hip hop comes in and the audience wowed again…..and then suddenly devdas comes in..another wowed. Too bad the microphone’s not working that good. Technicalities sucked!. And when the devdas kneeled down, silence and then the addictive song comes in, along with the hoppers and people wowed again. The mix was the most fun of all, I know we did great! It was the most colourful show I guess. And we had been receiving nothing but praises from almost everyone!!! We were so great!!

And now I missed those rehearsals together, and the times spent and the friendship formed. I really missed the girls!!!

It’s the most beautiful thing ever happened! I can never forget those times together. We’ll do it again next year!!

It’s 12 am and I’m in the CC(cybercafe) and actually feeling free of burden and a huge relief in my brain for being able to not think of important things. I had two tests this week which I think I did quite well in them I hope I get a pass for both. I truly hope so. There’s three more tests next week. Insya Allah, I’ll do my best and then there’ll be one week mid-term break!!! Yeah!! I so need that break this time. After all this brain drain, I just want to go to the library and read a book or just the whole day watching tv!!! I really can’t wait!

We had our rehearsals and looks like it’s going to be a great performance!! Our dance steps are real cool and unique and we had the cool poem about youths. Initially, there’s going to be a sketch, but after much consideration….we found out that there’s going to be not enough time for the Devdas team to get ready and all…..so scrap the sketch and just go with the heartfelt poem accompanied by guitar…which is going to be played by ME!!! I hope I’ll do great and not spoil everything. It’s going to be in front of so many people, you don’t want to embarrass yourself, Seri…whatsmore, you’re only going to play four familiar and too used to chords. You should be ok and don’t disappoint your friends!!!

I really can’t wait for this Saturday and be done with the performance!! But I know we will do our best and have fun for the night!! We won’t expect to win, we just want to join in and make it merrier! We are the third performance and I hope we can DO IT!!! GO GIRLS!!! I’m so proud of their hardworkings and time spent on the training. I know we can do it. All the best, girls!!!!

I never know that I’m going to be brain tired like this that I forgot my days and dates, forgot the small things that I need to remember, had less than three hours of sleep every night, and tried hard to stay awake in class and consumed whatever it is the lecturer’s saying. Truly brain drain.

The week had been real busy, especially with the performance rehearsals..took up much of our time because we had three more days to go to the night. It had to be near perfect! And I had mid term exams and a lot to read up….pimples are coming out more than usual nowadays…must be the stress.

I can just thank God that I’m still alive. Truly brain drain.

By the way…some people are so shit they like to show faces at us, like they know everything…and I just want to be quiet, sit some place peaceful and read a cool book! And I hate answering stupid questions when answers are so obvious you just need to be more observant…and sorry but sometimes I just can’t be bothered to say something back. It’s like talking without sense. Just say it and I’ll listen. And I’m tired of having to do the first moves everytime…and reminding people of things they need to do. I know I’ve done my job, it’s up to people to do theirs. but don’t let things be ruined. That’s all I ask.

Brain draiin and someone don’t seem to care.

I went back to Singapore last week. If you noticed, that was my birthday week, so my parents asked me to spend the weekend in Singapore, most Singaporeans went back also.

 

I had a nice surprise from my family, they welcomed me with cakes and presents~ blue roses, a card and a cool Swatch, which I really love!!! Love them all!! Even though my mother had high dreams to celebrate my birthday (like a dinner or something) but this small family surprise is much more closer to the heart! Miss them already!!

 

Anyway, 30 mins of eye to eye with the friend. And another surprise….a very much unexpected gift from the friend.  He told me before he’s going to give a present, but I never imagined that he would give these two beautiful things!! It was so beautiful, I had been speechless! It’s like I can’t say ‘thank you’ enough. I showed them to my close friends and they were all awed by it~ I really love the gifts.

 

And another nice gift from my friends, a designed orange tile with a cd and cool guitar pasted on it! Real cool thing. And another nice blue flower brooch…..THANK YOU ALL!

Have I said that unintentionally I seemed to be involved in too much activities?? At the start of this semester, I was so sure of myself that I won’t involve myself with any programmes but as the days go by, I kept saying yes when people asked if I can join this and that.

Well let’s see:

1. Banner painting for Ummatic Week, seemingly taking care of the Singaporean team. Which is fun and doesn’t require much thinking.

2. Assistant head for photography for IRK Magazine for graduating students. Thank God the brother who is senior is a dependable person. So I’m more or less leaving things to him. hehe

3. Taking care of Sisters’ Cultural Night Ummatic Week for Singaporeans’ performance. Which I had to prepare the script and make sure that everything is going well. And trying, working, praying that the performance will be a great one. I have the feeling it is. Preparation in two weeks’ time! Right now, typing out the script…

4. A sub-committee under Programme Coordinator for Ummatic Week Cultural Stage by the Riverside. Thank God it’s going to be only one night. And the head seems to be looking over everything. I’ll just listen and follow instructions….which is more than fine by me.

5. A sub-committee for IRK Annual Grand Dinner for graduating students. I’m a first year doing ‘things’ for the final year students!! But at the moment there’s no meetings or work to be done yet.

6. I just found out from the Assistant Director of the Down to Earth programme that they have put my name in the organizing committee for Appreciation Night as an assistant in Publicity and Protocol bureau. No meetings yet.

7. Archery….and I still haven’t go and do some training!!! And it’s one of the important things!!! I hope the President of Archery club is not angry with me. I just don’t have the time…Maybe next week.

And amongst these, I have tests and mid term exams coming up!!! I hope I can do it. I have to!!! I’ve been sleeping late these few nights to catch up on some reading but I don’t regret it. Makes life more busy and time worthy. And unconsciously stick to mind the message that I have little time to study so it will make my brain eager to read my books!! I hope it works.

I’m trying my best.

I’m 21 today!!!! A beautiful day it has been and I’m thankful to God for giving me the gift of life. And this happiness start since this morning. Friends have been smsing and wishing me. Thank you all!! And of course The Call, which really is a nice surprise!

There’s nothing more that I could wish for. Only a successful life. To be a knowledgeable intellectual person and be someone of worthy in the eyes of Allah and the people. Most of all to make my parents happy and proud.

I’m 21 today!!!

I slept for only two hours last night but I am feeling unusually happy…or maybe the tiredness will come back later in the afternoon. I prepared my Halaqah presentation last night and presented it this morning. I think I did well. I hope the other sisters will benefit from it. I tried hard for this. It has to be fruitful. Anyway I love doing it. And one of the sisters said that without me, the halaqah would be too quiet. Yeah!! I’m appreciated. Thank You!!

Anyway, something nice happened, which might be one of the reason for this cheerfulness. An unexpected sms came from someone, 30 minutes after I had dozed of, ie, at 4 am! And I had just thought that someone is not going to sms. He heard me or what??? Nice of him to sms and so like him to send one at any time of the night!!

So today I planned to read up my books, do some revision, memorise the important ones. Since I’m going to be busy, it’s better if I start studying now, rather than waiting for exams. It is Knowledge after all…..and knowledge is not all about passing exams…though it is important..the ultimate knowlegde is fear of God and I’m doing this because Allah has given me this gift of knowledge. So help me God.

I’m at the CC at 3 am typing out my presentation. Trying to make a presentable presentation…..I actually enjoyed it. But the thing is….right now I’m in a middle of music ‘war’. Exactly on my right are these group of African girls downloading hip hop songs and I was surprised they listened to these songs and remembering every single word of the song!!! Actually grooving to them. And on my left were a group of Malaysian girls listening to some boyband songs…I think it’s by the Westlife??? And I don’t listen to either type of songs. I’m stuck!!!! But a merry place all the same..

Yes, I skipped two classes this morning. Intro to Fiqh class and I guess I won’t miss anything since the lecturer will be reading every single word from the book. And History class which was unintentionally because I thought I would miss Intro to Fiqh, woke up later and go to History but I missed the time. But then again, I hope I will be able to get the notes from my neighbour upstair. And I’m feeling quite sick and exceptionally cold, a headache and somewhat blurry of everything..

I had the meeting for IRK Magazine. I was assistant head for photography and I did nor know that it’s a very hard job and we only have one week to do our job, luckily the Head is a dependable guy. Well, he’s in the 4th year, he should be responsible and I’m only in my first year and just about to learn all these and needing guidance. I’ll try my best..if the photos for the magazines turns out well, I’ll be making my parents proud of me and that’s what matters. So wake up Seri!!! And THOSE BOOKS TO READ!!!

I attended an Interfaith Dialogue organized by the IRKHS Students’ Society for thier I-MEC (Islamic Mega Carnival), “Science and your scriptures, is it a conflict or conciliation,” and it was a very refreshing intellectual digesting my mind programme. There are speakers for Islam, Hinduism, Christianity and Buddhism and they are all real learned people I got to respect! The Muslim speaker, Mr Shah Kirit…he really knows every verse of the Qur’an which tells of anything scientific. I aspire to be like him. I am especially in awe of his knowledge in Science: the big bang theory, cosmology, the beginning of time, creation. It makes me eager to start reading anything scientific and astrologic. And then there’s the Hindu speaker. Mr Utama Saitani…he’s so eloquent and articulate, he speaks great English and it is as though he’s reading from a book. There’s a lot of things in Hindu I do not understand but I will learn about them. He speaks of the Vedic texts and that Ramayana and Mahabharata are historical recordings and not myth. Then there’s the Christian speaker which I did not really concentrate during his presentation and the Buddhist speaker who is a funny guy and bring out laughs from the audience.

I benefit from the dialogue. I know I am going to attend more of this in the future.

At the moment, I’m still preparing for my presentation and still unsure of how to present it in an interesting way instead of just talking about it in front. It’s due tomorrow….