I had had three classes today and I had been sleepy in all three of them!!! I can’t help it. I slept at 3 am last night and classes started at 8.30 am. I came and went to classes with a blur mind!! There’s a lot of things to catch up.

Cannot say much for now..I’m late for another meeting on IRK Magazine.

Just for the record..saw someone who looked like Orlando Bloom!!! With the hair and the cheekbones and the shirt!!! Now I actually find someone to look for for these few days 🙂

It was my little brother’s birthday last monday and I forgot to highlight that!!! But I did send a message to him. Too bad I can’t see him for now…and today is my sister’s birthday. Yeah three of us born in the same month. Cool huh? Well, here in UIA, there’s three of us born of the same date!!! Three of us and it’s not everyday we get to have three person of the same birthdate at the same place studying the same subject! I’m happy meeting my ‘twins’.

Well, suddenly I found myself very busy and I’m here supposedly to check up on things for my research but I got distracted by this. I had been painting banners for the Ummatic week and today I have three meetings back to back to attend. But the good things is that..the more busy I get the more eager I am to study and read all those books and memorise everything. Is it some reverse psychology working it’s miracle on me?? Because even though I find myself rushing to places and actually feeling tired..I am willing to sacrifice my sleep to read up my books…so it’s a good thing after all involving oneself in activities.

I just found out that the new head for Usuluddin and Comparative Religion is the very Madam that had snubbed me in Ethics class!! And I’m beginning to wonder if she is going to make my life harder….she’s strict in her subjects…she’s going to be strict in giving A’s and Dean’s List!!! Why am I stuck with her?? I know there’s something good behind this….right? It looks like I have to be in her good books after all!!! I have to impress her just so my life won’t be ruined!! What the….!!!

No problem….I will try my best!

That’s the title for my presentation which is due this Saturday!!! I’m determined to do the best that I am and give a good presentation, not necessarily impressionable…well, it’ll only be presented to other sisters but still it’s going to be 20% for my exams!! There’s so many articles on the net and it’s going to take up much time than expected to actually read them, understand and highlight the important points. It’s going to be fun, I guess!!! 🙂

For the record: Euro 2004 champion is….GREECE!!! Totally unexpected and too bad for Portugal but heck…what do I care??

And yeah..I checked out friendster.com and guess who I found??? It’s the Friend!! I don’t know what to say only that most of his friends are like girls..though some of them are attached…I guess I see some unknown part of him…he’s still the same..maybe.

And I don’t have any reason to feel or think anything at all about it…right??

*sigh* gee I don’t know what the friend wants from me

I don’t know if I can trust him, and I may never know the answer to this mystery…

I can’t believe I’m actually staying up to watch Euro 2004. Well, it’s actually the final match…Portugal vs Greece. I don’t know a single player in any of the teams. I had never even cared before….but influences…it’s all about influences from my three closest friends…Mint, Qzai and Qadar. They love soccer and they really know the game..Me? I only know that the ball has to go into the goal…but really …soccer is a fun game to watch.. 🙂

I did a banner painting today!! And it was fun really though I had a headache later due to having to look at so many different colours and my back is aching!! But it really was fun. It’s a banner for the Ummatic week due this end of the month which is going to be one of the anticipated programmes in this Uni. Even I myself are the some kind of a producer for a performance by Singaporean students, don’t know why I took up this job…but I’ll try my best~

And looking at my timetable, I find myself involved in a few activities…which I thought I told myself not to get involve in any this semester….what am I gonna do…but I don’t choose to, they put my name in the committees…how am I gonna face my friend?? How am I gonna concentrate??? But I know…this business will make me more aware of my short time..I REALLY HAVE TO STUDY!!!!

Help me God.

It’s a Saturday morning and I can’t believe I’m actually up and sitting here in the ITD, playing the net!! It’s a rare chance!!

I had a Halaqah class just now. The first class and my leader or naqibah as we call it, is one of the seniors that went together to the Down To Earth programme in Johor. Although I was not that close to her because we had different foster family and under different sub-programmes but at least she’s someone I’m familiar and able to joke around with. The other members were quiet and I tried to make some conversations but hey…I’m a natural quiet person, I need some back-up or response!!!

As this was the first class, there’s nothing much, only a brief ta’aruf (orientation)…I guess,the naqibah and the assistant naqibah should start the session more lively…I mean it’s early in the morning!! Can’t expect us to do the talking….well it’s a first time and I hope the coming sessions will be a bit more fun. Even though I’m a quiet person, I do enjoy noise and moreover when we are in a group, it’s terribly weird to be in silence.

And I have to be the first to do a presentation. That’ll be 20% for the record, another 20% for memorising some surahs, only 20%for final examinations and 40%(!!!!!) for attendance!! That’s a lot! And it’s on Saturday…how am I going to go home for some of the weekend?? And someone had been asking…twice..when I’ll be back…aaarrrrgggghhhhhh 😦 But I did ask the naqibah if we can change the day. She said we are not supposed to but she’ll try and I hope we get to change!!! I don’t care which day as long as it’s not on weekends!!! So let’s pray for it….

Yes I am damn excited about this!!!! For almost six months…no…9 months missing my beloved CHARMED, I got to watch it, right here in IIUM!!! I can’t believe it. I was reading the newspaper today….and flipping the entertainment pages…I glanced upon a picture of Paige on the tv programmes channels page. And found out there’s CHARMED on tv tonight!!!

I had been contemplating whether to go down to the tv room to watch this most wanted programme in my life…because I was sure the locals would have control on the tv and maybe they would prefer to watch some local programmes….but I braved myself and went to the tv room, sure of myself that I will stand up and tell the ‘audience’ I’m going to watch CHARMED. But thank GOD, I was not to have to say a word at all.

These people do watch CHARMED after all!!! I was so damn happy!!!!

I am feeling happy still and of course it’s going to be on my list of tv times. I will go watch CHARMED every Friday night at 10!! I will!!! After months…I get to watch them again….a REUNION…BLESSED BE… I terribly miss them!!! And Baby Wyatt Matthew Halliwell is so cute!!!! The apple of my eye…and Piper..and Phoebe….and Paige….and Leo…and the new cool Chris. I’m looking forward to next week!!!

CHARMED every Friday night at 10 Malaysian time on NTV7. Not to be missed!! Should have known earlier!!

ASSIIUM held a Ta’aruf session last Wednesday and in my opinion quite a grand one. What made it grand was actually the 95% attendace of the Singaporeans students studying here in IIUM. I was actually surprised and do felt happy at being able to be part of a large group of people. It felt close. I wish we are all closer to one another. A tight knit of friendship that won’t be forgotten forever. I guess I will have to remember them after all. Even though I don’t consider them as truly my family yet, but they are the ones who may stay by my side in times of need and happiness. Of course we can’t be the best of friends to all of them. But they are here…with me.

Well anyway, the Ta’aruf is for the new students who entered IIUM this semester and the introducing of the new exco members of ASSIIUM. There are about 15 new students. Most of them brothers from Aljunied and sisters from various madrasahs. A ‘brother’ of mine is one of them and I’m happy for him. I know IIUM had been of his first choices and he makes it here. At least I have one more friend I can actually communicate with. A brother….and maybe in a few months’ time, my cousin will be joining me!!!! Yeah!! I hope she’ll make it!!!

The new exco members…well. we found out who’s the new ‘president’ of ASSIIUM. I won’t comment on him, I just hope he and all of them will do their best and not made the same mistakes and wrongs they did to me and my friends!!! DON’T JUST PREACH GUYS, ACT IT!!! Because, I’m too observant sometimes and one wrong move, that’s it, no more trust on you guys!!

The problem with the Singaporeans here, I don’t know, maybe some of them think they are better than others or that they know much than others that they forget who they really are. And just because they have all the time to sit at HS almost the whole day makes them the ‘popular’ bunch, the ones people know….what f**k. And talking about mahabbah with sisters indeed…. look who’s closer to the brothers now?? It’s like the bad things they said about us, are slapped right to their face….and I wonder if they ever realised it. We kept it all inside because we don’t want to make things worse but sometimes their very face makes me want to puke……and trying to take in some of the good things in them….it’s a chore….does that make me a hypocrite??? I wish I can just sit in one corner and read a book peacefully and listen to my Reason 24/7. I wish I could…but I can’t….because I’m only human. Maybe I can forget those hypocrite faces, maybe I can forgive them for the things they said behind us….even if people said they don’t talk about me….well they talk about my friends who have been there for me all along….maybe I can just act as if nothing had ever happened….but I can’t, because they are real and right in front of my face. Help me God.

Well this is supposed to be a happy entry. I had fun during the taa’ruf. For a brief moment, I was able to ignore any bad aura and concentrate on the new students. We did have fun and I’m glad almost all of us came down. Almost like a reunion of some kind. Bless them all……

The title says Reading Competition but it might as well be the Funniest night of my life!!! Here the story goes.

I was asked by the President of IRK Students’ Society to join an International Reading Competition. Without really knowing what it was I agreed with the information that it’s going to be on this Monday night. So Sunday evening, as I blogged before, I had so much free time. We went to a bazaar later that evening by the Riverside, noticing a mini stage for some programmes. So just when I reached my room 8.20 pm, I received a call from the SRC informing to come down at that very Riverside for they are going to have the competition at 8.45 pm!!! I was shocked at that but thankful to the girl for calling me!! I rushed out wearing only shirt and jeans, not knowing how the competition is with no thought at all that I ever had to be on stage!!! I was nervous and worried as I had never participated in any competition and did not prepared well…..but it’s not going to be the worst…..

I reached the Riverside with Mint and Qzai accompanying me (God bless them) and we were actually early and right on time. There’s only the organizing committee around so we waited for almost to 30 minutes. Then there’s the briefing of the game and I was really surprised by it. It’s a reading competition whereby we are given an article to read on stage (I was thinking ok that’s quite easy but what if I can’t pronounce some of those long hard English words???) The surprise is yet to come…..after some more briefings I found that the reading competition will be in……..BAHASA MELAYU!!!! What??!!! In Malay?? I am terribly surprised. I mean I speak Malay!! And am competing with foreigners who have just 3-4 years learnt Malay….I was quite embarrassed..as these people had to study…while I’m born to speak Malay…still my Malay is quite bad 😦

Anyway, I was the first participant to get on stage. What’s more, I’m representing Islamic Revealed Knowlegde Kulliyah (faculty) but I’m wearing casual… and I read the very short ridiculous article trying my best to look important. Like this is some serious game….and I managed!! It’s still a funny thing

And guess what….I got the first place which is might as well, it’d be a shame, a Malay speaking person lost to a foreigner, but I’m thinking it’s an easy win but Thank God I won. A boost to start the semester!!!