it’s dear ramadhan mubarak but so many people out there who are trying to make life as difficult as ever!!! One is the always grumpy lady at the office and always finding fault with everything that we did. Can’t you give us some space?!!! Never once coming for supporting the halimah teams, not coming for sports’ day and see whatis up and all she wants is the report ready and then so many other mistakes she wanted to spot out!!! What is her problem??!! And i’ve avoided office just because it’s presentations week, i can’t afford to think about anything else, but complaints from my mrc telling me this and that. Shit ah!!

And there’s the good-for-nothing abnormal schizophrenic -her-mind-is not of- this world, with too much time and credit to spare stupid spy who’s been harassing me with fitnahs and smses, is now suprise2x, trying to get close with ex vp mrc!! She of all people?? What is this girl? she has a thing for vice presidents??? She’s a total freak!! and the three of us, me , ex vp and vp are trying to device something to get back at her. Heh nak buat kacau tu tengok oranglah!!! ni dengan aku dengan julia. ingat kita ni bodoh ke apa??

……home is the best therapy!!! Indeed, and home always have the answer!! 🙂

I made the most drastic decision last saturday…I was going desperate preparing for my research proposal and at the same time, albiruni for muslims’ legacy and goddesses for myth. real desperate up to the point of crying because there were not enough sources for my topics. Especially for my subculture research…I was about to curse IIU, and also for not owning a laptop or pc here that it was nervewrecking thinking that there’s no place that I can type out my assignment and slides for the presentation!! Friday i couldn’t sleep just thinking of the consequences that i might face and thus, the decision to go back home was made and I took the first bus back to singapore!!!

But no enjoying at first, i urged my sisters to wait for me at Woodlans interchange and as soon as I reached there, we went straight to woodlands library!! And don’t I love Singapore at that moment!!! The very sources that touch specifically on subcultures and comprehensive and interesting and everything nice and spicy haha. Alhamdulillah, it was not a waste going back since I found the things that I need. and seeing my family is the best therapy, when before I was in not so good mood and everything seems to go wrong, going back makes all the negative radars fade and a new light shine through~ i did not regret the drastic decision i made.

and now up for the presentations. Muslim’s legacy’s done today and madam remakred that it was a good presentation overall and i hope i did as good as i had wanted. izhar, haron, diana and even najib were great. tomorrow will be the long awaited research and thursday will be myth and am so eager to present that because i think i have a good topic to discuss…tracing mother goddess.how does that sound??

wish me all the best for the…, not unisports week nor ummatic week nor whatever week but….. PRESENTATION WEEK!!!

I’m done with my Islamic Thought assignment and now up looking for my stuffs for my Research Proposal : Youth Subcultures and its impact on the Islamic Aqidah – Case study in Singapore. So what do you think about it??? Cool huh?

To celebrate my completed assignment, am taking this opportunity to ‘relax’ before going on for my next three assignments!!!

Message: :
:::: A R E Y O U :::
*sensitive = nope.yes sometimes.
*easily hurt = yes but gets over it pretty soon..
*choosy = yes..
*active= definitely yes
*very shy = Still am..
*confident in yourself = yes I am but depends on the situations sometimes…
*a good listener = can be..
*easily bored = yes
*Daring =not so
*outgoing = sometimes
*open-minded = there’s a limit to it though
*an only child = happily the eldest for my two little brothers and 2 little sisters (can’t help but still looking at them as though they were still babies, even though they’re all teenagers haha
*happy at the moment = alhamdulillah, finished my assignment!!
*wearing anything yellow now? = no
*tired = indeed but on fo rthe next assignment!
*playing any online games = gee, nooo
*good at Chess = long haven’t played it
*addicted to chocolates = nnnaah
*tempted by soft drinks = especially season’s iced lemon tea
*a couch potato = if back in Singapore, definitely am
*tall/fat/short= average
*afraid of the dark = no
*always freaked = no

::: D O Y O U :::
*play the guitar= I like to answer ths because the answer is YES
*play the piano = hopeless
*play any other musical instrument= no
*like your life = LOVE my life
*like school = hehe, having alove-hate relationship to this IIUM
*like dancing = sometimes
*like sweets = green apple mentos, cinnamon apple fisherman’s friend
*have a girlfriend/boyfriend = the Only One
*like traveling = of course!!
*own an Xbox = nooo
*have a cellphone =yes
*like Spongebob Squarepants = miss watching spongebob!!
*have a tattoo = no lah
*ride a bike = like mountain bike, yes ah
*read Harry Potter = only till the second book
*read a lot = yes I do, into paulo coelho and josetein gardner
*yell at your siblings = we love to yell at one another!!
*argue with your parents = no
*love McDonalds = no
*play basketball = no
*play badminton = used to
*watch football = only during world cup i guess
*watch Disney channel = used to
*like Oreo = yes, with milk or ice cream
*drive = learning
*do the housework = only back in Singapore

::: W I L L Y O U :::*sacrifice for the one you love = for the Only One, yes

The Ummatic Week has ended with some grace. The Closing Ceremony was ‘impressive’ as the director of ummatic puts it, and Tawfique and Faizal, my two directors, were ever so cool and nice about it. Though I have to admit that I witnessed Tawfique at his most stressful moments,and he handled it with wisdom and diplomacy, having worked with him before, I saw that this closing Ceremony meant a lot to him and he really did the VERY BEST for the success of it. And Faizal and me was only helping along. Still I have to say, I could have done more had I been the one doing the talking with the performers with their 1001 reasons and demands and cooperating only 40% throughout the whole work progress and during the night itself.

I was running around, taking over the flag bearers(having to stand on a chair to get their attention and be seen among the tall guys and their even taller flag poles), looking for the performers(finding the vietnamese at their booth outside the main hall!!),worrying about everything at the same time, making last minute decisions(like telling the technician to fade the song of the Comoros performance so they would stop), being more than patient with the performers from different countries(the jordanians making noises), being disappointed with the embarrassing performances by some(by the myanmar students), damn irritated with the changes which I DID NOT KNOW OF(PC counterstrike, again~) and letting tawfique and faizal doing the entertaining to the VIPs, and oh yeah, being terribly terribly disappointed that my simple name was spelt wrongly when they showed the pictures of the mainboards of ummatic week. Almost like my efforts were not appreciated at all….

By the end of the event, I was worn out heart body and soul. Still, it was an experience, a valuable one, working with international students..and they really have a different way of working, like able to accept mistakes and willing to share them so that others may learn from it, quick thinking and able to make right decisions during crucial moments. and thank you Kha for being the unofficial photographer.

I tried my very best for this event and alhamdulillah, nothing terribly bad happened, but the huge crowd was a relief and their anticipation throughout the event was encouraging. 50% of my committees did their very best while the half of it don’t really put their heart into it, thus, the mistakes during the event. And PC counterstrike…I don’t know what they’re doing~ and secretary was not so strong, granted that she’s new, my expectations are always high for a secretary, but I guess she did her very best. Overall, I have to say everything was great though. I learnt alot and they are some of the best memories I had here at IIU, and remind me, I have only one more year left. and this might be my last ummatic week.

End of Ummatic Week- oh yeah, CONGRATULATIONS to the Singaporeans who made the booth possible- Shasha&Darwis(for all the designs and ideas), Najib(for the great esplanade!!), Farhan, Salman, Ashraf (also for being the flagbearer),Anuar, Nurunnur, Azimah, Jannah, Waida, Aresha, Haron, Izhar, Nasir(for taking the stuffs from STB), Nisa, Haizumi, Hasanah Dzul, and the xcos- for always dropping by- Aili, Aisyah Spec, Fadiah, Liyana and Qadr…and extra names for the girls who perform for sisters’ cultural nite- K.dewi, far, an, yaya, yana, za, kha..ler macam ambik award lah pulak.


It’s been a great week. Now,I’m able to fully concentrate onmy studies and the month of Ramadhan….and in three weeks’ time, I’ll be going back home!!!

A new week has started today and different kind of business occurs~
It’s the UMMATIC WEEK 06!!
There’s the booth: beautiful and smart indeed, all the work done by committed assiiumers at last!
and the sisters’ cultural nite (can’t wait to see the girls perform!!!)
and the closing ceremony(am a committee and it’s nerve-wrecking)
And of course, as a student, I cannot run from assignments!!
and oh yeah, still, IIU weak-period: Pre-reg this one whole week, and the src elections this thursday.
I mean can’t there be one thing at a week??!! Nak jugak buat election minggu ni!! Orang sibuk nak pre-reg lah!! And they say it’s because the other IPTs in Malaysia are also having their elections this week. Can’t they have it next week? During Ramadhan, kan berkat sikit??

Thus, the excitement of IIU life. It’s a love-hate relationship~

Alhamdulillah, this chaotic week has ended!! The week with one of the most challenging, trying, and simply put: menguji kesabaran that I have ever faced three years in IIUM.

1. UniSports Carnival
Halimah’s side: Only the Table tennis team managed to grab the second place, after years of being champion! And we lost Hockey, and the rest, well it’s just disappointing and most of the players left with despair. Is there anyone to blame? NO. No One. every one tried very hard and performed their best. They even did trainings two days before the tournaments, but I guess, luck wasn’t on our side. Most of us were not ready at all for the games. No. None could focus. I’m disappointed that we couldn’t live up to our championship of last year. I don’t know what went wrong. And it was my goal to try and maintain the top place!! But failing isn’t everything.

The only one good news we had was that we won the FIRST place for MARCHING!!! This win is FOR ALL OF MAHALLAH HALIMAH’S TEAMS. THIS IS FOR YOU!! The admittedly last minute handling of marching, in debt for the dress, the difficulties in searching for marchers, all the obstacles throughout the training for the marchers, it’s paid of, and surprise surprise, I AM one of the marchers. Believe it or not, laugh it off if you want to, but yes for the first time ever, I was marching!! HAHA. And learning all the steps in one night! Yes, One night. I’m amazed myself that I can actually march and be in rythm with the rest. Maybe because I’d been with them throughout their trainings that maybe I built up the ability for marching just by being with them all night long. Heh it’s quite easy actually.

And the feeling was EUPHORIC!! Especially when we did our unique steps. It’s SPLENDID!! AWESOME!!

And Halimah won because of those cool steps, even though we actually wore more or less the same suit that we wore last year and surprise surprise, Many of the other sisters’ mahallahs actually follow in our footsteps last year. They do REALLY LEARN FROM US~ But hey we did first, you girls are just following us, like those silky shiny dresses you all wore. the ‘crown’ on the head. white pants. international students wearing traditional cloths (there was one wearing a kimono and why in the whole world the rector commented her a geisha??) And thank ALLAH, we did not wear the yellow selempang that we first thought of, because there were like 5 of the contingents wearing that!!! And again, copycats!!! Because we wore those yellow selempangs during the Merdeka marching when Halimah was the only contingent who was in unity. Cheh!

So OK, we all win fairplay. And Halimah is queen of marching~ No doubt. Love them.

Before ending that, perlulah The organizer changed the time for the Closing Ceremony to 3pm!! Instead of 8pm per usual!!! Because of one very IMPORTANT person!!! important your head.

All these in the midst of everything else.

Going to Singapore Tourism Board for assistance for our booth on Ummatic Week. spending RM50 for the transport.
Being the Asst. Director 2 for Closing Ceremony and which I did a terrible mistake leaving the two guys Tawfique and Faizal on their own during the two day auditions. But I can’t do otherwise, since I’m IN the marching.
A mid term test on thursday for dear dr Kamar and which she only told us on the tuesday of the same week!! And there was no protest from my classmates!! I came in 5 minutes late and the decisions made and it so happened most of the budak pandais of the class was absent! They would have the smartness to say something!
And oh yeah, an assignment due this week and oh my god!! There’s another one due this tuesday!!

And yes, I have to say this is IIU at its most stupid period~
this to be continued~~~~~~~

Back in IIU and what else is new except people giving me trouble as soon as I step on BUMI IIU!! Eh no, even before I went out of my house!! Received a message from my roommate Ana on Tuesday night, saying that the turkish roommate we’ve just had had made a mess in our room!!! She was swearing and it was rare of Ana to swear at people, so I imagined it must have been very bad! She couldn’t even wait for me to reach IIU.

And reached IIU yesterday at around 6 pm, already a message from an mrc saying she couldn’t handle the marching, could I take over for now?? and

another mrc who was supposed to be ‘supervisor’ and she was oh so eager to start training yesternight, she sent a message saying she’s still back at home, the car’s broke down and will only reach IIU the next day!!!

What the TOOOOOTTTT!!! Aku balik cepat ni untuk apa eh??!!!

So could kak Seri please handle the marching tonight, and oh yeah, surprise2x, the seamstress will be coming down tonight to measure the participants for their dress!!! It’ll be RM 35 per dress

What the TOOOOOTTTT!!! And may I know who the participants are?? do they know about the meeting?? RM35?! Mana nak cari duit la dol?!!

They already knew about it but ooppss, the list of the participants are in the room back at IIU!!! We’ll think about the money tmrw~

So how the hell am I supposed to know who’s who??

Oh don’t worry they’ll be coming.

And I just found out there’s only 11 of them waiting now…where’s the rest??!!!

Ok, the conversation went on and on and on…but fret not, Seri’s handling it…everything will be fine~ yeah right~

Coming back to IIUM, and the avalanche’s already drowning me. Help me breathe!!

talking about happier things
after what seems like eons…I met the very person I’ve always wanted/hoped/prayed/needed to meet. A very ..can I say, fated unplanned meeting at the most unexpected place to be seeing him at last!!
Can I just print every minute of the memory in my mind~ I even have a name for it!! well according to Aili and Syah spec: Syofi muhajirin. ; )
I don’t have the words to actually describe the mixed feelings I’m having but to say that I’m happy and it brings some peace to be seeing him and knowing he’s well and working, that he’s still the same person that I’ve always known.

But still, there’s always questions unanswered.

After weeks of fast paced life, I’m returning to Singapore and try to enjoy my life….considering my mind will always return back to IIU and the many thing sthat I have to do!!!

1. University Sports Carnival
It’s so unfortunate that they have to organize this event right after the semester break!!! I have no idea what the older people were thinking and to think that the students are doing the dirty work, all they have to do is commandcommandcommand!! And Halimatus sa’adiah was unfortunate to have a sweet and timid fellow, though her presence brings a minute strength, at the end of the day the MRC has to do everything. Thank God I have a very committed MRC who has the leadership potential in her and she has been handling her task very well. And to think that the hostel manager was a VERY GRUMPY person. She’s never satisfied with anything. And her cold remarks is TOOOOTTT. My Mrc gave her the design of the sports t-shirt and there was always some ocmments she gave and one very hurtful remark was since you want to the MRC, you should take up the responsibility!!! Are you saying My MRC’s not doing her job?? Hello!! We’re students here and we have assignments and tests to do!! She’s not a full time worker!!! Couldn’t you be more appreciative??? I’m lucky she has never actually shown the real her to me, maybe because I’m a Singaporean, but still, I’m protective over my MRC!!

2. Marchingmarchingmarching
Minus the semester break, we have exactly 10 days to go!! and not a single training done!! HELLO people we are the defending champions here, couldn’t you people show a little enthusiasm?? I don’t know what is wrong with the people here. They don’t have the competitive spirit or excitement, they are all just so monotonous and complacent. WAKE UP PEOPLE!!

3. Ummatic Week
Booth and performances. Not really in the dancing performance. I’m afraid I couldn’t commit to it. And oh yeah, It’s back to back. Exactly after Unisports, it’s Ummatic Week! And I found myself into the committee of the closing ceremony as well. It’s Tawfique, I don’t have the heart to reject his offer 😉

4. Presentations
My group presentations are all lining up now!! Two more midterm tests to go and my research as well.

And looking back, it’s all very interesting and heppening actually.
whatever it is, going back to Singapore first!!!